....this really hurts!!!

[trying4more]

Had u/s today.
Nothing!
Doc said more than likely I'll be starting to miscarry soon. *OR* very slightly chance of being not far along enough to show anything.

But when I got home, I had lots of cramps and brown bleeding.

Waiting for blood results...

This will be my first m/c....this hurts!!!!:cry:

[MatildasMum]

yes it does. :hugs: I'm so sorry.

[mhr1406]

oh sweetie I am so sorry to hear that the u/s did not go well :hugs:

did the dr do an internal u/s? If so then the cramps and brown bleeding could be coming from the u/s irritating your cervix

there still might be hope hang in there for the bloodwork hun :hugs:
hopefully you are just not as far along as you thought

[trying4more]

The *earliest* I could be is 4wks 1day.

I did have an interal u/s, a pap smear AND a pelvic exam.

I took a pg test again (forcing the pee out) and still positive, but should be darker! Although, maybe 4wks 1day wouldn't be as dark!

I'm so lost right now!
Tomorrow I'll get the results from the first blood draw, then go back wednesday morning for the second result!

I want to know SOOOOOO bad!

[crystalkicks]

:hugs:

[Knits on Earth]

:hugs:

[katina128]

Awwww, I'm so sorry. I hope you're just not as far along and things will turn out fine. :hugs:

[trying4more]

I cannot believe how painful this is.

A part of me just doens't feel pregnant, but a part of me doesn't feel like I can say I'm having a m/c!

Can't wait until tomorrow to see the first set of numbers. I already know that the first set will not tell anything, but I just want to see how high it is, and maybe that will correlate with the empty u/s!!!

I go for a few hours of not crying and feeling ok. I keep telling myself that the baby just wansn't ok, and it's God way of taking it back....
then I start just bursting into tears and crying hard.

[beckstar]

hey,

its very possible not to see anything on the u/s if you are even 5 weeks pregnant...sometimes 6...if you have a tilted uterus, even further along.

i wouldn't assume anything until you get your betas back. the brown bleeding and cramping could very well be from the internal exam...and a pap smear? well, those are a bit invasive and your cervix, when pregnant, is very sensitive...

try to have faith.

i am keeping you in my prayers.

[PeanutButter'sMommy]

Hugs mama. Don't assume anything yet, but I'm thinking of you. Miscarriages are really terrible. PM me if you ever need to talk to anyone :hugs:. Hoping all turns out ok.

[trying4more]

The dar brown watery blood turned to brown spot. Mostly on TP, some on panties.

Nothing came of it during the evening/night.

Woke up this morning, with dark brown watery blood on TP. Now fading to spot again.

Waiting to get beta numbers back from m/w...but keep getting answering machine!

minor cramps. nothing too painful!

[kristinc]

i am sooo sorry honey:grouphug: i can't imagine how much that must hurt. I will keep you in my thoughts.

[MNmom]

I know the pain is unbelievable. I am so very very sorry that you are going through this. Hugs and prayers for you.

[trying4more]

No beta, no more spotting, no more cramps!
Dealing with a b**ch nurse who lacks sensativity!

Off to go cry again!

[mhr1406]

:hugs: Oh hun I am so sorry that the nurse is lacking sensitivity

I wish I could get ahold of that nurse :lemmeathim: :fryingpan:

[trying4more]

Beta #1...221
If I going by pure miracle and I'm only really around 4wks, then 221 is ok. Tomorrow will tell the truth. I go back for another beta!

Please Lord, help me through this!!!!

[fallon]

I hope everything turns out well hun

[smblake]

Beta #1...221
If I going by pure miracle and I'm only really around 4wks, then 221 is ok. Tomorrow will tell the truth. I go back for another beta!

Please Lord, help me through this!!!!

I don't want to help or hurt the situation, but with ds - my first beta levels were in the mid 200s... he was conceived right after a m/c so I had no idea where I was at in my cycle, I was afraid it might be residual hcg or that I was bound to m/c again (after 2 before him, I was really scared). Anyway, just turned out I was BARELY pregnant (i tested at 10dpo), next levels came back higher and now he's 2. I hope your story sounds like mine in the next few days, keep the hope mama. :hugs: and prayers.

[RobinP92202]

((((hugs))))) I was right there in the same place last month. It didn't turn out well for me, but I pray things are looking up for you now! Please update.

