Journey to Conception June 14 - June 21

[babylove921]

TTC is not always an easy journey. And, many times, people facing this journey do not receive the love and support they need to go through it. Now, we have a special place of our own where we can share our frustrations, laughs, and sadness without holding back.
Please, feel free to take a few minutes to introduce yourselves either for the first time, or again.
Please, read the sticky posted in this forum before posting in this thread. I think that sticky has some great guidelines to posting in this board.Also, please refrain from talking about children, as this is a sensitive topic here. We are all here for the same reason, and have to remember each other's feelings through this tough time.

Name: Katie/yesterdayicried
Cycle Info: 28-33 days long, O anywhere from CD14-CD21
TTC Info: Got pregnant very first try with DD who is still nursing at two (have had AF regularly since she was 3 months old). We are on 15 months trying to get pregnant with number two. Had blood work done that came back normal. Currently trying one round of 50mg Clomid (that I bought from Mexico, didn't get from a Dr.). After this cycle we might be TAB for a while, we're getting tired. Saved to pay for an appointment to see a RE (I don't have health insurance) and then my DD broke her leg and I started having major anxiety problems and spent all my RE money on other doctors for me and DD.

Name: Laylaeomommy
Cycle Info: 25 to 28 days
TTC Info: on 11th cycle with two chemical pregnancies
Fertility Procedure/Info: Appointment to start testing 7/2/09. I have one kidney, 1 ovary, 1 tube, 1/2 sideways heart shaped uterus all on my right side. The left side has nothing.

Name: littlepanda
Cycle Info: 28 days and regular.
TTC Info: This is our 12th cycle of TTC #1, and we went to the doctor this month for tests. AF is due on 6/15, so we'll see if this cycle was a success or not.
Fertility Procedure/Info: My tests revealed no problems. The doctor put me on 50 mg Clomid for this month, to see how things go. I apparently ovulated two eggs this month. DH's sperm analysis showed that his sperm count is high and his morphology is normal. However, his motility is really bad. I didn't quite understand the rating system for motility, but I think the doctor said he had 0% A grade (fast-moving) sperm, 5% B grade, 35% C grade, and 60% D grade.

Name: Aimee (Aimers1)
Cycle Info: cd1
TTC Info: cycle 18 in 16 months of trying for our first
Fertility Procedure/Info: On month four of using cbem, referral for RE has been approved! Our first appointment is June 23rd.

Name: katedanzer/Sarah
Cycle Info: 27 days My chart
TTC Info: 20 months and counting for #4
Fertility Procedure/Info: We went through infertility testing when TTC E. It took us 13 months & 2 m/c before we got our sticky bean. We got pregnant our HSG cycle, all infertility tests came back normal. This venture, I held off going in b/c I knew there was nothing "wrong" with DH or me. Went to my ob in Jan, found out our new insurance covers nothing So paid out of pocket for bw & ultrasounds to tell me that I am ovulating regularly on cd14. 7 dpo progesterone was on the lower side (11), so ob put me on clomid for 6 months to try. We're still waiting on cycle 2 results (10 dpo & bfn today), just not too optimistic

Name: mbreen616/Megan
Cycle Info: cd 22 (taking break this cycle after hysteroscopy)
TTC Info: TTC#3 since August 2008. Recent m/c @ 5 weeks 1/29/09, Chemical pg February, M/C 9/05 @9 weeks, M/C 1/02 @ 5 weeks, M/C 6/97 @6 weeks
Fertility Procedures/Info: Seeing an RE had blood work done, awaiting results. Hysteroscopy 3/09 awaiting results (removed adhesions) other than that vitamin b-6 complex, prenatal, and good old exercise.

Name: bluechicken
Cycle Info: 37 days
TTC Info: 2 years, with lots of practice but no results
Fertility Procedure/Info: May '09 - 1st round of clomid and IUI. BFN. June '09 - Second round of clomid and IUI started.

Name: DaisyWalker
Cycle Info: Haven't had a cycle in months
TTC Info: TTC #1 since May 2008
Fertility Procedures/Info: Recently diagnosed with PCOS and started Metformin a couple of weeks ago. Along with diet & exercise, hoping that's enough to get things going

Name: Jenny
Cycle Info: TAB until IVF ICSI in July/August 2009
TTC Info: TTC #1 since August 2007. Have endometriosis, narrow right tube, blocked tubes (now clear until the endo grows back),late O, shortish LP, PCOS. Dh's sperm motility is on the low side of normal.
Fertility Procedures: Lap and HSG to clear tubes and endo..

