I found out I was pregnant very happy even bought something off FSOT for the new baby,starting preparing to move to a bigger house and getting our house ready in case we didn't sell before baby comes, looked up things I want to buy for the new baby so I'd have a budget of how much everything will be (as I have nothing for this baby sold/donated everything) and I started spotting Wed Thurs it was a lot more and today I'm going to the hospital to see that I lost my baby. And I've been sitting here crying since thurs about this and all my DH has to say at least we didn't know the sex...well that doesn't make me feel any better. So next week when I get my fluffy mail in I'll be crying again wishing I had someone to look forward to wearing it. My midwife says I might have been having twins again and might just be losing one of the babies again (which happened with DS#2) she is just trying to make me feel better I think. I hate drs I hate hospitals and most of all I hate to lose a child. And when I get back from the hospital with the bad news I will want to go out and drink til I'm stupid since thats one of the only ways I know to cope with cr@p...we also have shopping but who do I have to shop for now and remodeling/rearranging the house which my DH hates me doing because I always kill myself trying to make everything "prefect".
How does everyone else deal with this maybe it might help me find a better way. I'm really not good at the crying thing and try to suppress my emotions (of sadness and pain). I just wish I hadn't told anybody I was pregnant.
trying4more
08-29-2008, 08:26 PM
It's **HARD**
SO keeps telling me how much he is there for me, how much he loves me...ya, ya, ya!!! It's hard to hear it when they don't know!
I just lost my baby 3wks ago. It's the hardest, most painful thing I've had to go through! I can't believe the pain!
I want to TTC ASAP, but he wants to wait, which hurts more. I love that baby, I will never replace that baby, but I really want another child to love and hold!
MatildasMum
08-29-2008, 08:28 PM
:hugs:
McMamma38
08-29-2008, 08:29 PM
Huge hug mama!
Emily Whited
08-29-2008, 08:37 PM
I am so sorry.
ForCryingOutLoud
08-29-2008, 08:44 PM
:hugs:
Mommi3130
08-29-2008, 08:46 PM
:hugs:
beckstar
08-30-2008, 12:55 AM
doe,
bleeding in early pregnancy doesn't definitely mean you will lose the baby...what happened at the hospital?
Jenney17
08-30-2008, 01:15 AM
Oh Mama.....I am so sad for you. :hugs: :hugs: :hugs:
Please let us know how you are doing when you feel up to it. :hugs:
NaturalMomof2
08-30-2008, 01:40 AM
:hugs:
yarngoddess
08-30-2008, 05:27 AM
So sorry for you... sending you vibes of love and support. HUGS momma. :(
midominga
08-30-2008, 07:43 PM
UPDATE:
They did blood work and an u/s (a normal one and a vaginal one) and a pelvic..so not fun. They couldn't find the baby so they said it most likely was a miscarriage. Blood work was lower than it should have been (level wise). Said I have to come back in Tues for a follow up blood test and another u/s only if the level is higher because than I need to do a DNC (?no idea what it is?) because it would be a tubal pregnancy and not a m/c. I really hate hospitals, I'm scared to death of needles. I was a PITA for that guy trying to take my blood than DH showed up and I got my blood taken, he calmed me down. Of course I had to wait an extra hour because they screwed up on the lab work. So I think I'd rather it be a m/c than a tubal so at least there is a plus side I guess. I'm trying very hard to cheer myself up. At least DH says we can try as soon as the dr says we are clear. The nurse as we were leaving told us to not have sex for a while but I don't know what a while is I guess we will find out on Tuesday. Today we rearranged my house tomorrow is cleaning and painting and Monday I'm getting a couch from a friend and going to a labor day party and having a couple drinks(yes with alcohol) So hopefully it will keep my mind busy for now.
When something bad happens in my life my furniture must be rearranged completely different than what it was to avoid those feeling along with painting the walls. If my house is completely different than I am completely different and maybe that won't happen to me again (I know most will think I'm nut but it helps me get by)
Jem*Jam Customs
08-30-2008, 07:45 PM
hugs and prayers hun!!
beckstar
08-30-2008, 08:04 PM
UPDATE:
They did blood work and an u/s (a normal one and a vaginal one) and a pelvic..so not fun. They couldn't find the baby so they said it most likely was a miscarriage. Blood work was lower than it should have been (level wise). Said I have to come back in Tues for a follow up blood test and another u/s only if the level is higher because than I need to do a DNC (?no idea what it is?) because it would be a tubal pregnancy and not a m/c. I really hate hospitals, I'm scared to death of needles. I was a PITA for that guy trying to take my blood than DH showed up and I got my blood taken, he calmed me down. Of course I had to wait an extra hour because they screwed up on the lab work. So I think I'd rather it be a m/c than a tubal so at least there is a plus side I guess. I'm trying very hard to cheer myself up. At least DH says we can try as soon as the dr says we are clear. The nurse as we were leaving told us to not have sex for a while but I don't know what a while is I guess we will find out on Tuesday. Today we rearranged my house tomorrow is cleaning and painting and Monday I'm getting a couch from a friend and going to a labor day party and having a couple drinks(yes with alcohol) So hopefully it will keep my mind busy for now.
When something bad happens in my life my furniture must be rearranged completely different than what it was to avoid those feeling along with painting the walls. If my house is completely different than I am completely different and maybe that won't happen to me again (I know most will think I'm nut but it helps me get by)
what were your levels? if you're not even 5 wks...you cant see anything on u/s...not until 6 wks, usually...are you still bleeding?
mbreen616
08-30-2008, 08:16 PM
I am so sorry for your loss :hugs: I understand the wanting to move the furniture and paint to move forward and hope things will be different next time. I have had 3 m/c and every pg it is always a concern that I will be there again. I guess we all deal with pain differently, but I definitely feel your pain. A DNC is a 15 minute procedure in which you will be put to sleep and they can get rid of everything (I know it is hard to deal with) I found that I felt better once I had this procedure because it gave me some closure and I was able to move forward.
I got pg with my son 3 months later.
Good Luck :hugs:
Jordan
08-30-2008, 10:31 PM
:hugs: mama
mom2hancj
09-01-2008, 01:58 PM
:hugs: mama.
Nikkis_Little_Ladies
10-07-2008, 05:02 PM
:hugs:
~mypreciousbabies~
10-14-2008, 10:10 AM
I'm so sorry momma! I have had three m/c this year (all early 3.28,7.31, 9.3,) but they still hurt
My dh tells me that maybe my body isn't ready for another one yet since our 2 kids were so close together (16.5 months apart) I know it sucks, but Someday i may have another lil bean