[trying4more]

Went and got the second beta drawn today!
The lab tech said they will get it tomorrow, but I'm going to call this afternoon and see if they are in today! Then I'm going to harass the doc until I get the results!

I need at least a number of 500 to make me feel better, although I'm feeling it will be lower, or even worse, at tiny bit higher.

.

[me_n_my2kiddos]

Hope and pray you get good results. Ive been though 5 early m/c's.

[beckstar]

they should be able to tell you the results today...depending on if they have an onsite lab or not.

im hoping and praying for you.

[jessie327]

I am thinking of you and hoping for the best!

[trying4more]

Yes, the lab is onsite!

It's almost 1pm and really want to call and see if it's in yet!

[beckstar]

call. if it isnt in...have them put a STAT on it...

[naturalbirthmama]

it hurts really bad. but the Lord heals and restores :) i miscarried on 5/28 and got a bfp 6/28

[naturalbirthmama]

Beta #1...221
If I going by pure miracle and I'm only really around 4wks, then 221 is ok. Tomorrow will tell the truth. I go back for another beta!

Please Lord, help me through this!!!!

Praying for you! my first reply was after reading your op.

[Sweet_Fantasy_Fox]

sending prayers your way mama:hugs: positive thoughts that your numbers come back over 500:pray:

[Sarahb44]

:pray: for you and your lil bean :hugs:

[Monkeytaylz]

Praying for you & your babe. :hugs:

[StacyW]

:hugs: mama!! Any update?

[piccolo41099]

:hugs:

Any news?

[trying4more]

So, after harassing the lab staff, I know NOTHING!

I asked, begged, pleaded, and cried over the phone to get them to process the numbers TODAY!
The lady said that the doc has to do them and even if they did them that day, they couldn't give me the numbers over the phone because my name isn't on the original order!!!

AARrrggghhhhhhh....WHY?????

It's **MY** friggin body! How can someone tell me that I can't know about **MY** body!

So, tomorrow I have get them!

I'm not spotting anymore. My last spot was more of a yellow/brown (TMI..Like Diarrhea)....

I'm still going to the appt at the birth center. I told them the WHOLE situation and they said to still come in. I can talk to the nurse then.

I was having gut feelings that everything was all bad, but looking back at my chart and all the spotting and whatnot, and I was sick, I totally could have O'd late!

I don't think I've prayed so much in my life! I just want a healthy baby. I'm so afraid of m/c, and don't know if I can handle emotionally!

[McMamma38]

Oh sweetie--:hugs: :hugs: I'm praying right along w/everyone else that you and this tiny new life are just fine! It's so very early--hang in there.
I dont think you'd see anything even w/trans vag u/s this early.
My earliest u/s was at 5 weeks--and I saw the gestational sack.I had to go in to confirm a fhb and everything the next week--and there it was beating away.
It does hurt real bad--I lost this babe at 8 weeks.But happily went on to concieve our dd Sarah 4 months later.:thumbsup:

[trying4more]

I really do enjoy the kind words and support!

Just yesturday I had the worst feeling. I just felt that this baby would not make it. That nothing even developed. But everytime I started crying, I felt like I was crying over nothing! That there was still hope!

Today, I have mixed feelings, although I just don't think one of them is that the baby is really gone.

I took another HPT (I think #15) and it's BLARING +++ My first real BLARING +. If my HCG was 221 2 days ago, and I m/c I don't think this test should be THIS +, especially since the HCG sensitiy is 100/mIU, and within 45 seconds!!!

Just send prayers or happy vibes...whatever your belief is...send it to me and my miracle!

I really do appreciate ALL your support! You can't imagine how much it means to me! (although I'm sure some of you do!)

[I Smile Because Of Them]

Praying lots for you mama. :hugs:

[trying4more]

Took another test.
This is the most UNsensitive test I could find.
Tests at 100/mIU. BLARING + within 45sec.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v454/madisynn/014-2.jpg

[smblake]

oh mama keep up the hope, you are in my prayers!

[ty&jessie]

Sweetie I have my fingers crossed for you and saying many prayers. ((HUGS))

[mhr1406]

:hugs: those are such beautiful lines on that test sweetie and clearly showing you are producing hcg

I hope and pray that you get good news on your 2nd beta test today. please keep the updates coming. I'll be thinking of you all day and watching for when your results come back.

