Blessed with Children Struggling for More, Week of Jan 2nd

[HeatherlovesCDs]

This thread is for women that have children who are trying to have more and struggling with infertility (IF). Some have secondary IF and some have primary IF. Some of us are TTC naturally and some need treatments of some type. All who are struggling are welcome!

We also have women who are praying to make it. Due to prior losses or IF they don't feel like they should join a due date board till after the first 12 weeks. We are truly happy to support you as you transition. Please just keep in mind that we are a group of woman struggling with IF and be sensitive to that as you post. If you put a pregnancy ticker or smiley in your signature, please turn off your signature when you post in this thread. Thank you!

Please note: When your information needs to be updated, please highlight the area that needs to be updated. This will make it easier for me to update you. :goodvibes:

If you'd like to be added please post your info using the format below. Please note: I remove names if you are inactive for one month. This really helps keep the list more manageable, if you would like to be added back, just repost your info. :D

Women TTC: :ttc: :noaf:

Screen Name: sdavis514
Real Name: Sarah
Age: 31 (DH 31)
Current Children and age: one DS age 4
Lost Children and Dates: none
Diagnosis: We were NTNP for 4 years then I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2003 and was put on clomid from 9/04-1/05 with no results, took break and became pregnant with DS with no intervention in Aug 2006. Recent blood work suggested no insulin resistance.
Treatment and meds: Provera to bring on period, prenatal vitamins, 100 mg clomid
Next Appointment: 11/21 to check for OHSS and get a new RX for next cycle if BFN this month
Cycles TTC another: NTNP for 4 years, Actively TTC since Jan 11

Screen Name: finleyjudemommy
Real Name: Susan
Age (DH): 47 (ME) 36
Current Children and age: B/G twins 6 and YDD 4
Lost Children and dates: M/C March 04, M/C June 09, Chemical Feb 10 and stillborn October 10
Next appointment: injectibles w/ trigger and IUI, probably this next cycle and MAYBE the one in October. I don't like to do treatments around the holidays.....If nothing happens then it will probably be fresh cycle in the spring.
Cycles TTC another: Entirely too many to count

Screen Name: lalakiwi7
Real Name: Liesl (pronounced leesal)
Age (SO): 26 and hubby is 26, Happily married for 6 yrs. Together for 11.
Current Children and age: Noah is our oldest, not bio but almost adopted foster son (who is Ethiopian). Frances is our first born and only bio baby, she is two.
Lost child: early losses 7/2011 & 11/2007
Diagnosis: unexplained secondary IF assumed antibodies/issues from delivery complications to DD pregnancy.
Treatment and meds: baby asa, decadron, vitamins, and progesterone after O
Next Appointment: Jan for follie scan and first attempt at IUI with femera and trigger
Cycles TTC another: almost 2 yrs or more than 30 cycles :(

Screen Name: Vegan Princess
Real Name: Cindy
Age (SO):32
Current Children and age: Child 1: 2.5 yrs
Lost Children and dates: Chemical pregnancy (11/10), miscarriage at 9.5 weeks (5/11), possible chemical pregnancy (9/11)
Diagnosis: Diminished ovarian reserve for me. Moderate or severe male factor (depending on who you ask) for DH
Treatment and Meds: Beginning 2nd IUI cycle w/5mg femara, ovidrel trigger and prometrium. Will do this cycle and one more IUI and then meet with doctor to discuss IVF or using donor egg.
Next appointment: Follicle scan on 9/ 29. IUI on 10/1 or thereabouts. Will meet with RE to discuss game plan again in November.
Cycles TTC another: Had IUD removed 4/10 but really have been trying since 6/10.

Screen name: Fleece Be With You
Real Name: Jessica
Age: 24
Children and ages: Hunter, born 9-18-09
Losses: none
Diagnosis: Celiac disease (unconfirmed, but a safe assumption at this point)
Treatment: Very limited version of GAPS diet, digestive enzymes, vitamin supplements
Next Appt: Seeing my chiropractor next week to look into my cortisol/adrenal issues.
Cycles TTC another: We haven't been preventing since Hunter was born.

Screen name: heatherlovesCD's
Real Name: Heather
Age: me - 33, hubby - 38
Children and ages: boy 5, Twins girl/boy 3, Twins boy/boy 18 months.
Losses: March '07
Diagnosis: severe male factor infertility
Treatment: IVF/FET, 1 fresh IVF cycle = 1 boy. 4 FET's = 1 early m/c, 2 sets of twins, 1 BFN
Next Appt: FET planned for Jan.
Cycles TTC another: I don't keep track. We have been TTC since 11/10.

Screen Name: amyltc
Real Name: Amy
Age: 28 my Dh is 31
Current Children and age: DD1 Allie, age 5, Hannah age 3
Lost Children and dates: none
Diagnosis: Endometriosis, had surgery to remove on 9/14/10, tipped uterus, mostly unexplained infertility
Next appointment: U/S Day 11 or 12 of next cycle
Cycles TTC another: 20 cycles of active TTC, no BC since our 3 yo was born.

Screen Name: love4leon
Real Name: Rebecca
Age: 37 (DH 37)
Current Children and age: Winnie 4 years
Diagnosis: Endometriosis (Me) DH diagnosed with Low sperm count, low motility, and liquidation. 5/11 diagnosed with testicular cancer. Began Chemotherapy June 27th.
Treatment and meds: IUI done 1/2/2011, 2/5/2011, 3/2011, 4/2011
Next Appointment: 2nd week in November
Cycles TTC another: 24 cycles

Screen Name:Pretzelpirate07
Real Name: Leigh
Age 28 my Dh is 30
Current Children and age: Child 1: 2.5 yr old Kaiden child 2 Aurora 1.5 yrs old
Lost Children and dates: zelda march 2006 anecheaply 26 weeks
Diagnosis: PCOS, insulin resistance, gastric bypass and tubal reversal
Treatment and Meds: BCP then clomid, then onto injectibles and IUI
Next appointment: In the next few months
Cycles TTC another:either for surro parents or myself

Screen Name: HumblePie98
Real Name: Jody
Age: 32
Current children and ages: B-12, H,6
Losses: 07/09 (tubal pregnancy) 10/10
Diagnosis: unknown- Right tube is blocked
Cycles TTC another: 3 years

Screen Name: carlaross
Real Name: Carla
Age: 36, DH 39
Current children and ages: Zach 17, Jarrod 16, Griffin 2 (12-28-09)
Diagnosis: DH had vasectomy '99 (previous marriage), reversal 3/09. Immediately (9 days after surgery) and had my LO 12-28-09. Never used birth control, began TTC another immediately after 1st PPAF, 8/10. After 15 cycles, we began a fertility workup and were devastated to find out he has complete scarring of the reversal site and a zero sperm count. :(
Cycles TTC another: since Aug 2010
Next appointment: January 9 (with my ob/gyn to begin my fertility workup and discuss options)

Screen Name: Meeshkasheeba
Real Name: Tina
Age (SO): 27 (DH 27)
Current Children and age: DS1-5 yrs old, DS2-2yrs old
Lost children and dates: 8week loss, 01/07
Diagnosis: endometriosis (stage IV in "04 and stage III now)
Treatment and meds: Laparotomy- 7/04, Lupron injection 11/04 Laproscope- 7/05, 7/08, 3/11
Next Appointment: Nov 8th
Cycles TTC another: 16

Screen Name: garness
Real Name: Geneva
Age: 36, DH is 42
Current children and ages: Annabelle 6, Isabelle 3
Losses: 10/11
Diagnosis: ??? But I think Luteal Phase Defect, not making enough Progesterone
Cycles TTC another: NTNP for 3 years, only really tried with this last cycle in which I got pregnant and then lost after 5 weeks.

Screen Name: slimy72
Real Name: Laurel
Age: 28 Dh 30
Current Children and age: DS 3yo
Lost Children and Dates: 2003, 2004, 2005, 2006, 2011
Diagnosis: Endometriosis, do not ovulate regularly. Dh- MS, Celiacs, Ulcerative colitis, low count, poor morphology and motility, but that is suspected due to current medications, will be re-evaluated once off them.
Treatment and meds: Clomid, provera, prometrium, baby aspirin and a host of supplements and vitamins. Laprascope '09, lupron shots '09
Next Appointment: simmering for now, waiting for dh to be off meds before we schedule anything.
Cycles TTC another: 4 1/2 yrs for DS, 2 1/2 yrs so far for #2.

