Times always get tough this time of year. You know what I’m talking about: Halloween costumes, Thanksgiving dinners, Christmas parties, presents, the list goes on and on. And for us, add in a wedding anniversary, my birthday and my daughter’s, and husband’s birthday too, all before the New Year. It is absolute chaos here by the middle of October.
Unfortunately, this is also a very painful time of year for one other reason: my husband’s pay goes down. He recently got a promotion, but as I have found with a lot of “promotions” these days, at least where I live, the hours go up and the pay gets magically fishy. My husband works on salary, but the majority of his money comes from commission, which sadly drops quite drastically when October hits. It has been really stressing us both out with holidays around the corner. With this being the first year we’ve encountered this, we weren’t prepared for it.
So we’re doing holidays on a budget but what really bothers me is that we can’t afford to have another baby now and we have been trying so hard. I got my period yesterday and it is the first time since we began trying to conceive that I cried. Intellectually I know we cannot afford another baby, so we shouldn’t have another baby right now, but it doesn’t make it any easier. My heart keeps telling me we would find a way, but I think it would be too much added stress right now.