:hugs:

[trying4more]

not quite 8am yet here.
I think the lab opens at 8am. I know they can't give me the results, but I'm going to sweet talk them into at least telling me if it double, or am I save to say I'm still healthy pregnant!

My stomach is in knots! I feel like puking!
Again, no spotting this morning!
Lastnight before bed, I had some FAINT brown tinged thick CM. Which I'm quessing is left over from my cervix, and I'm sure it's from the pap smear. I have a VERY sensitive cervix due to Laps I've had on it!

[jessie327]

you are in my thoughts today so I stopped by to see what the lab said - any word?

[trying4more]

...I'm STILL PREGNANT!!!!!!!

Doubling rate every 41hrs. (same is with my youngest DD)

I'm soooooooo friggin happy!

I went to the new birth center where I'll be delivering and told them the story, and I'll never set FOOT in that other office!

The nurse even had the nerve to say that I still might be miscarrying!!! I have a healthy baby, you old *****......go swim up a river!

[cadchick]

Oh thats great news!!! YAH! I read the whole post wishing you the best! Its like reading a book - cant wait to get to the end! :D

[mhr1406]

WooHoo!!!! :hugs: :bliss: :yay: :preggo: :happyclap: :bighug:

Sooo happy that things went well at the birth center today

I hope that the rest of your 9 month journey is happy and healthy!

[smblake]

I'm so happy for you - it brings back a lot of memories of my journey with ds... babies are truly miracles :wub:. I hope the next 9 months brings you nothing but pure joy and happiness!

[trying4more]

Thank you all so much!
Your support was amazing. Nothing I expected from a group of women I don't know!

[Sweet_Fantasy_Fox]

Congrats!!!:yay:

[McMamma38]

Awesome!:lostit: Embrace that tiny baby bump--and excited and thrilled for you.
Cannot wait to read an awesome birth story from you inabout 9months or a liitle less.:thumbsup:

[Harmony96]

Oh yay!!! :bliss: :bliss: :bliss:

[ty&jessie]

YES!!! I am so happy for you!! Heres to a H & H 9 months!!:goodvibes: :hugs:

[jessie327]

I am so happy for you - that is just fabulous news mama!

[*Katherine*]

That's great!!! I can't believe they had the nerve to tell you you were m/c. They did that to my SIL and she now has a beautiful 18 month old :hugs: I just know everything will be just fine!

[trying4more]

One instance of brown blood today! Hope it's all going good still.
U/S on monday!!! Praying that we see a gestational sac!!!

[MNmom]

That is so WONDERFUL!!!!!! I am so happy for you and your tiny new baby. I hope all goes well. Keep us posted after your Ultrasound.
:lostit: :happyclap: :hugegrin: :yay: :preggo:

[beckstar]

thats awesome news. take it easy, mama...drink lots of water and try to rest. cant wait to hear how the u/s goes.

[trying4more]

Well,
Today I found out my angel went to Heaven!

Started gushing red blood. Went to the ER. U/S showed no baby. cervix is open, and my hCG crashed!
Doctor is happy that my body is doing this naturally and doesn't need any medical help, which will make a easier recovery, and recommends TTA for 3mths.
I'm TTA until Jan 2009, unless an oops happens. I want to get my cycles normal and get my body healthy as possible!

[beckstar]

so very sorry.

much love headed your way.

[mhr1406]

Oh No :cry: what a roller coaster you have been on! I am so very sorry for your loss sweetie :bighug:

[smblake]

I am so sorry, it is not an easy thing to go through. Take care of yourself :hugs:

[PeanutButter'sMommy]

I'm so sorry to hear this. If you ever need to talk, PM me :hugs:

[GreenSeed]

:hugs: so sorry mama.

[Tinabel]

oh momma I'm so sorry to hear this, I read your whole post, I went through this before I got pg with my son...my sister took me to the ER because my DF was at work, and the woman was so insensitive like the nurse you were dealing with, I just wanted to hit her!! But I hope that your doing alright, and take care of yourself :hugs:

[McMamma38]

Oh mama--:cry: :hugs: :hugs: :hugs: I'm so sorrry.