Screen name: Melmonkey
Real Name: Mel
Age: me - 33, hubby - 35
Children and ages: girl 13 months
Losses: none
Diagnosis: inexplained
Treatment: too much to write here......... :(
Next Appt: don't have one
Cycles TTC another: AF showed Dec 2010....we have not prevented since then....

Screen Name: crunchymom2b
Real Name: Alycia
Age: 23 (DH 31)
Current Children and age: DS, 2 years old
Lost Children and Dates: Bean 8/2011, and possibly another chemical
Diagnosis: none
Treatment and meds: I'm taking a multi, b-complex + folate, zinc, & preseed. DF is taking a multi and zinc. I'm going to ask for some Progesterone as well.
Next Appointment: none
Cycles TTC another: 6 months

Screen Name: Ryder
Real Name: Stefanie
Age: 29
Current Children and age: one DS born 8/10 - just over a year
Diagnosis: PCOS (Went off the pill and have never gotten a period on my own since). Tried clomid with no response, then found out I have a genetic tissue disorder that puts me at risk for having a preemie. My RE elected to skip IUI b/c of the risk of multiples. Got pregnant on our first IVF, single embryo transfer and had a healthy baby boy (after a long stint of bedrest for cervical incompetence). Haven't had AF since stopping breastfeeding in June, don't expect one.
Treatment and meds: Prenatal right now until I start treatment
Next Appointment: 1st consult with my RE 12/2 to discuss a new cycle.
Cycles TTC another: NTNP since my son was born last August. I've never actively TTC since I don't get a period, I know i don't ovulate.

Screen Name: Jallia
Real Name:Kris
Age: 33 (DH 34)
Current Children and age: one DS age 22 months
Lost Children and Dates: M/C Feb 2011, M/C Aug 2011
Diagnosis: None (our doctor says I must have 3 M/Cs before they'll look in to things because 2 in a row could just be a stroke of very bad luck)
Treatment and meds: prenatals and praying for another healthy pregnancy
Cycles TTC another: Actively TTC since Dec 2010

Screen Name: tazzae
Real Name: Tara
Age: 34, DH 35
Current children and ages: Rowan, 7 1/2 (4/2004)
Diagnosis: multiple miscarriages (4), uterine septum (surgically removed 5/12)
Cycles TTC another: on and off for 5 years
Next appointment: ?

Screen name: sillyutalktome
Age: Me: 29, DH 29
Current Children and age: M - 6/08 our dd
losses: Etopic 7/09 (8 weeks) Possible chemical 6/10
Diagnosis: Blocked fallopian tubes, right was removed with ectopic pregnancy in 7/09, left removed 11/2011
Treatment: 1st IVF 10/18/11 BFN, FET planned for January
Next appt: cycle day 3 labs, approx. 12.5
Cycles TTC another: we have never prevented since dd was born


Women Pregnant and praying to make it. :crossfingers: :preggo: :pray: If you need to be added to this list please give your EDD and the date you will be 12 weeks. Thank you! To find out how many weeks you are use this link (http://www.amazingpregnancy.com/duedate/).

Screen Name: Wordmama
Real Name: Lucy
Age (SO):34 (32)
Current Children and age: DS (4.5 yrs) and DD (1.5 yrs)
Lost children: 8 early miscarriages, Libi (8 week ectopic, March 2011)
Diagnosis: Damaged right tube for me, poor morphology for DH
Treatment and meds:Prayer, maca, zinc
Cycles TTC another: Over a year
EDD: June 18, 2012
I will be 14 weeks on Dec. 19, 2011

Screen Name: Skyericsson
Real Name: Sky
Current Children and age: DD 8 DS4
Lost Children and dates: two early angels 9/10 amd 12/10 my journeys of loss are on here (struggles and support)
Diagnosis: possible PCOS, hypothyroidism, borderline type 2 diabetes.
EDD 5/22/2012
(it took 12mths to get here-Praise God!)
Date at 12 weeks: November 7

Screen Name: canadianbakers
Real Name: Elena
Age (SO): 29 (30)
Current Children and age: Ruth (8), Zechariah (6), Isaac (5), Levi (1)
Lost children: 5 early losses - dec 08, may 09, jul 09, jul 11, aug 11
EDD: June 5th, 2012
I'll be 12wks on Nov 22nd, 2011

Screen Name: ncflanagan
Real Name: Noreen
Age: Me, 37 / DH, 31
Current Children and age: DS1 (15) and DS2 (2)
Losses: June '10 (6 wks), Sept '10 (8 wks, twins), April '11 (18wks 3dys, girl)
Date I'll be 12 wks: Sept 21st

:hide: :cheerleader2: Lurkers/Waiting to TTC/Graduates/Cheerleaders :hide: :cheerleader2:

Screen name: Ardenne
Real Name: Dina
Age: me 39, DH 42
Children and ages: Kailyn, 13, Connor, 8, and Brianna, 2.
Losses: chemical, May '10. Faith Elise, 14 1/2 weeks, Sept '10. Emily Hope, 12 1/2 weeks, Jan '11. Early loss, 6 1/2 weeks, May '11.
Diagnosis: antiphospholipid syndrome, recurrent pregnancy loss
Treatment: 81 mg. aspirin, 200 mg progesterone, 40 mg. Lovenox, and 3x calcium/magnesium supplements daily
Cycles TTC another: We've been TTC a baby who survives for almost 2 yrs.
EDD: May 22, 2012

Screen Name: Dewberri
Real Name: Joy
Age (DH): 26 (26)
Current Children and age: DD 2 yrs
Lost Children and dates: Dec. 2010 (6 wks); June 2011 (Kayle(e), 11wks)
Diagnosis: ANA, nonspecific
Treatment: Aspirin daily, Progesterone till 10 weeks
EDD: June 14, 2012

Screenname/name:Liz*RN*BSN , Elizabeth
Age: 26 DH: 28
Current Children: DS - 4, DS -2
Lost Children: 5 early m/c
Diagnosis: PCOS, Recurrent Miscarriage, Factor 5 Leiden Clotting Disorder
Treatment and meds: Lovenox, Baby Aspirin, Metformin, PNV, Endometrin TTC: Over 1 year

Screen Name: Meldo
Real Name: Melissa
Age: 29 (DH 59)
Current children and ages: Katharine-6 Alison-2
Losses: 1
Diagnosis: DH has low sperm count/motility. Both of our kids were IVF/ICSI babies.
Cycles TTC another: It's our 8th (and last) IVF cycle.
EDD: May 1, 2012

Screen Name: flmamao2
Real Name: Sherrill
Age (SO): 30-31 next month (33)
Current Children and ages: Chloe (9), Hailey (7)
Lost Children and dates: 11/10, 1/11
Diagnosis: None as of yet, no testing until the 3rd MC per my Dr
Cycles TTC another child: 14
EDD: 1/23/12

Screen Name: chmom77
Real Name: Helen
Age (SO): 31 (DH 37)
Current Children and age: DD (3 yrs old)
Lost children and dates: ectopic 6/10
Diagnosis:PCOS, endometriosis, arcuate septum, uterine polyps, unexplained uterine lining issues (all me) and varicoseles (DH).
Treatment and meds: hysterosocopy/lap surgery in Jan. '11, mini-stim FET in April with Follistim, Ganirelex, low-dose HCG, trigger, medrol, estrace, and progesterone in oil
Cycles TTC another: 25 months (16 cycles)
EDD: 1/8/2012

Screen Name:moonglowdesigns
Real Name:
Age(SO):29 (DH 35)
Current Children and age:Ds (10yrs), Ds (6yrs), Ds (4yrs)
Lost Children and dates:3 angels, ('04, '09 and '10)
Diagnosis MFI
Treatment and meds:We have decided to NTNP and leave it up to the fates on whether we will have another child or not.
Cycles TTC another: Since '09

[HeatherlovesCDs]

LAST THREAD HERE: http://diaperswappers.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1323449&page=5

[HeatherlovesCDs]

I'm pretty sure everyone is up-to-date. If I missed anyone, please let me know. :D

Hope everyone had a good holiday. I'm still hosting.....my husband is home from work for a few days. :roflmbo: So, I'll catch up and get back into things when he goes back to work.