Name: Navy_Wife4/April
Cycle Info: CD 31... not currently trying though
TTC Info: 15th month of TTC our first
Fertility Procedures/Info: 2 IUI's w/ Clomid and Trigger shot.. both BFN's.. waiting for Spring to do our first IVF w/ ICSI.. we're dealing with male factor infertility

Name: trying4more/Ariana
Cycle Info: CD 39
TTC Info: Problems are lack of ovulation, TTC w/one fallopian tube. Ectopic pregnany.
Fertility Procedures/Info: none medical right now. Using Moon next cycle. Clomid if not pg by Jan. (maybe)

Name: McMamma38/Charlotte
TTC Info: Ds Jim 4-23-94,m/c at 8 weeks--May'04,Dd Sarah 6-07-05,Dd Megan Grace(Gracie)born to heaven on 6-5-07 in my 18th week due to NTD Anencephaly,and recent m/c on 11-13-08 in my 6th week(suspect my baby died in my 5th week when the spotting began.)TTC seems like forever--no birth control used in our whole 18.5 yrs.marriage.
Fertility Procedures/Info: Definitly have insulin resistant PCOS(dx 2004),low thyrod(dx 2004),type 2 diabetes(dx 12-2000).On 2,000 mg Metformin,30 mg Actos,150 mcg Synthroid,Humulin insulin at bedtime,prenatals,an Rx folic acid(4 gram a day),daily baby aspirin,omega 3's,B complex,Vit C.,Vit E,Zinc and natural supplements for PCOS/ovulation-- d-Pinitol,NAC and Inositol 5(half bottle left of all left--I'd been stopping these once I od--since it was so pricey )
Add in that I'm doing Soy cd#3-7(220mg),we've been married 19 yrs now that we had our anniversary and I m/c another tiny bean(5-15-09)--I passed a tiny placenta late last night.

Name:Kim (heluvsme)
Cycle Info: CD 9 of 1st cycle after m/c
TTC Info: TAB after 4th consecutive loss
Fertility Procedure/Info: All bloodwork came back negative. Waiting til 3rd cycle to check progesterone levels for 3 consecutive days. Hopefully will resume TTC after that!

Name: Averysmom/Delana
Cycle Info: 11dpo
TTC Info: TTC#3 since Aug. 07. M/C in Nov. 07 PCOS DX in July 08. Chemical Jan. 09
Fertility Procedures/Info: Taking natural supplements, B-complex, fish oils, vitex, D-pinitol 600, prenatal. Waiting on AF then I'm using my OV watch.

Name: CalebsMom/Erin
Cycle Info: 23 dpo according to OV Watch, apparently not though!
TTC Info: TTC since June 2006
Fertility Procedures/Info: Insulin resistant PCOS = 1500 mg of Metformin daily ~ perfect HSG ~ DH's semen analysis moderately abnormal February 2009, numbers are high (28 million) but percentages are low which leads me to believe that he's always been this way all along and that the overall number makes up for low percentages ~ 3 year old DS conceived with no help first month trying ~ lost 60 lbs want to lose more, going forward with minimal stimulation protocol and IUI in September!

Name: findingstrength
Cycle Info:
TTC Info: not the type to name names online, so I have 3 I gave birth to, 3 that went Home before I ever saw them, and 2 that are dh's.
Fertility Procedure/Info: oh, plenty. dh had the V before we met, so we need to have that reversed. that'll take a while. then I have MTHFR and low progestrone. My womb isn't super baby friendly.

Name: Blueblankielover/Josie (Jo)
Cycle Info:
TTC Info: DX with PCOS in December 2003, Finally got pregnant in 2005 and had a healthy baby in may 2006, TTC#2 since December 2006, went a whole year with only three periods, put on birth control on and off to regulate AF, Hormonal treatments to try to stop my AF once it started. Put on Metiformin February 2008. M/C #2 March 2008, M/C #3 May 2008, M/C #4 November 2008. I am now waiting for first AF to start after last m/c. I am starting 1st cycle of clodmin too. Hoping for a 2009 baby!!!
Fertility Procedures/Info: Metiformin, Clodmin.

Name: KTMelody/Katie
Cycle Info:
TTC Info: We are TTC #6.
Fertility Procedures/Info: None yet. We will be using clomid after our January cycle if we cant get pregnant on our own again. I have PCOS. Used 2 clomid rounds to get preg with #2. We have now been trying for 13 cycles and have had 2 m/c and a chemical. We will be trying one more cycle before going on clomid again. I have had short LPs in the past, but I am averaging about 10 days now.

Name: ElizasMommy606/Lanie
Cycle Info:
TTC Info: TTC since Dec 2007
Fertility Procedures: Gave up Hoping good old fashioned lovin will get me somewhere.