[trying4more]

I'm doing ok.
Tomorrow I go back for a repeat u/s and more blood work.
I know it's over, but there is a sliver of hope that I really think I might see something in the u/s tomorrow!

This is my first m/c and have no idea how it's going to happen.
I bleed for a second, then stop for the rest of the day. minor cramps. Not even passing clots or anything.

Praying that my body get back to normal. Starting back to yoga.

[NaturalMomof2]

:hugs: I'm sorry! I know how bad it hurts. Keep your head held high and keep faith. :goodvibes:

[MNmom]

I am so so sorry.
I hope your heart and your body heal in time.
:hugs: :hugs:

[trying4more]

Thanks everyone!

About to leave to my appointments.
Have to work until 11pm, which totally sucks! It's SO hard being at work, and my partner there is a complete *** and didn't even offer a "how are you" or "I'm sorry!"...WHATEVER!!!!

Oh well....I guess I need to get on with my life!
I just feel like I'll never be unsad until I'm holding a little one in my arms!
but even then, I'll *NEVER* get to hold my angel! I'll never see what color eyes it had, I'll never count it's 10 little fingers and toes!

Ahhh....This is so hard!

[RobinP92202]

(((((((hugs))))))))

I know how you feel. I am in the healing process right now. Take time to grieve your loss. For me I hit rock bottom after it happened and grieved openly and then was able to heal a little a day at a time.

[smblake]

Mama, dh and I have been through this 5 times - it NEVER gets easier, it's okay to grieve and please do... those that have not been through it just cannot understand. I too have those days where I dream and weep over my angels lost, what would they have looked like, what would their laugh sound like, what would it have felt like to hold them? I am so very sorry that you have to experience this... it WILL make you stronger, I promise :hugs:. I'm here if you ever need to talk.

[fsufan]

(((((HUGS))))) Mama...

[trying4more]

U/S today didn't show much new news.
Still an empty uterus, and empty fallopian tubes. Although, the tech said my cervix was tightly closed with no blood in the uterus, and no signs of a m/c! My uterus is super thick, and kept telling me it was to early...I tried to explain my week to her, but her response was..it's too early. Even if you were 6wks, becasue I have a tilted uterus, it could be too early!

I didn't get my blood drawn due to the wait!
Will get it done tomorrow!

[jessie327]

I am so sorry :hugs:

[trying4more]

Got my blood drawn today!
Will get the results tomorrow AM!

Praying for a tiny miracle!

haven't cramped or bled for 2 days now!
What in the WORLD is going on?????

[smblake]

praying right along with you mama!

[mhr1406]

:bighug: :pray: :crossfingers:

[beckstar]

any word?

im so sorry this has been such a rollercoaster ride.

[beckstar]

any word?

im so sorry this has been such a rollercoaster ride.

[Momma_Rock]

Have you heard anything yet?

[trying4more]

Here's a shocker..........

2148!!!

M/W called and recieved all my prior labs, exams, ER visits, and is VERY happy with my betas! She said bleeding can be normal, and to go to the u/s on friday. She is betting we will see a sac!

Talk about a roller coaster!

Anyways, if my baby stays with me....
Names:

Sally Marie
or
Joseph Alexander

[smblake]

HOORAY!!! this sounds much like my beginnings with ds (minus some ER and lab stuff)... I am SOOO happy for you... now stick little baby - your mama is so eager to meet you :hugs:

[77triciaj]

Holy Rollercoaster Mama! I will definitely put you in my prayers for a safe sticky bean. I know the icky of m/c and the scare of a bad bleed. Thinking of you...:hugs:

[trying4more]

So, I'll post my labs here to people don't have to back track.

Beta 1=211
Beta 2=423
Beta 3=892
Beta 4=2148

[mhr1406]

:hugs: Yay! So hapy to hear the numbers are climbing

Stick baby stick

[beckstar]

i'd say those numbers look promising for sure!

god bless!

[McMamma38]

:lostit:

[aqua_jellybean]

I am glad everything turned out!

[Ruiz'sPieces]

those numbers look really good!!! congrats and good luck on ur lil bean!

[trying4more]

Thanks!
Although, they look great, my highest doubling rate was 66hrs, but today went down to 56hrs.
Most of the tests were done 3 days apart. M/W said they like around 48hrs, and under 72hrs.

