meeshkasheeba
03-12-2012, 08:05 PM
6/26- I met with the Dr today and although I know he knows what he is doing I really felt like he was a jerk. I don't feel like he heard me initially and kind of feel like he has been telling me what I want to hear. He was so focused on fixing my pain that he seemed to totally forget that we were trying to get pregnant. Once we got that squared away (and my temper chilled a little) we got one with the show and discussed the length of the Lupron treatments. He said we will go ahead and complete one more injection (4 total) before we do an ultrasound and then if the endometrioma is gone we can discuss going straight to IVF or completing 2 more injections and trying for a few months before doing IVF. If it is not gone then we will have to go in and drain it and then finish the 6 injections.
So what helped you make the decision to jump to IVF and what helped you be at peace about the extra embies?
This is all so overwhelming to begin with. He is not helping things. I did finally get a script for Zoloft to see if it will help me chill out a little bit (I'm sure after today he had no doubts I needed it) I am not sure how I feel about trying naturally vs IVF at this point because I feel so beat down and I feel like this must just be next to impossible. I am still in waiting, but maybe next month I will have a few answers and we will be closer to TTC again.
5/3 I started my Lupron injections today. I am terrified of how I may react and already have a headache. It is not good. I originally thought I was going to only have 3 injections but now they are talking about maybe longer. I am going to meet with the Dr when I get the 3rd injection to see if that is sufficient or if he really thinks I need more. His notes say that I have adenomyosis and that is supposedly why he may want me to do more, but I can't find anything that says this has been studied AT ALL! I am freaking out.
I have rather bad endometriosis and I am very aware that I have been blessed with two beautiful boys that I probably shouldn't have been able to have so easily, but I want another child. For that matter, my DH wants another child. I have spent the last 18 months trying for another one and it has now been a year since I had my last lap to remove endo from my only ovary. I also had my only tube unblocked again 3 cycles ago. I am now to a point that I feel like I need someone that actually specializes in IF. I have had the same OB/GYN for 10 years and I have grown to really trust him. I have had some fairly bad experiences with other docs and I have a really hard time trusting them.
How did you decide that it was time to use an actual fertility specialist? How did you get the courage to do so? I am terrified that I am going to be told that I have two great kids and that I should be happy with them because they were never meant to be conceived in the first place. I know that sound so irrational, but it does seem to be the ongoing statement made.
I was even told by the OB that I was never expected to have children, why did I want yet another one. (This is the guy that has 5, the most recent of which was conceived by IVF)
Please help me with your stories of how you got to that place.
Update: Well, I had my first visit and it was very long. More than two hours if you count all of the wait time. We went over history and he immediately told me he wants me to go on a 3month round of Lupron, well, 3 of the one month injections. I cried. I hate Lupron with a passion and initially I told him no. If you have read the side effects of it, that was me to a T last time I was on it. It was awful. They drew a bunch of labs and are going to take more on day 3 of my cycle. We then went in for a full physical and int ultrasound where he saw my spongy uterus (endo) and a 4cm cyst on my ovary and a few other definite markers for PCOS. We also discussed possibly having high prolactin levels due to a few things he noticed and his nurse practitioner said we may do an MRI of my brain if levels are too far off.
They started me on Metformin and Metamucel this visit and plan to start me on some vitamins and probably the Lupron once my labs are back. They also discussed me being on a gluten free diet (we are working towards that already) and they want me to log my activity level for a while so they can make recommendations on what else I may need to do. They did not say "lose weight" but I think they are in favor of me dropping a few pounds. I know I need to.
The PCOS diagnosis is new to me and very scarry to add on top of the endo and only having one ovary but he did think that if we could get the endo under control and the PCOS under control that we should be good to go because the tube looks good on that side. I sure hope he is right.
I don't know anyone more afraid of a drug than they are of surgery but I sure am. I know with God on my side I can do this but I sure don't want to.
So what can you all tell me about PCOS?
So, we got my labs back and they weren't all that bad really. My vit D is low as is my HDL colesterol so I need to be taking fish oil and he prescribed some vit D so it will absorb better. I eat fish about once a week so I guess we need to eat it and nuts more. They drew some more labs today (LH, FSH, prolactin, and estrogen) I am going to get my first injection of Lupron on the 3rd and I am terrified. They all have said I can call the office any time and they will talk to me (even if they have to put me on hold a few times to attend to ladies in the office). I hate the idea of putting my body through all of this again. It is exhausting having to wait for it I really just wanted to get it over with and get started now. I guess it is sounding like we may get to start TTC gain in Aug. I am going to try to take these few months to get healthier and lose a little weight. I am stressed out about all of this and I just don't know how I am going to make it through it all sane. I don't know how you manage to deal with this for 3+years. I just don't know how you cope. Maybe I am just tired but this is tough.
