When I decided what kind of mom I wanted to be, I just listed off things I like. I like to hold my baby, cloth diapers are super cute, I think slings are cool, and breastfeeding is really cheap.
I love holding Austin. I tried a year and a half to get pregnant with him, lost 2 babies (1 DURING Austin’s pregnancy), feared my entire pregnancy that I would lose him, had to leave him in the Level 2 NICU for 2 weeks… Why in the WORLD would I ever put him down? You can’t spoil a newborn right?! Consider Austin the most spoiled rotten little cutie you have ever seen in your life… But I don’t care. I spoiled him and I will continue to. My heart fills with joy when I pick him up and he instantly stops crying. I’m finally THAT person that a baby really wants. And all a baby wants is some love and cuddles, with some kisses on the side. I have spades…
I love cloth diapers. They are cheap. They are super duper cute. I don’t know why everyone doesn’t use them… Throw them in the washing machine, toss them in the dryer, DONE. No running out and running to the store and spending hundred of dollars a month! You can spend around $200 and be DONE until potty training. I wonder how many people spend $200 a MONTH on ugly rough sposies..?
I love babywearing. I hate those stupid bulky heavy infant carrier car seat thingies. I love holding my baby (as discussed above…) so my Baby K’Tan is perfect. It keeps my little man snuggled up to me and keeps us both pretty warm! It’s so easy in the store and I can cover his face so that he doesn’t get germs. People don’t ask to hold him when he’s in it, and if they were to and I didn’t want them to, I could say “sorry it’s really hard to get him in and out” (which it is kinda). There are a few other baby carriers out there that I long for, but for now my Baby K’Tan is perfect! When he’s sleeping he can face me and snuggle on my chest and when he’s awake and taking in the world, he faces forwards and gives everyone coos and smiles. He was definitely a HIT at the post office one afternoon!
Here I go, I will admit it… I did NOT want to breastfeed. I thought it was weird. I thought something sucking on my breasts was going to be odd and strange. I decided halfway through my pregnancy that I would give it a try. Why in the world would I turn something down without trying, especially since it is FREE?! I went to a breastfeeding class and BAM I was sold. Watching those little babies nurse was so heart warming and gave me fuzzy wuzzys! When I had Austin and he was in the NICU pumping was all I could do for him. That was the only thing that I had that I could give him that no one else in that place could and it made me feel so incredibly special and like FINALLY I was helping him. Now during and after I nurse I look down and he’s all droopy eyed, falling asleep, so content… My heart melts. Sometimes he looks back and me and gives me a huge gummy smile. I laugh EVERY time. For those reasons and many more, I really love it. Plus it’s cheap, and I now weigh 10 pounds less than my prepregnancy weight, and I chalk it all up to breastfeeding!
There are labels I could use to describe myself (attachment parenting, crunchy, etc) but instead I’d like to just be Katie, Austin’s mommy! I think it fits!