[Love4leon]

Hello everyone! Hope you all have had very Happy Holidays! :)

I am about 11dpo. This month we did "try" but only naturally so we really don't stand much chance at all- but nevertheless.... please keep fingers crossed for us that by some miracle the egg and sperm met up :) January 4th is my Dr. appointment with Kaiser, hoping for a referral to a RE through Kaiser and hoping for an affordable way to a baby :)

[Vegan Princess]

Rebecca: Nice to hear from you! Lovely to see you guys back in the game! :-) I'll be praying you get your mircale or that Kaiser can work out a plan for you.

Slimy: I'm so sorry you had to have that in your face the entire time!!! Big hugs! So so hard! I hope you'll be heading home soon. Be strong mama.

Heather: Hi! How in tarnation do I get my estrogen patches to stick on? They didn't want to stick this morning. Perhaps bc I was so cold??

Susan: It was the cetrotide shot. I keep getting air bubbles in it, despite the syringe looking like there aren't any more. Thankfully I still managed to inject all the medicine the last 2 times with out having to stop and reinject myself (the first time the air bubble prevented the plunger from going down further so I had to stop, get it out and then do it again).

AFM: 3 out of 4 cetrotide shots done. I had a lot of spotting on christmas day, 6 dpo. It has disappeared since though. Not sure if it was from starting the meds or low progesterone or what. And of course I am not obsessively doing HPTs bc cetrotide causes birth defects. I *shouldn't* be pregnant. We DTD a lot during my fertile period but DH pulled out - and his count is so low that we can't see to get prego with him not pulling out and me practically standing on my head for 20 minutes. But the spotting sort of freaked me out and worried me that it could be implantation. Probably not though.

I can't sleep anymore. I think I'm too wound up from all of this. I'm hoping since my mom left today I'll sleep better. She stressed me out too. LOL.

Cindy

[sillyutalktome]

Heather would you mind adding me back on?
Screen name: sillyutalktome
Age: Me: 29, DH 29
Current Children and age: M - 6/08 our dd
losses: Etopic 7/09 (8 weeks) Possible chemical 6/10
Diagnosis: Blocked fallopian tubes, right was removed with ectopic pregnancy in 7/09, left removed 11/2011
Treatment: 1st IVF 10/18/11 BFN, FET planned for January
Next appt: cycle day 3 labs, approx. 12.5
Cycles TTC another: we have never prevented since dd was born


Cindy - Were you on birth control for this IVF cycle? I was and I remember spotting the day of starting my stims or really close around there.

[skyericsson]

Cindy and Rebecca :wave: miracles happen every day so I am holding out ad praying for sticky LO for you :)

AFM Christmas was good, had some family up and DH and I celebrated our 11 year anniversary today :) we have been together for 24 years!!! :lostit:

[finleyjudemommy]

Cindy~ I know what you mean...when we first started our shots, they burned so bad when they would go in that I would literally cry....I'm pretty sure we'll be using Follistim this last time and I have one of the dial up pens that make it really nice....

AFM: CD 10 here and had a little cm this morning and felt something on my right side last night. Maybe starting to make some follicles? Sure would be nice to not go through IVF again. So, I'll keep praying and having the sex.......:giggle2:

Off to take DD1 to her GI doc apt. in Columbus. Have a good day all!

[Vegan Princess]

Sillyu: No, not on BCP. The estrogen patches and cetrotide I'm on right now take the place of the BCPs and lupron.

I guess I need to update my info too. i'll do that later. :-)

Cindy

[Love4leon]

AF today :( I know it would take a miracle, but it is depressing nonetheless...

[Jallia]

Hi ladies,

Just wanted to give a quick update and let you know that I took your advice and called my doctor to ask that she sends me for whatever is available in terms of testing so we can get to the bottom of my two previous m/c. She sent me for bloodwork on day 3 of my cycle and I have to go back on day 21. She also referred us to a fertility clinic and we should be getting an appt for late January. I asked the woman taking my blood what tests were ordered and she said hormone levels, thyroid, cardiolipin antibodies and something else I don't recall. I'm hoping the bloodwork will show something that is easily treatable. One can only hope!

[slimy72]

Still having myself a pitty party today. My dad keeps making comments that just make me feel like poop and cry. He doesn't mean to but pointing out just how many pregnant women are in a restruant or how my SIL can't fit behind the table because of how big she is, isn't making me feel any better. Like I said he's not trying to but I've just about burst into tears in front of him 2-3 times today. And we are not a family that cries, but boy have I been on the verge today. At one point my mom smacked him for one of them and I wanted to hug her but I pretended not to see it. Just three more days and I can go home and not have to have it in my face the whole time. I think if she was way further or earlier it wouldn't be so hard, but having to be in the same house as someone who's due date is just two weeks different from what mine was is just killing me.

[Love4leon]

Still having myself a pitty party today. My dad keeps making comments that just make me feel like poop and cry. He doesn't mean to but pointing out just how many pregnant women are in a restruant or how my SIL can't fit behind the table because of how big she is, isn't making me feel any better. Like I said he's not trying to but I've just about burst into tears in front of him 2-3 times today. And we are not a family that cries, but boy have I been on the verge today. At one point my mom smacked him for one of them and I wanted to hug her but I pretended not to see it. Just three more days and I can go home and not have to have it in my face the whole time. I think if she was way further or earlier it wouldn't be so hard, but having to be in the same house as someone who's due date is just two weeks different from what mine was is just killing me.

Oh that just breaks my heart! It is hard enough- as if you don't already know which women are pregnant the minute you enter a place- seeing how some of us now have some supernatural power which draws our eye immediately to the pregnant bellies wherever we are!!!! :( I'm so sorry- he, like SO MANY other people just do not get it. I'm so sorry :(

[amyltc]

Sorry haven't read, but I swear I'm so sick of ppl making dumb comments all the time re: infertility and adoption.read this, I've had every single one of those said to me: http://open.salon.com/blog/jeanette_d/2009/08/28/top_10_things_not_to_say_to_someone_experiencing_i nfertility

[sillyutalktome]

Rebecca - So sorry about AF. I really hope you get a miracle.

Laurel - I'm so sorry. I have a high school friend with a daughter the same age as ectopic pregnancy would have been. It was so hard getting her text just days before I had to have my fallopian tube removed, then seeing her complain her entire pregnancy on facebook was too much so I hid her. Now the way she parents that beautiful girl is just disgusting. It's so frustrating to want your lost baby so much and have to have your heart broken seeing a pregnancy/baby with the same due date.

Amy - I am so sorry, people say the rudest things.

AFM - I should hear from my RE today about what medication protocol he decides to go with. He is contemplating doing a stimulated cylce for my transfer. He says by stimulating my ovaries we can avoid using artificial hormones and especially the progesterone in oil. I'm kind of nervous about the added cost of a stimulated cycle so I'm waiting to hear from the nurse and get the list so I can start calling the pharmacies.

[Fleece Be With You]

Kris, good luck with your tests!

Amy, I'm so sorry :( People really can be so horribly inconsiderate about infertility. If you don't understand it, it must be ok to make fun of it apparently. Ugh.

AFM, just trying to get through all the fights about my diet, and try to get DS to sleep on some sort of normal schedule. Midnight is NOT an ok time to go to bed when you are 2, and you and Mommy have to go to work at 7 am.

[Vegan Princess]

Rebecca: Hugs! I'm sorry.

Slimy: Sending you some strength and hoping those last few days go quickly!!

Sillyu: I've never heard of a stim FET. Would you retreive the eggs and free them? Or would it be mild stims? Interesting.

AFM: She's HERE!!! CD 1!!! Bring it on! LOL. So we're set to drive up to my clinic tomorrow for baseline. It actually works out bc we were invited to stay w/relatives in the mountains tonight or tomorrow night and the clinic is half way there. We weren't going to go bc we were afraid we'd go there and come home and have to make the drive again another day for baseline. But now it works out.

I had acupuncture, she sent me home with pressure point tape things to help me sleep, I downloaded guided relaxation MP3s for IVF and listened to it before bed. I did sleep a bit. I was wide awake for 2 hours after I realized AF was arriving and then cramps interfered w/sleep. But I did sleep better than the previous 3 nights. So that is good. Tonight i'll probbaly feel like a kid before the 1st day of school. LOL!