So what helped you make the decision to jump to IVF and what helped you be at peace about the extra embies?
This is all so overwhelming to begin with. He is not helping things. I did finally get a script for Zoloft to see if it will help me chill out a little bit (I'm sure after today he had no doubts I needed it) I am not sure how I feel about trying naturally vs IVF at this point because I feel so beat down and I feel like this must just be next to impossible. I am still in waiting, but maybe next month I will have a few answers and we will be closer to TTC again.
5/3 I started my Lupron injections today. I am terrified of how I may react and already have a headache. It is not good. I originally thought I was going to only have 3 injections but now they are talking about maybe longer. I am going to meet with the Dr when I get the 3rd injection to see if that is sufficient or if he really thinks I need more. His notes say that I have adenomyosis and that is supposedly why he may want me to do more, but I can't find anything that says this has been studied AT ALL! I am freaking out.
I have rather bad endometriosis and I am very aware that I have been blessed with two beautiful boys that I probably shouldn't have been able to have so easily, but I want another child. For that matter, my DH wants another child. I have spent the last 18 months trying for another one and it has now been a year since I had my last lap to remove endo from my only ovary. I also had my only tube unblocked again 3 cycles ago. I am now to a point that I feel like I need someone that actually specializes in IF. I have had the same OB/GYN for 10 years and I have grown to really trust him. I have had some fairly bad experiences with other docs and I have a really hard time trusting them.
How did you decide that it was time to use an actual fertility specialist? How did you get the courage to do so? I am terrified that I am going to be told that I have two great kids and that I should be happy with them because they were never meant to be conceived in the first place. I know that sound so irrational, but it does seem to be the ongoing statement made.
I was even told by the OB that I was never expected to have children, why did I want yet another one. (This is the guy that has 5, the most recent of which was conceived by IVF)
Please help me with your stories of how you got to that place.
Update: Well, I had my first visit and it was very long. More than two hours if you count all of the wait time. We went over history and he immediately told me he wants me to go on a 3month round of Lupron, well, 3 of the one month injections. I cried. I hate Lupron with a passion and initially I told him no. If you have read the side effects of it, that was me to a T last time I was on it. It was awful. They drew a bunch of labs and are going to take more on day 3 of my cycle. We then went in for a full physical and int ultrasound where he saw my spongy uterus (endo) and a 4cm cyst on my ovary and a few other definite markers for PCOS. We also discussed possibly having high prolactin levels due to a few things he noticed and his nurse practitioner said we may do an MRI of my brain if levels are too far off.
They started me on Metformin and Metamucel this visit and plan to start me on some vitamins and probably the Lupron once my labs are back. They also discussed me being on a gluten free diet (we are working towards that already) and they want me to log my activity level for a while so they can make recommendations on what else I may need to do. They did not say "lose weight" but I think they are in favor of me dropping a few pounds. I know I need to.
The PCOS diagnosis is new to me and very scarry to add on top of the endo and only having one ovary but he did think that if we could get the endo under control and the PCOS under control that we should be good to go because the tube looks good on that side. I sure hope he is right.
I don't know anyone more afraid of a drug than they are of surgery but I sure am. I know with God on my side I can do this but I sure don't want to.
So what can you all tell me about PCOS?
So, we got my labs back and they weren't all that bad really. My vit D is low as is my HDL colesterol so I need to be taking fish oil and he prescribed some vit D so it will absorb better. I eat fish about once a week so I guess we need to eat it and nuts more. They drew some more labs today (LH, FSH, prolactin, and estrogen) I am going to get my first injection of Lupron on the 3rd and I am terrified. They all have said I can call the office any time and they will talk to me (even if they have to put me on hold a few times to attend to ladies in the office). I hate the idea of putting my body through all of this again. It is exhausting having to wait for it I really just wanted to get it over with and get started now. I guess it is sounding like we may get to start TTC gain in Aug. I am going to try to take these few months to get healthier and lose a little weight. I am stressed out about all of this and I just don't know how I am going to make it through it all sane. I don't know how you manage to deal with this for 3+years. I just don't know how you cope. Maybe I am just tired but this is tough.