I'm really nervous for Friday! I've seen SO many empty u/s's that I'm expecting another empty home!

[ty&jessie]

Good luck sweetie!!

[trying4more]

Thanks for more support and all the mama's who are riding this out with me!
Praying, praying, praying!!!!!
PLEASE SHOW ME A BABY TOMORROW!!!

[mhr1406]

:hugs: Praying you have a beautiful u/s and see that little bean

Good Luck hun!!!

[PalmyraMom]

I will be thinking of you and your family... you're doing great, just keep hanging in there!!!

[trying4more]

Thanks!
I'm REALLY trying to hang in!
I keep thinking I'm pregnant, but then think about tomorrow and all the other empty u/s and get down.
But then I remember reading that Beta's under 2000 have a high chance of not seeing anything, and tuesday it was 2148, so we should see it if it's really in there!
I'm SUPER tired today. Probably won't be able to sleep and have to wait until 1:30pm tomorrow!

So, I know I've asked this already, and feel selfish asking again, but if any of you pray, please send some prayers my way!....even if it's just for strength! I SO need it right now!

Please God let my baby be safe and alive in my womb!!!

[trying4more]

Leaving in an hour!
Please send some good u/s vibes!

[Ruiz'sPieces]

:goodvibes: :goodvibes: :goodvibes: :goodvibes:
there u go mama..... good luck and send some baby dust my way.... let us know how it goes

[PalmyraMom]

GAH! I see you're online... I hope you're typing a big long POSITIVE update!!!!

[courtney_adkins05]

positive positive positive!!! fingers crossed for ya mama!

[PalmyraMom]

Oh, heh heh, you mean 1:30 YOUR time... I knew that... (It's 4:07 here!):blush:

[McMamma38]

Cannot wait to hear the update!! Fingers crossed.:thumbsup:

[this_mel_rocks]

:goodvibes:

[trying4more]

WE HAVE A SAC!!!!!
Everything looks perfect. Due March 15!

[this_mel_rocks]

:lostit: :hugegrin: :bliss: :chkn: :cheer: :woot2:

[trying4more]

Oh man..I feel like that too!
I walked down the hallways repeating "I have a sac!!! I HAVE A SAC!!!!!"

the m/w kept lauging!

Go back on the 28th, can't wait to see the h/b!

[PalmyraMom]

HA!!!! Oh I am soooooooooooooo happy for you!!!!!!!!!!:thumbsup: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :hugs: :mrgreen:

[McMamma38]

Yay!!:lostit: :lostit:

[beckstar]

oh goodness. im so incredibly happy for you.

[mevans]

wow mama i just read through these 11 pages...what an emotional roller coaster youve been riding!!

congrats though and i wish you a happy and healthy 9 mos!!

[trying4more]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v454/madisynn/001-7.jpg

[mhr1406]

:hugs: Yay!!!! what an answer to prayers.

I hope that the rest of your 9 month journey is smooth sailing instead of a roller coaster ride

[trying4more]

Yep...I glady kept all hands and legs inside the ride until it came to a full and complete stop and I'm pleased to get off!

Please let the rest of this go smooth!

Although I'm still spotting a bit of brown, but nothing too much and nothing really new!

[smblake]

HOORAY, I'm so happy for you :goodvibes:. Have a wonderful 9 months!

[ty&jessie]

WOOO HOOOO!! I am tickled for you sweetie!!

[duck411]

WOO-HOO :lostit: Midwives are so much more optimistic than OBs - Even just they're wonderful spirits seem to make things a lil better or even start going how you want them to go! I'm so excited for you mama! What a rollercoaster ride it has been 4 you! Still keeping you & your sticky bean in my prayers! :hugs:

[trying4more]

WOW...12 PAGES???

So, today I had some red blood, however I'm not worried about it, as it was one spot and haven't had one cramp!

We all think it's a boy! Josef Alexander Wolf (not adding our lastname) is his name!

I got a dresser for the baby, clothes and a pack n play for it today. My neighbor is having garage sale and when I told her that the baby is there, she started handing me things!

I SOOOO hope for a h/b next monday (7/28).

[Melaine]

I was holding my breath while catching up on your journey the other day. I'm so happy for you to hear the result! God bless your pregnancy!

[mevans]

good luck the 28th!