Cindy

[Love4leon]

Wow Cindy!!!! That is so incredibly exciting!!!!!!

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Cindy - Did you get them to stay on? My advice is to make sure the area is very dry before applying the patches. You can even rub the area with alcohol too to clean and dry it out. I don't usually have a problem initially, but sometimes they fall off. Make sure you aren't putting there where your weight band rubs or anything like that. The best place I have found is my lower belly toward one side or the other. I just alternate. I love not having to do shots, but the patches really are a pain. Plus, they are expensive. So, every time you have to replace one because it doesn't stick right, it is more $$. And, gotta love the lint square they leave behind. You end up looking like a patchwork quilt! Ugh!

Also, I will definitely be doing personals and catching up tonight. Sorry I've been gone.

[slimy72]

Amy- hugs, I totally understand. That's exactly what I'm dealing with right now. My mom tried her hardest to get SIL to go home for a day or two (they don't live far) short of telling her, your belly makes my daughter cry go home and let us have some time. She just doesn't get it. She keeps telling my mom I seem fine, and that's just silly that I'm not "over it yet". This is of course as relayed through hubby since he for some reason can talk to my family better than I can.
Jessica- Wish you were here with us. My mom scrubbed her kitchen, and designated a whole counter as GF for my hubby including one of her mixers (she has 10 different kitchen mixers from kitchen aids, to hobarts, to bosch), and a toaster. She baked all kinds of GF goodies for him and even designated a GF cupboard out in her baking room (yes she has a seperate room off her kitchen that houses her mixers and baking supplies), my mom is a big time baker. It's like celiacs paradise here. My hubby hasn't stopped eating since we arrived. I think she takes better care of him than I do.
Sillyu-sure hoping all goes well!
Cindy- Sounds awesome!! Both getting going on your cycle and the mountain stay. Have fun!!
AFM, well, as you can probably still tell, I'm down, frustrated and ready to leave. What a waste of $600 worth of plane tickets (oh, and $50 for parking, and another $100 for someone to care for our dogs, ect...) I so wish I had just stayed home. Of course I had no clue when we bought our tickets back in October. Could have put that money to way better use than sulking in my mom's back room, hiding in the computer, and avoiding my SIL and her really loud, cry baby kids. Oh, and the worst part, my brother, who I'd actually like to see hasn't even been here all week because he's staying at there house and working. Oh, and usually mom and I would go do some fun stuff but can't because SIL or her kids have pretty much monopolized all of her time. I would go in the kitchen and help but in the eyes of the two of them I'm a misfit in the kitchen (even though my mom doesn't treat me like this when it's just her and I). I just want to go home so bad.

[lalakiwi7]

kris- so glad they ordered the tests! getting you on the right track! always makes things feel a little less stressful!

Laurel- grrrrrr... people really do say the rudest things sometimes. never sure whether to cry or say something rude back.

rebecca- sorry for AF... even if you were "trying" it's still always hard.

cindy- AHHHHHHHHHH I am so excited for yoU!!!! seriously excited!!!

Heather- when do you start your FET?

AFM: CD 1 should be on Sat.... more than likely. 10po yesterday and nada so AF will ensue. HOWEVER RE called back today and said since my labs for endo came back so high he won't do anything for me unless I have a lap surgery... so it's scheduled for Jan 30th. FXed for us! I am also starting a hard core detox/fertility cleanse on Monday just to get some of this inflammation and ickies under control. I have been feeling pretty blah this past year so really needing to jump start my body. Hubby is too just because he wants to get back on track... and also we are hoping to encourage his mom to join us as she is the one who really needs the alternative medicine. I really hope that insurance will cover the surgery as they have reassured me it will since they are doing it because of re-occuring losses and dysmenorrhea. I have documentation proving it's been a an issue since I was a teen so if I need to appeal it then I could but would rather not.

Here is to a fresh new year and a new start at our future babies!!!! Bring on the New Year!!!! I am so ready for it!

[sillyutalktome]

Anyone have advice on the cheapest pharmacies for Femmara, Estrace, Vivelle Patches and Progesterone suppositories? I'm starting my calls but with getting my trigger shot online and the prices CVS quoted I'm over 900 already :cry:

[Vegan Princess]

Sillyu: I don't know a whole. All mine came from Freedom pharmacy this time. Their prices seemed pretty reasonable compared to regular pharmacies. But costco also offers deals when there is no insurance coverage for something. Glad to see you'll just be doing easy, cheap stims!

Cindy

[Fleece Be With You]

Silly, i was going to suggest checking costco too.

Slimy, that sounds amazing! I am literally cooking every meal I will bring there tonight, and freezing it for the trip. No one seems to be on my side, everyone thinks I'm crazy to limit DS from eating certain things. Umm, the things I'm limiting either give him diarrhea, or will really hurt his weak, cavity prone teeth. He is definitely getting a full range of nutrition, I have been very thorough with my research on that. Grrr.

[Vegan Princess]

Liesl: Have you been tested for natural killer cells? I happened across something that mentioned people w/endo almost always have high levels of them. Sorry you have to have surgery but I hope it yields answers and helps you feel better! My sister had many of them and felt much better after each.

Cindy

[sillyutalktome]

Thanks I'll check costco tomorrow. I've found a local pharmacy that can do everything for about 2/3 the price of CVS. Freedom pharmacy only had two of my meds and this pharmacy has the same prices. The only one I can't get cheaper is the Vivelle patches. I have two more places to call tomorrow, though I did find a Canadian pharmacy that is $100 less. I'm just not sure if that's a bad sign? I mean if no one can do that medication for cheaper how are they so much cheaper?

[Fleece Be With You]

Oh, I forgot to say, YAY Cindy! So excited for you!

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Silly - I've used Costco for previous FET's. For this past cycle, they were more expensive. (couple of years since the previous cycles) Estrace is cheap, so don't worry about that one. The Vivelle and the prometrium are expensive. The cheapest I've found it this time is Wal-Mart. I don't know about the Femmera because I've never used it.

Sky - Congrats on your anniversary!!

Rebecca - :( I'm sorry AF came. I know it is still heartbreaking even when you know the odds. :hugs:

Jallia - I'm glad you called! It sounds like you are off to great start to find out what is going on. I hope it is something easy. :)

Slimy - I'm sorry it is so hard there. I wish people could understand, but they just don't. They try to help and make the situation better, but it just makes it worse. Hang in there. You'll be home soon. :hugs:

Fleece - I'm sorry your diet is still causing you issues at home. And, I feel you on having issues with kiddos sleeping. My twins are giving me trouble waking up at night and not wanting to go back to sleep. It is hard to be in a good mood when you are tired all the time. :( Oh and my family thinks I'm nuts about not wanting my kids to have too much sugar or processed foods. Oh well.

Cindy - Woo Hoo for AF!!!! This is about the only time we look forward to it. It is a nice change. :) So, are you done with the patches now? I feel like you told me you stay on them and that would make sense, but I can't remember.

Leisl - That is good news. I mean, bummer that you need sx, but that is great that they are scheduling it so soon and you can move forward. I really hope your ins. covers it. I would think they would. Good luck on the cleanse!

AFM - I'm really struggling right now with what I want to do. I do want to transfer my last 2 embryos, but I'm scared. And, I don't know if I want to do it right now. I'm just not sure I'm ready to have no hope left. What I mean is, if I don't get pregnant and I have no embryos left, I have no hope of becoming pregnant again without more treatment. I'm not sure I'm okay with more treatment. I also have this burning desire to lose this weight. I want it gone. I've not lost this week because of the holidays and I can't wait to get back to it. I went to the gym for the first time in a week tonight. That was good. Anyway, the other consideration is due date. 3 of my kids, my husband and 5 of my husband's family all has Oct, Nov, and Dec b-days. I was hoping to have the due date be in Sept. If we move back the FET, we have to move it to June to miss all of that. (In case, I have twins again, I can't have a Jan due date either. My first set was due late Jan and I had them in mid-Dec.) I really don't know if I want to wait THAT long.