Name: birdseye/Laura
Cycle Info:
TTC Info: TTC #1 since March 2007
Fertility Procedures/Info: mild PCOS, stage 1 endometriosis, pelvic adhesions, perfect semen analysis, perfect HSG
1 year of trying on our own
6 cycles of femara (unmonitored)
3 cycles of femara and trigger shot
1 cycle clomid, trigger shot, and IUI
1 cycle follistim, trigger shot, and IUI
current cycle: femara (unmonitored) and ov watch

Name: sweetpeaboutique/Maggie
Cycle Info: CD 14
TTC Info: ttc #3 cycle 66
Fertility procedures/Info: none cause the ob said i was "fine" (my charts look "great", i o, thyroid, estrogen & prog. were all good). dh last sa was 3 years ago... he wont get another cause his doc said unless he walked by a kyptonite plant his boys are still good. i do have a cyst that was dx'd last year to be 4.7 cm on my left ovary... its still there.... This Cycle: target orgin vitamins, lunar fertility chart, natural progestrone after o and my monitor

Name: Mrsdrums1/Megan
Cycle Info: trying since March 2007
TTC Info: M/C in 2007 at 9 weeks, M/C in 2009 at 7 weeks 4 days.
Fertility Procedures/Info: Evening Primrose Oil until Ovulation, Grapefruit juice and timed intercourse(lots), and target origins for women, and Soy at CD 2-5

Name: Melmonkey/ Mel
Cycle Info:
TTC Info: ttc# 1 for over 5 years now.......
Fertility Procedures/Info: 4 years of trying unmedicated, 4 failed cycles with Letrozole and timed intercourse, 2 failed IUI cycles with Clomid and Repronex, onto our third IUI, probably a double IUI with total injictable meds;Gonal-F, Lupron, Repronex, on BCP waiting for next step with Prolactin levels

Name: MileeG/ Milee
Cycle Info: cd 17 (currently on BC - start Lupron shots tomorrow)
TTC Info: TTC for 2 yrs
Fertility Procedures/Info: Every invasive pre-test in the world. (endometrial biopsy, hysterosalpingogram (HSG), blood work to the point that they can barely draw from my right arm because of the scar tissue, Clomid Challege) 2 IUI cycles with clomid and trigger shot, 4 IUI cycles with Follistim and Trigger shot. All BFN's. Now doing IVF cycle.

Name: Peanutbuttersmommy/Robyn
Cycle Info:
TTC Info: TTC #2 since Sept. 2007, 1 m/c @ 9 wks. (3/2008), 1 chemical pg. (11/2008)
Fertility Procedures/Info: none from a Dr.'s perspective, but I am taking Vitex and b6 and using progesterone cream post-O. Hoping for a specialist referral in Jan. 2009.

Name: MommaMcCord/Tammi
Cycle Info: CD 23, 8 dpo
TTC Info: Trying since 9/08; m/c 11/04, PT labor @ 23 weeks 9/98
Fertility Procedures/Info: Currently taking Femara on CD 3-7. Previously tried Clomid & Estrogen.

Name: rachaeljohnson/Rachael
Cycle Info: 38-45 daysish...
TTC Info: 10months...1 loss due to partial molar pregnancy
Fertility/Procedures: PCOS, very irregular light periods, and a 5cm fibroid that I have an MRI on July 17th to get a better look at and discuss treatment options (if any). Had d&c Wed. the 20th of May for partial molar miscarriage...hcg was 137,000 down to 163 as of June 10th...have to follow to zero and has to stay at zero for 3 weeks in a row, then monthly tests. Took clomid 50mg days 2-6 for miscarriage, and will again. Told can't try until 3 months from negative...but will stop not trying after my MRI if my numbers are negative soon...will resume clomid in Aug/Sep if not pregnant.
JTC GRADS

Name: jacquelinemarie82
Cycle Info: 28 days, very regular
TTC Info: off bc for about 4 years, hoping for 1 year and actively trying for 3 years
Fertility Procedure/Info: Lots of testing for dh and me! This month was my first round of Clomid and IUI. (see siggy for the whole story....and I mean every detail!)
***Doc recommends at least 2 and at most 4 rounds of IUI then off to IVF w/ ICSI. Working to overcome dh's sperm issues.....low count, motility, morphology. Nothing specifically wrong with either of us.

Name: Katina128/Katina
Cycle Info: cd7, waiting to O
TTC Info: TTC 22 months for #3

Name: earthmamatobe/Leslie 37
Cycle Info: CD 2
TTC Info: 2 + years , 1 CP (MCs but not in the last 2 years)
Fertility Procedures/Info: No medical yet but see RE next month who wants to start "aggressive treatment" (So far "nothing " is wrong)
Blog: http://earthmamatobe-journeytoparenthood.blogspot.com/

Name:StaceyS/Stacey
Cycle Info: 6dpo
TTC Info: TTC #7 ...this is cycle number 10
Fertility Procedures/Info: Just taking Target origins and temping when I feel like it but DEFINITELY only until O.
EDD: 11-1-09

Name: ty&jessie/Michelle
Cycle Info: CD 22
TTC Info: Ds Tyler 6/16/04 after trying for 5 years, m/c @ 7 weeks--12/31/05 , Dd Jessie 12/23/06, m/c @ 12 weeks 3/13/08 ended in a d&c, m/c @ 8 weeks 9/15/08. TTC seems like forever--no birth control used in our whole 15 yrs. together.
Fertility Procedures/Info: insulin resistant PCOS(dx 2008), Short LP, Clomid 100mg, Prometrium 400mg, prenatals,Vit. C, Origins repo. health.