[PKat]

I've been following this as well and just wanted to say Yay!

I went through almost the same exact thing with my youngest -- but I was told by an ER OB that I HAD miscarried and it took 2 weeks before the m/w could find a heartbeat. But she did and my LO just turned 1 in May!

Congrats I know what a roller coaster you a riding right now.

[trying4more]

pKate-Thanks so much for the encouraging stories! I really do love hearing stories that end up good!

I know that only God will decide what happens to the miracle inside me. It is just so different from my girls, that it's really hard to have something be different then my "baseline" pregnancy ways! KWIM?

I already bought some dipes today! My mom keeps talking about the baby and is so excited!
We keep praying as a family everyday that my baby be born to us in March healthy! I count my blessing daily, and very grateful for this little miracle!

Oh, and I also made a payment towards my TON of wool that was BEAUTFIULY knited by Daisy Knits here on DS! She does AMAZING work and VERY nice to work with!!!!!!
Her name is tricia and she is a blessing as well!

[AutumnRoseJewelryCo]

Wow mama, I have to say I went through this with my DS! I had some bright red bleeding early on and was told I was miscarrying before they did my betas. After they did the betas my MW told me I was having multiples because they were so high! Only one LO here, but he is perfectly healthy not to mention smart as a whip! I know you will have the same! =)

Good LUCK! I'm praying for you!

[trying4more]

Thanks!
I had some red spotting today, and minor cramps. Although I think it might be from constipation. (TMI).
Next monday...almost there!

I should see the h/b at 7wk 1dy right???

[smblake]

I would think so, we saw ds' at 7wk 6dy, FWIW - I spotted a ton with ds up until 11 weeks :hugs:. I hope you see your beautiful baby's hb on Monday, keep us posted.

[McMamma38]

I saw my beans hb on a trans vag u/s at 6 weeks.I lost this one--but I remember I had to go in at 6 weeks to confirm a fhb,since a u/s done at 5 weeks only showed the gestational sac and the tiny fetal pole.
Goodluck!:thumbsup:
With my long wonky cycles I thought I was 8 weeks pg--only to find out I was 5!:giggle:

[trying4more]

My last u/s showed only a sac, and maybe a yolk sac. That was a huge step from all the empy u/s's!
I PRAY that we see a h/b and continue on with a healthy pregnancy! I'm so sorry you lost your last baby! I know how much that hurts!

[McMamma38]

Thanks.That baby was lost 4 months before we concieved Dd Sarah(in my avi).My last loss was Gracie at 18 weeks 3 days gestation last June07.She had a fatal nueral tube birth defect called anencephaly or acrania.:cry:
I feel like this is enough losses for me!

My heart goes out to mamas that have had more than I have,I truely cannot imagine the heartache.

Excited for your next update!:thumbsup: Goodluck on the next u/s!!:goodvibes:

[trying4more]

I started some bleeding today. Enough to continue and get to my pants! I'm going to the ER just check things out. I'm 6w3d so we should see a fetal pole by now!
Will update when I get back!

[mevans]

good luck mama!
hugs and be sure to update

[McMamma38]

Oh noo! :cry: Worried and scared along with you.I'm off to pray for you and your Lo now.
Praying all will be ok.:hugs: :thumbsup:

[trying4more]

Yep...it's the end!
My cervix was open. U/S showed nothing but 3 different areas of blood in my uterus that are right at my cervix.
I'm bleeding pretty steady now. No pain though!
Doc said I could try again whenever I want.
My HcG was only 5800 (from 2148 a week ago).

[mevans]

i'm so sorry mama *hugs*

[McMamma38]

Oh mama--wanting to wrap you in my arms and cry along with you.:cry: I'm so very very sorry you are losing this LO.:bighug: :bighug: :bighug: :bighug: :crying: :flowers:

[beckstar]

i hope you heal quickly...there aren't enough words to use to convey the disappointment that comes from a loss...especially one that has had you up and down so frequently.

so yeah. i hope you heal quickly and that when you do decide to try again, that it is easy as pie and w/o drama.

xo.

becks

[ty&jessie]

Oh, sweetie, I am so very sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself.:hugs:

[nattysmum07]

I am so sorry for your loss, I've been following this thread...I know that pain all too well. HUGS to you!