I just don't know and I've been avoiding the whole thing for a couple of weeks now. But, AF is going to show within the week and I have to decide what to do. I will probably go ahead with it, but I need to discuss it with my hubby more. *sigh*

[amyltc]

Amy- hugs, I totally understand. That's exactly what I'm dealing with right now. My mom tried her hardest to get SIL to go home for a day or two (they don't live far) short of telling her, your belly makes my daughter cry go home and let us have some time. She just doesn't get it. She keeps telling my mom I seem fine, and that's just silly that I'm not "over it yet". This is of course as relayed through hubby since he for some reason can talk to my family better than I can.
Jessica- Wish you were here with us. My mom scrubbed her kitchen, and designated a whole counter as GF for my hubby including one of her mixers (she has 10 different kitchen mixers from kitchen aids, to hobarts, to bosch), and a toaster. She baked all kinds of GF goodies for him and even designated a GF cupboard out in her baking room (yes she has a seperate room off her kitchen that houses her mixers and baking supplies), my mom is a big time baker. It's like celiacs paradise here. My hubby hasn't stopped eating since we arrived. I think she takes better care of him than I do.
Sillyu-sure hoping all goes well!
Cindy- Sounds awesome!! Both getting going on your cycle and the mountain stay. Have fun!!
AFM, well, as you can probably still tell, I'm down, frustrated and ready to leave. What a waste of $600 worth of plane tickets (oh, and $50 for parking, and another $100 for someone to care for our dogs, ect...) I so wish I had just stayed home. Of course I had no clue when we bought our tickets back in October. Could have put that money to way better use than sulking in my mom's back room, hiding in the computer, and avoiding my SIL and her really loud, cry baby kids. Oh, and the worst part, my brother, who I'd actually like to see hasn't even been here all week because he's staying at there house and working. Oh, and usually mom and I would go do some fun stuff but can't because SIL or her kids have pretty much monopolized all of her time. I would go in the kitchen and help but in the eyes of the two of them I'm a misfit in the kitchen (even though my mom doesn't treat me like this when it's just her and I). I just want to go home so bad.

Ugh, I'm so sorry, I just think ppl w/out IF just don't 'get' it, HUGE :hugs:

kris- so glad they ordered the tests! getting you on the right track! always makes things feel a little less stressful!

Laurel- grrrrrr... people really do say the rudest things sometimes. never sure whether to cry or say something rude back.

rebecca- sorry for AF... even if you were "trying" it's still always hard.

cindy- AHHHHHHHHHH I am so excited for yoU!!!! seriously excited!!!

Heather- when do you start your FET?

AFM: CD 1 should be on Sat.... more than likely. 10po yesterday and nada so AF will ensue. HOWEVER RE called back today and said since my labs for endo came back so high he won't do anything for me unless I have a lap surgery... so it's scheduled for Jan 30th. FXed for us! I am also starting a hard core detox/fertility cleanse on Monday just to get some of this inflammation and ickies under control. I have been feeling pretty blah this past year so really needing to jump start my body. Hubby is too just because he wants to get back on track... and also we are hoping to encourage his mom to join us as she is the one who really needs the alternative medicine. I really hope that insurance will cover the surgery as they have reassured me it will since they are doing it because of re-occuring losses and dysmenorrhea. I have documentation proving it's been a an issue since I was a teen so if I need to appeal it then I could but would rather not.

Here is to a fresh new year and a new start at our future babies!!!! Bring on the New Year!!!! I am so ready for it!


GL with your surgery! Are they planning ot follow up with Lupron? I wish my dr. would have done that because my endo was back 6 months later :(

Anyone have advice on the cheapest pharmacies for Femmara, Estrace, Vivelle Patches and Progesterone suppositories? I'm starting my calls but with getting my trigger shot online and the prices CVS quoted I'm over 900 already :cry:

:hugs: Its so expensive.

Liesl: Have you been tested for natural killer cells? I happened across something that mentioned people w/endo almost always have high levels of them. Sorry you have to have surgery but I hope it yields answers and helps you feel better! My sister had many of them and felt much better after each.

Cindy

I've never heard of those before? What are they?

Silly - I've used Costco for previous FET's. For this past cycle, they were more expensive. (couple of years since the previous cycles) Estrace is cheap, so don't worry about that one. The Vivelle and the prometrium are expensive. The cheapest I've found it this time is Wal-Mart. I don't know about the Femmera because I've never used it.

Sky - Congrats on your anniversary!!

Rebecca - :( I'm sorry AF came. I know it is still heartbreaking even when you know the odds. :hugs:

Jallia - I'm glad you called! It sounds like you are off to great start to find out what is going on. I hope it is something easy. :)

Slimy - I'm sorry it is so hard there. I wish people could understand, but they just don't. They try to help and make the situation better, but it just makes it worse. Hang in there. You'll be home soon. :hugs:

Fleece - I'm sorry your diet is still causing you issues at home. And, I feel you on having issues with kiddos sleeping. My twins are giving me trouble waking up at night and not wanting to go back to sleep. It is hard to be in a good mood when you are tired all the time. :( Oh and my family thinks I'm nuts about not wanting my kids to have too much sugar or processed foods. Oh well.

Cindy - Woo Hoo for AF!!!! This is about the only time we look forward to it. It is a nice change. :) So, are you done with the patches now? I feel like you told me you stay on them and that would make sense, but I can't remember.

Leisl - That is good news. I mean, bummer that you need sx, but that is great that they are scheduling it so soon and you can move forward. I really hope your ins. covers it. I would think they would. Good luck on the cleanse!

AFM - I'm really struggling right now with what I want to do. I do want to transfer my last 2 embryos, but I'm scared. And, I don't know if I want to do it right now. I'm just not sure I'm ready to have no hope left. What I mean is, if I don't get pregnant and I have no embryos left, I have no hope of becoming pregnant again without more treatment. I'm not sure I'm okay with more treatment. I also have this burning desire to lose this weight. I want it gone. I've not lost this week because of the holidays and I can't wait to get back to it. I went to the gym for the first time in a week tonight. That was good. Anyway, the other consideration is due date. 3 of my kids, my husband and 5 of my husband's family all has Oct, Nov, and Dec b-days. I was hoping to have the due date be in Sept. If we move back the FET, we have to move it to June to miss all of that. (In case, I have twins again, I can't have a Jan due date either. My first set was due late Jan and I had them in mid-Dec.) I really don't know if I want to wait THAT long.

I just don't know and I've been avoiding the whole thing for a couple of weeks now. But, AF is going to show within the week and I have to decide what to do. I will probably go ahead with it, but I need to discuss it with my hubby more. *sigh*

Ugh all those decisions are sooo hard!


AFM I'm still on BCPs, I have about 2.5 months left, then in April we are going to try a round of IUI. I think if it doesn't work we will try IVF in about 2 years, I just don't think we'll be able to afford it before then and our adoption efforts are going nowhere. I'm hoping that the IUI will work and then we won't have to worry about IVF!

[Vegan Princess]

Natural killer cells - not exactly sure but I think they kill an embryo and prevent a pregnancy from happening or progressing. They can give meds to correct the issue.

Heather: I say do it! :-) I have faith it will work! And I want you as my cycle buddy. Yes, the patches are off now - but not the squares. LOL at the patchwork quilt. So right!

I was all confused bc my period started and then stopped yesterday. But it has since started up again. So we are leaving in 10 minutes for my appt and then up to the mountains for the night.

Cindy

[carlaross]

Hey girls ~ Well now that the holidays are over and all my house guests are gone, maybe I can be active here again and catch up.

I just spent a few minutes reading through this weeks thread. Going to go back to do persies in a minute - if my LO sleeps long enough.

AFM ~ CD9. AF was 2 days late this time. I almost had my hopes up. I haven't POAS since November. It seems so....unreal. AF was kinda weird though. And now I'm having some early pregnancy symptoms, we all know I'm not pregnant, but my hopes are up anyway. :blush: If I didn't know pregnancy was impossible with a zero sperm count :giggle: I would be running to the the store for a test. I even dreamed last night that I had 2 lines, and we were so shocked, but excited.
DH has always said that besides the reversal, we would never go to "extreme measures" (his words) to have a baby...so no IVF. A few nights ago, he saw a cool show on TV about IVF and now suddenly it is a possibility if we can raise the money. We are on a minimal, very tight budget. I do not ever see us being about to afford it.

In better news, we are buying a new house (well, it's 2 years old) and moving in 2 weeks!! I kind of happened out of the blue and was offered to us for a price we could not refuse. It's a cute house in an awesome family friendly neighborhood. I have A LOT to do over the next week to get packed and ready. Next weekend, we will paint and clean there. Move the week of the 9th - 13th. Clean here the weekend of the 14-15th. Wow.

