We will have been trying for a year in February, have done two cycles of Clomid, and had a m/c in August. DH and I made an appointment with a fertility specialist for next week :( This TTC business is so hard and every month I get so anxious whether or not AF will come. What is even harder right now is we have some of DH's friends visiting and the wife is pregnant and her due date is a week after mine would have been had I not had a m/c. (it's not that I'm not happy for them, because I really am and they are going to be such awesome parents, but every time I see her I think about how I should have a little growing belly too). Sigh, thanks for letting me come in here and get this off my chest a bit. I haven't told DH's friend about everything we are going through right now since she has been quizzing me about pregnancy and babies and I really don't want to make her feel bad about it. Please feel free if anyone else needs to vent back here, it always seemed to me that TTC struggles and m/c happened to other people, not DH and I, and I never realized the pain and how hard it is until I've actually experienced it.
Navy_Wife4
01-07-2009, 09:06 PM
:hugs: vent away, we all know how it feels
jennybeth
01-08-2009, 04:54 AM
I'm sorry. I know how hard it is. I used to work with a girl who started TTC two months after I did. She now has a 4 month old son. She no longer works with me but she stops by every once in a while to show all the co-workers her son, and I can't even go up to see him because last time I cried when I saw him.
earthmamatobe
01-08-2009, 06:01 AM
I understand totally how you feel!! (((HUGS)))
Blueblankielover
01-08-2009, 01:24 PM
I had this same problem with a sister, I got pregnant two months before she did and lost it, then I got pregnant again several months later and lost it. So it was really hard for me to watch her grow, get ready for her fifth baby, and then having to have a happy face while I held her new baby. I have been really distant with them lately and I just am having a hard time with it. I just lost another baby in November, and they baptized there baby and had the whole family there. That was only a few days after my miscarriage and we hadn't told anyone we were pregnant this time and hadn't told anyone about this miscarriage yet. At the celebration afterward I always get questions, like when is the next one coming, don't you want anymore? Those stupid questions kill me inside. I have gotten really good at just smiling and ignoring those but they hurt later! I don't feel that I need to explain myself to everyone in the world. Holding that baby made me think that I should have been me, two month prior! And that it isn't fair! So pity party for me! This does make me feel a little better. I am think positive thoughts for 2009! This is our year!