[smblake]

Oh mama, I'm sure your heart is breaking - I have felt that pain so many times. Time will heal it but take time to grieve. There aren't words that make it feel better right now, I just wanted to offer my care and support, if you ever need to talk, feel free to pm me. :hugs:

[mhr1406]

I am so very sorry :hugs:

[trying4more]

Thanks Mamas!

I had a good talk with the doc lastnight!
She was really awesome! Very sensitive to my needs and emotions. Held my hand when I started crying! Very awesome doc!

I talked to her about TTC again. She said to go ahead and do it when I want. That my body will begin ovulating again when my body is ready! And that this m/c won't affect my future pregnancies!

I'm going to try a job switch! My job is super stressful. Will go back to school next semester to finish up some pre-nursing classes, but then try to go for phlebotomy or something like that!

[mevans]

i'm so glad you had a compassionate dr, that really makes a difference :hugs:

[McMamma38]

i'm so glad you had a compassionate dr, that really makes a difference :hugs:

Yes it really does! Mine was super when I lost both of my babies--he held my hand while I cried and both before the labor induction w/Gracie and afterward he held me in a huge hug and sat with me a long time afterwards.LOVE my OB--Dh was very impressed as well.

I wish you all the luck and Godspeed on your recovery and ttc efforts when your ready.
Heads up--both my Ob and the nurse at his practice told me that a woman can be very fertile right after a early loss due to the higher cerculating hormones or something.I concieved our Dd Sarah 4 months after my early loss at 8 weeks.
With Gracie's birth and ttc afterward--it's been a long frustarting struggle.I think because my milk came in after her birth and being midway through the pregnancy when I birthed/lost her--I was messed up ttc wise.:headscratch:
My LaLeche Leader (or one of them)is a birth doula who attends homebirths w/ a midwife here locally said That I needed time to heal after Gracie's birth-that I should treat it as if I went full term--that it could take a yr.before I got pregnant again.Not sure--but we're still ttc 13 months later.

Hugs again.:hugs: :thumbsup:

[trying4more]

I'm waiting for my body to regulate itself. We will be avoiding, using condoms if I ever feel like DTD again.
I want to wait until at least next jan or so.

I stopped bleeding lastnight. Nothing today so far.
Waiting for this thing to finish itself!

[tryin]

So sorry you are going through this.

Feel free to PM me If you EVER need to let it out (I know I'm a stranger). Sometimes it's hard for even our loved ones to listen or understand.

[monstersmom]

i am soooo sorry... We went through this not to long ago... some thing went in for the u/s and nothing was there... it is so hard to hear that...

[jessie327]

My heart aches for your loss :hugs:

[trying4more]

Today I'm just in a state of confusion!
I'm not bleeding anymore, but cramping! I always feel "wet" so I run to the bathroom, but there is nothing but creamy CM. Most of my bleeding is EWCM-ish looking bloody stuff!

I have no idea how long this will take! I just want my body back! I want this to be all over!

How long does this usually take!
I'm bleeding off and on. One day of no bleeding, then I bleed the next! Does my HcG have to be all the way down before I start having periods again?

Where is my definte answer???

[monstersmom]

i will just tell you that with both of my recent losses i bled for like 4 days in that wierd on and off pattern that was the first then the second. I had on huge gush with a very large clot (i was 11 weeks) followed by heavy bleeding for the rest of that night and a lot of pelvic cramping and soarness... then about 4 more days of on off bleeding then about 2 weeks later i got my period... hope that helps... if you need someone to talk to let me know i have been through this 3 times.

[trying4more]

Thanks!
My m/w called me (I swear, I LOVE that birth center) and she was very sensitive to all 1,548,596,102 questions I had. She said that most women just have a heavy period, but ooohhh..I'm FAR from most women. So I fall into the category of the percentage of women who spot on and off for a few weeks, or just a few days!

No bleeding today. I swear, I think part of me is trying to O. I'm having O pains and VERY EWCM. My sex drive is even thriving.
The other night I dreamed of S.O. and I joining the *MILE HIGH CLUB* :blush:

So it's either crazy pregnancy hormones and crazy dreams, or just my body is out of wack!

[burgler]

I just had a miscarriage with our first and found this thread. Having read through your whole roller coaster I just wanted to say I'm sorry.