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Carla - Congrats on the house! That happened to us about a year and half ago. This house just sort of fell in our laps. We closed less than a month after we first saw it. It was nuts because we actually thought we had financing and then had to change banks only 2.5wks out. We had just re-financed the house we were living in. It turns out, he couldn't do the second loan because he know we had written the contract for the new before the 3 days to recind the re-fi were up. He said for us, it was fine and all legal, but for him, it would be unethical. So, he did have all our info, but had to find someone else to finance us instead and start all over. We were also about 40K short on our down payment when we started the process. We had to sell a vehicle and do some other finagling to make the finances happen. And, I had 4 month old twins along with my 2 year old twins and 4 year old to boot. It was obviously God's will for us to have this house because it all just fell right into place. Even at the last minute driving to closing, it almost fell through and we almost walked away over an extra $2000 they wanted from us. They gave in and we didn't have to pay it and we closed. Before we could move in, we had to repaint the entire house and recarpet. The whole thing was NUTS! But, this house has been such a blessing to us. I hope you have the same crazy experience. :giggle2:

As for hoping even though you know there isn't hope, I do the same. It is natural. We just can't help it because we hear stories all the time of people who were told it couldn't happen and it does. So, we hold onto that hope only to have it dashed every month. But, maybe....just maybe....one month our hope will turn into reality. Hey, one can always hope, right?! :pray:

Cindy - Very exciting!! I'm glad you are done with the patches and I'm sure you are too. Just a tip and you can laugh if you want....I use Goo Gone to get rid of the residue. :blush:

AFM - We are going ahead in Jan. Mike sees no reason not to and I know he is right. Jan is the best timing for b-days and finance reason. So, I guess I should get on getting my meds. :)

[Vegan Princess]

Just quick from my phone. I have 9 follicles to work with! This is the most I've ever had and more than I was hoping for!! Now i just need a lot to respond to the meds!

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Great news, Cindy!! :bliss:

[sillyutalktome]

That's awesome Cindy! I'm guessing 9 is your baseline count? I started with nine and had 10 mature follicles at the egg retrieval (I had four additional not mature ones).

Heather when do you usually start the meds for an FET? I got my prescriptions yesterday but no instructions on when to start them and of course my office is closed until Tuesday. If I'm regular, AF is due Monday. Do I have enough time to find out an answer or should I leave a message for the nurse line? I'll call Walmart for the Vivelle, didn't even think of them!

[HeatherlovesCDs]

I start my Vivelle patches on CD1. You probably will too. Our protocols seem very similar. You could wait to see if you start and call them if you do or call them proactively if you are really regular. I'm due to start Monday also, but I was told to be ready to be late because of the BFN. Where you late the following cycle with yours?

[sillyutalktome]

The next cycle I was back closer to my normal date. So BFN cycle I started bleeding on the 26th and the next month was the 2nd which is closer to my typical day if that makes sense, but late for when I started bleeding the month before. I typically have 31 day cycles.

[slimy72]

Cindy, that's awesome news.

Reading about all of you getting ready to go through FET, ect... makes me just a little sad. DH told me he is unwilling to do anything to "out there" yet. Um, honey, 10 years ttc and we only have 1 kiddo, and 5 losses, I think it's time. But he doesn't think so. So I guess we just keep trying on our own with my regular OB for another six months or so. He said if it doesn't happen by then with just meds and charting and what my reg. dr. does for me then he's willing to look further. I knew we were in a bit of a holding pattern until FEB when he's off his meds, but I had really hoped to start lining stuff up for what's next. But he just isn't ready and I kind of need him to be in on this. So next July, just keep going until then. I suppose it is possible to happen before then, I mean it did happen once. But I'm just so ready. I think the frustration of this week away from home hasn't really helped me at all.

[Love4leon]

Cindy and Heather- I am so excited for you both!!!

Heather- I'm happy the decision is made for you both and that you will be moving ahead with everything in January! I will be praying for you that these little ones stick and settle in!

Laurel- I understand... it is so difficult waiting and not being able/ready to take the next steps. Trust me, I completely understand. I thought we'd be able to move ahead this month with something at least- but nope... we are still in our holding pattern waiting for Dr. appointments and possibilities.

[slimy72]

Happy Monday Morning, how's everyone doing?

[sillyutalktome]

Laurel, I am so sorry. I know it's so hard to be on different pages. It took me a long time to heal from my infertility diagnosis and be willing to go get a second opinion. I'm glad I did heal first as we started IVF just a few weeks later and I'm not sure I would have been mentally ok at the end of that (since it didn't work) if I wasn't in a healthy place beforehand. I hope your dh is ready to move forward soon.

I think I have found places to order all my medications from. If anyone else is ordering Vivelle patches the cheapest place I found was a place called Village Fertility Pharmacy. I'm ordering all my other meds from The Apothecary Shops. I'm only mentioning this because I'm saving almost $500. Thought that might help others. Everyone was closed today, so I've got to get them ordered tomorrow.

[HeatherlovesCDs]

slimy - :wave: I can understand you being a bit sad with all of us doing IVF/FET's. In my history on this thread, there usually aren't many of us, one or two if any. It is a bit unusual. Are you home now?

AFM - No AF today. I wonder when it will come because I'm not feeling it at all. Chanting...."I will not waste a test. I will not waste a test. I will NOT waste a test." We will see if that will stick. :roflmbo:

Tomorrow, I have a funeral to go to. My husband's grandma died. The family wasn't close to her, even my FIL wasn't. So, it isn't really a big deal around here, but we are going to go because it is the right thing to do. It is really making me sad that no one in our family is sad at all. My MIL and FIL just keep talking about her money and how it is all going to "John," her husband. He wasn't FIL's dad and was the "other man" she left his dad for. So, of course, they don't like him. But, come on, it has been 45 years now. (and, his father died over 20 years ago now.) It is time to accept that he was her husband. Family drama. *sigh*

[Ten]

Wanted to swing by with :bighug: and :babydust: - I think of you ladies daily!!

[lalakiwi7]

heather... hmmmmmm....... test test test :)

[Vegan Princess]

Waste a test! :-) LOL.

I'm here. I can't believe tomorrow is my last dose of femara already. I started my gonal-f injections tonight. I go in Wed for a follie scan. I'm nervous about how many will grow!!! But mostly i cant' believe how fast this is going! I'll likely trigger next weekend?? Crazy.

Hugs to all who need them!

Cindy

[wordmama]

Heather - :noaf:

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[Fleece Be With You]

Slimy, I am right there with you. I almost feel like my "trying" doesn't even count, since I'm not doing all the meds, injections, etc., AND I don't have cycles. I can't even answer the basic question of "how long have you been trying?" because I don't know when to start counting. DS's birth? 6 months later? Either way, between 1.5-2 years I guess. It has been over 3 years since my last period now.

Heather, I vote wait til tomorrow, then test!

Sillyu, yay for finding the meds cheaper!

Cindy, I am so excited for you! It really is going fast.

[Love4leon]

Heather- I agree with Jessica. Test tomorrow :) I have fingers and toes crossed for you!!!!

Cindy- That is fantastic! My friend told me that once you get started things move so quick! I am happy to hear it is moving along for you- how exciting!!!!

[slimy72]

slimy - :wave: I can understand you being a bit sad with all of us doing IVF/FET's. In my history on this thread, there usually aren't many of us, one or two if any. It is a bit unusual. Are you home now?

AFM - No AF today. I wonder when it will come because I'm not feeling it at all. Chanting...."I will not waste a test. I will not waste a test. I will NOT waste a test." We will see if that will stick. :roflmbo:

Tomorrow, I have a funeral to go to. My husband's grandma died. The family wasn't close to her, even my FIL wasn't. So, it isn't really a big deal around here, but we are going to go because it is the right thing to do. It is really making me sad that no one in our family is sad at all. My MIL and FIL just keep talking about her money and how it is all going to "John," her husband. He wasn't FIL's dad and was the "other man" she left his dad for. So, of course, they don't like him. But, come on, it has been 45 years now. (and, his father died over 20 years ago now.) It is time to accept that he was her husband. Family drama. *sigh*

That is kind of sad about the family, but I understand. It was the same way with my family. And yes I'm home now and doing quite a bit better. And I'm with the others, I would go ahead and test. But I'm an addict so....:blush:

Waste a test! :-) LOL.

I'm here. I can't believe tomorrow is my last dose of femara already. I started my gonal-f injections tonight. I go in Wed for a follie scan. I'm nervous about how many will grow!!! But mostly i cant' believe how fast this is going! I'll likely trigger next weekend?? Crazy.

Hugs to all who need them!

Cindy

It's coming fast, good luck!

[Melmonkey]

Hey ladies......I think that this is my official jumping in the TTC deep end.....I think I had O pains the other day, David did the counting, I refuse to because I seriously do not want to obsess. We DTD on the 31st, 1st and last night...hoping and praying we caught the elusive egg. If not within the next 6 months, June we will be hitting up fertility drugs again

So cross everything you have that is able to be crossed....I don't want to play fertility drugs russian roulette:giggle2:

[finleyjudemommy]

Hey ladies.....feeling a little down today and missing Jack sooo much. I know of at least 5 people in my life that are pregnant...one being my sil. I've hopped on facebook and seen at least 3 ultrasound pictures in the last 2 days. Tried to "vent" to one of my besties and she suggested counseling....I don't need that, just need to vent.....arg.....

Anyway, CD 17 for me today and I think I may O tonight or soon....having some twinges on the right side and more cm than normal....fingers crossed!

Thanks for listening....

[slimy72]

Hey ladies.....feeling a little down today and missing Jack sooo much. I know of at least 5 people in my life that are pregnant...one being my sil. I've hopped on facebook and seen at least 3 ultrasound pictures in the last 2 days. Tried to "vent" to one of my besties and she suggested counseling....I don't need that, just need to vent.....arg.....

Anyway, CD 17 for me today and I think I may O tonight or soon....having some twinges on the right side and more cm than normal....fingers crossed!

Thanks for listening....

:hugs: Any time I feel frustrated this is what DH has resorted to suggesting. I don't know he may be right, but dang sometimes I feel just like you, I just want someone to talk to. :hugs:

[Melmonkey]

Hey ladies.....feeling a little down today and missing Jack sooo much. I know of at least 5 people in my life that are pregnant...one being my sil. I've hopped on facebook and seen at least 3 ultrasound pictures in the last 2 days. Tried to "vent" to one of my besties and she suggested counseling....I don't need that, just need to vent.....arg.....

Anyway, CD 17 for me today and I think I may O tonight or soon....having some twinges on the right side and more cm than normal....fingers crossed!

Thanks for listening....

I'm sorry that you are feeling down, but we are all here and have huge hugs and strong shoulders :hugs:

[Vegan Princess]

Susan: Hugs! It's ok to miss your baby - it doesn't mean you need therapy! Def vent to us. That's what we're here for. I'm sorry you're having a tough time mama!

I had a rough day over here. Went for my first ultrasound. I have 3 at 12mm and 2 at 6mm. The place I went to isn't my clinic so they wouldn't tell me anything. I had a quick call with my nurse and she said she thought we'd only get 3 eggs. But later after she talked to my doctor, he told her it's still really early for my protocol and that he thought that we still might get 5 or 6. Not sure where he gets 6 from. He upped my medicine dose and I go back Friday. I got my hopes up after hearing I had 9 to work with - but this is a low dose protocol. I just expected more after doing estrogen priming and adding in gonal-f. I had 4-5 on femara alone for my last IUI. Also, my lining is only 3.9. The nurse was kinda stressing over it on our first call but on the 2nd she said the doc wasn't concerned yet. I start suppositories tonight to thicken it. So we shall see. I've been way stressed all day. Right now I am just turning it over to god! And it looks like retreival will be Monday or Tuesday!

Cindy

[amyltc]

Susan: Hugs! It's ok to miss your baby - it doesn't mean you need therapy! Def vent to us. That's what we're here for. I'm sorry you're having a tough time mama!

I had a rough day over here. Went for my first ultrasound. I have 3 at 12mm and 2 at 6mm. The place I went to isn't my clinic so they wouldn't tell me anything. I had a quick call with my nurse and she said she thought we'd only get 3 eggs. But later after she talked to my doctor, he told her it's still really early for my protocol and that he thought that we still might get 5 or 6. Not sure where he gets 6 from. He upped my medicine dose and I go back Friday. I got my hopes up after hearing I had 9 to work with - but this is a low dose protocol. I just expected more after doing estrogen priming and adding in gonal-f. I had 4-5 on femara alone for my last IUI. Also, my lining is only 3.9. The nurse was kinda stressing over it on our first call but on the 2nd she said the doc wasn't concerned yet. I start suppositories tonight to thicken it. So we shall see. I've been way stressed all day. Right now I am just turning it over to god! And it looks like retreival will be Monday or Tuesday!

Cindy

:hugs: Cindy,praying you get a lot of really healthy little egggies!


I know some of you mentioned counseling, I've thought of it beffore and its just so darn pricey! I do go to a monthly infertility support group though and its wonderful! Its through my church, the group is through LDS familiy services, but its not really faith based, we more just talk about dealing with infertility, and sometimes adoption too. Also there is an organization, I can't remember what it is called that does support groups, I'll look it up. Anyway I felt weird going the first time, but now I love it, and feel like some of those ladies are some of my best friends. They all just totally 'get' it.

[GracieMak'sMama]

Hey all! I know i kind of dropped off of the planet for a couple of months; our internet pooped out and i had no way of getting back on. But, we have internet again and i would like to be added again, if thats alright?
Screen Name: GracieMak"sMama
Real Name: Sara
Age: 22 (DH:23)
Current Children and age: Grace, almsot 2
Lost Children and Dates: none
Diagnosis: no real diagnosis at this point, we are still searching for answers.
Treatment and meds: prenatals, natural fertility diet and insulin(type 1 diabetic)
Next Appointment: Jan 11, to follow up on bloodwork and make a plan.
Cycles TTC another: Feb 27 will mark a full year

[slimy72]

Susan: Hugs! It's ok to miss your baby - it doesn't mean you need therapy! Def vent to us. That's what we're here for. I'm sorry you're having a tough time mama!

I had a rough day over here. Went for my first ultrasound. I have 3 at 12mm and 2 at 6mm. The place I went to isn't my clinic so they wouldn't tell me anything. I had a quick call with my nurse and she said she thought we'd only get 3 eggs. But later after she talked to my doctor, he told her it's still really early for my protocol and that he thought that we still might get 5 or 6. Not sure where he gets 6 from. He upped my medicine dose and I go back Friday. I got my hopes up after hearing I had 9 to work with - but this is a low dose protocol. I just expected more after doing estrogen priming and adding in gonal-f. I had 4-5 on femara alone for my last IUI. Also, my lining is only 3.9. The nurse was kinda stressing over it on our first call but on the 2nd she said the doc wasn't concerned yet. I start suppositories tonight to thicken it. So we shall see. I've been way stressed all day. Right now I am just turning it over to god! And it looks like retreival will be Monday or Tuesday!

Cindy

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:hugs: Cindy,praying you get a lot of really healthy little egggies!


I know some of you mentioned counseling, I've thought of it beffore and its just so darn pricey! I do go to a monthly infertility support group though and its wonderful! Its through my church, the group is through LDS familiy services, but its not really faith based, we more just talk about dealing with infertility, and sometimes adoption too. Also there is an organization, I can't remember what it is called that does support groups, I'll look it up. Anyway I felt weird going the first time, but now I love it, and feel like some of those ladies are some of my best friends. They all just totally 'get' it.

Where would I find information on this in my area? I'm in Ogden, Utah FYI.

[carlaross]

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Where would I find information on this in my area? I'm in Ogden, Utah FYI.

I recognized the name of your town. 6 police officers were shot there last night - one died. So sad. :( My hubby is a cop and this is my biggest fear. Over 170 officers were killed in the line of duty in 2011. :cry:

[slimy72]

I recognized the name of your town. 6 police officers were shot there last night - one died. So sad. :( My hubby is a cop and this is my biggest fear. Over 170 officers were killed in the line of duty in 2011. :cry:

Seriously? I haven't heard that. We're usually in the top of the nation for low crime/safe place to live polls.

[Ardenne]

Hey ladies.....feeling a little down today and missing Jack sooo much. I know of at least 5 people in my life that are pregnant...one being my sil. I've hopped on facebook and seen at least 3 ultrasound pictures in the last 2 days. Tried to "vent" to one of my besties and she suggested counseling....I don't need that, just need to vent.....arg.....

Anyway, CD 17 for me today and I think I may O tonight or soon....having some twinges on the right side and more cm than normal....fingers crossed!

Thanks for listening....

Coming out of lurking to share some :hugs: for you, Susan. I totally empathize -- I get that more often than not if I try to talk to anyone about our losses these days, too. Along with the typical 'shouldn't you be over that by now?' attitude, it just makes bereaved mothers feel *so* isolated.

You're in my heart and prayers today. :hugs: And good luck with O!

[garness]

we didn 't "try" this cycle. My husband wants me to exersizie and try to get healthier for the next few months.
I just feel like I am not even ovulating anymore. I'm discouraged. Maybe I should by some ovulation predictor kits just to get some better info. What else can I do.

[slimy72]

Carla- I went to lunch and that came up. Apperently it was a huge incident last night. My friend was driving up there and said she got passed by over 20 police cars on her way home. How aweful for those families. I don't actually live in Ogden I live about 20 min. out in the country, but still that is very close to home for me.

AFM, thanks to the endo thread in this forum I think I may have discovered another link in my issue. I have had hypoglycemia since I was a teenager, about the same time all of my endo symptoms started too. So I'm thinking an insulin resistance diet along with loosing some weight would really help me out. So major diet change. I eat SOOOO much candy, I'm horribly addicted. I've known I needed to change something for a long time this was just really the wakeup call I needed. I'm not horribly overweight, probably 30-35lbs from my ideal, but my eating habits leave something to be desired. So I'm making a goal to loose 20lbs. That seems reasonable. I'm going to start excercising a few times a week. And I'm going to be healthier.

[Fleece Be With You]

Laurel, I have been there too with the candy addiction, before I changed my entire lifestyle I would stop for candy ALL the time, it was crazy. 20 lbs sounds very reasonable.

2 more pregnancy announcements on my Facebook this week, one of them is twins. I just need to focus on my health, and quit being bothered by other people having it so easy. No one is perfect, I'm sure each of these people has a secret struggle too, but it is hard when your own problems seem so huge.

[slimy72]

Spent a good share of time last night chopping vegis, making a salad for my lunch, and even went down and spent 10min. on the eliptical. I feel pitiful because 10 min. is all I could manage. I was so tired but I'll start working up from there. And my first success of the day, I made my run up to the main office and didn't stop for my morning handful of candy at any of the secretaries desks. Now if I can just do that mid morning and afternoon too I'll be one step ahead.

[sdavis514]

Hi ladies. I am sorry I have not been checking up the last few months. I have been on the Clomid and was trying not to obsess. Plus the holidays :)

Here is an update for me -
Screen Name: sdavis514
Real Name: Sarah
Age: 31 (DH 31)
Current Children and age: one DS age 4 1/2
Lost Children and Dates: none
Diagnosis: We were NTNP for 4 years then I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2003 and was put on clomid from 9/04-1/05 with no results, took break and became pregnant with DS with no intervention in Aug 2006. Recent blood work suggested no insulin resistance.
Treatment and meds: 150 mg Clomid for January cycle, then referral to fertility clinic
Next Appointment: none :(
Cycles TTC another: NTNP for 4 years, Actively TTC since Jan 11

So I did 50 mg in Sept, no O. Oct was 100 mg clomid, O on cd 15. Nov was 100 mg clomid again but O was not until cd 40. We did 150 mg this cycle but that is the end of the road with the OB. If BFN this month, we need to move on to the fertility clinic. Unfortunately, I am not sure if we can afford it.

It is cd 17 here. No indication of O yet. Unfortunately, if I O this week, I think we will miss it. Unfortunately, my DH grandfather ( which is legally his dad since they adopted him when he was 3) passed away last night. He lives with us and my 4 year old found him unconsious and not breathing in his room on Wednesday. It is a rough time for us. My DS was very close to him and so was my husband. He was 82 and had advanced, untreated prostate cancer. So while it was not a huge surprise, we were not quite ready for this to happen!!!

I will try to check in later in the week and read. I have missed being a part of this thread. I am hoping this year is better than last and we will be able to move forward on our IF journey. But for now, I need to focus on my family and get through this rough time! THanks ladies.

[sillyutalktome]

Sarah - I am so sorry for your family's loss. As for the clomid not working yet, will your OB not try femara? It sounds like you're not the best responder to clomid and usually in that case you may respond better to Femara.

[Love4leon]

Laurel- Excellent start with the diet and exercise! Good for you!

Jessica- I'm so sorry about the Facebook announcements- it is just so hard. I really stay away from Facebook at all costs.

AFM (long): I finally saw an RE through my new insurance (Kaiser) yesterday!!! They did the u/s and I have 13 follicles on each side (he said that was good). All my labs are looking good too- even the FSH which I was worried about because of my age. So... basically our options are to try using all of our frozen sperm in a medicated IUI cycle, or IVF. Our next step is for DH to have a Kruger SA to see if his sperm are even able to do the job. Depending on how that comes back- we will make our decision. IVF would be $10,000 including everything. That is pretty reasonable right? One clomid cycle IUI is about $350- that is why we are thinking we might try it. Plus DH is still producing at least a little sperm- so we could always use fresh sperm for the IVF cycle. At any rate- I think this is good news and I think we will be moving forward with things in the next few months.

[Love4leon]

Sarah- I'm so sorry for your loss. How is your 4 year old doing? Poor little one....

[Vegan Princess]

Rebecca: Sounds like things are looking great inside you! No huge rush on timing. Phew! I hope you can do the IUI and that it's all you need!!!

Sarah: I'm so sorry. :-( I too liked femara a lot. I am even using it in my IVF cycle.

I had my 2nd appt this morning. My lining plumped up a lot in 2 days! So I feel a lot better there. It almost doubled thanks to estorgen suppositories! 2 new follies started growing but 1 grew really fast so I'm not sure how trigger timing will work. If we trigger based on the big one, we'll have 3 mature. But if we sacrifice the big one, we might get 4 or 5. I have to wait to see what my doc says this afternoon. I feel ok with things today though. Not all stressed out like on Wed!

Cindy

[sillyutalktome]

cindy - So glad to hear you're not stressed out today! How big is your largest follicle? I had one that was 21 at day of trigger and I thought it would be over mature by retrieval time but it wasn't.

Love4Leon - I think that IVF price seems very reasonable! I hope your dh's new SA is a great answer!

[Vegan Princess]

Sillyu: The biggest is 18.5 already! I also have 13.1, 13.7, 8.2, 7.6 and 2 at 6.0. All over the place. My thought is maybe the 7.6 and 8.2 could mature while we let the 13's grow. They called and shceduled me to go in on Sunday - so who knows if we'll lose the big one but the nurse thought we probably would but it would be better to stick to the group. They are going to call me again later once they have my labs back. So I'll likely trigger Sunday but maybe not until Monday. I guess we'll just see how long we can hold off on the 13s to let the others grow.

Cindy

[sillyutalktome]

Cindy, I hope your scan went well today!

I'm still just plugging along, taking my meds and waiting. I did a FET pregnancy due date calculator tonight since the military is threatening to send dh to a school in September. It said I'm one week pregnant and that thought just made me so excited. I know it's silly, especially since my chances of this working are lower than last time which obviously didn't work. I just can't help thinking it will work, it has to work. I'm not sure if it's just being naive or desperate.

[Love4leon]

Cindy- Any updates? Fingers crossed for you!!!! Hope all is going well!

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Hi Ladies. I'm thinking of you all this morning. I'm going to catch up and start the new thread during nap time today.

[Vegan Princess]

Sillyu: That is exciting! :-)

My scan went well yesterday. 6 still growing. 1 def won't catch up. Will def have 3 mature and I'm hoping the other 2 will be big enough to be mature as well but we won't know until they do the retreival. I go back tomorrow for another scan. It turns out the one that got really big was actually measured wrong! So we have longer to wait to let the others catch up. I'll most likely trigger tomorrow night. I wouldn't be suprised if they let me go until Wed. But I doubt I can go any longer than that. So thurs or fri retreival!! Oh and my lining was a 9 - so no more worries there. :-)

Cindy