Name: Name: ~mypreciousbabies~/Kirsten
Cycle Info:No updates, NTNP,
TTC Info: TTC #3 since august 1, 2007 Indefinately Not TTC, just NTNP. 3 chemicals in '08
Fertility Procedures/Info: Just testing for FSH, LH Thyroid
EDD:10-31-09

Name: Crystalannski/Crystal
TTC Info: TTC 18 months
Fertility Procedures: DH has a vasectomy reversal. I tried Clomid 1 cycle but didn't like it so decided to go the herbs and acupuncture route.
Conceived: Decided to take a month off to change my diet and lose some weight in preparation for the acupuncture but ended up with a BFP instead!
EDD: October 17th, 2009

Name: MamaRatliff/Nicole
TTC Info:
Fertility Procedures: Hysteroscopy Dec 4'th, recurring m/c blood work to be done next week, already on ba, folic acid, b6, b12, trying soy this cycle, and the recurring m/c bloodwork is mostly in. Found out that I have factor V and now I'm waiting to see a hematologist, and an RE.
Due Date: 9-10-09

Name:Kristinc/Kristin
TTC Info: Sucess with IVF#2. First ultrasound on Jan 2nd.
Fertility Procedures:everything under the sun....b/w, US, genetic testing, HSG, DH ddx-CBAVD d/t carrying the CF gene, My ddx-high FSH/poor responder/poor egg quality
Due Date:

Name: MsMamabear/Melissa or Meli
TTC Info: TTC since June of '08, Chemical in November.
Fertility Procedures: None as of yet, will be going to the dr early next year for tests if no BFP before then.
Due Date: ???

Name: Julie Beth/Julie
TTC Info: TTC 1 year
Fertility Procedures: Clomid, charting BBT, tracking CM and CP.
Conceived: 1st round Clomid, 100 mg CD 5-9
Due Date: Aug 5th, 2009

Name: SMBlake/ Melissa
age- 25, dh-28, ds-2.5, baby- 17 weeks
TTC Info: Missed m/c at 12 weeks (lo only made it to 9) May 05, m/c at 6 weeks Aug 08, ds June 06, m/c at 6 weeks May 07, m/c at 7.5 weeks July 07, m/c at 6 weeks Jan 08,
Due Date: April 09 (used clomid and IUI to boost chances and promote healthy ovulation

[babylove921]

If you ladies don't mind, I wouldn't mind doing the weekly JTC posts.

[rachaeljohnson]

that would be great megan! :)

I had posted a whole bunch of persies and they are MIA...hmmm...oh well...basically the insensitive/heartless IVF thread got me fired up...maybe what i said was removed...ha ha.

AF is here in full force, i called my OB to make sure that's what it was and that i had no reason to worry and she said yes and that it will probably give me a good number drop this week (please oh please). So i guess i am back to charting...so at least i am doing something.

Update me please...

Name: rachaeljohnson/Rachael
Cycle Info: 38-45 daysish...
TTC Info: 10months...1 loss due to partial molar pregnancy
Fertility/Procedures: PCOS, very irregular light periods, and a 5cm fibroid that I have an MRI on July 17th to get a better look at and discuss treatment options (if any). Had d&c Wed. the 20th of May for partial molar miscarriage...hcg was 137,000 down to 163 as of June 10th...have to follow to zero and has to stay at zero for 3 weeks in a row, then monthly tests. Took clomid 50mg days 2-6 for miscarriage, and will again. Told can't try until 3 months from negative...but will stop not trying after my MRI if my numbers are negative soon...will resume clomid in Aug/Sep if not pregnant.

[Aimers1]

Name: Aimee (Aimers1)
Cycle Info: cd1
TTC Info: cycle 18 in 16 months of trying for our first
Fertility Procedure/Info: On month four of using cbem, referral for RE has been approved! Our first appointment is June 23rd.

So, I believe that af will be here in full force tomorrow. I have some spotting this afternoon. No surprise. I'm glad that we have an appointment coming up, I just wish that it was this week instead of next week. Another cycle gonig down the drain...

[Melmonkey]

I am here, thanks for starting the week Megan!

[rachaeljohnson]

Aimee-bummer aimee...excited about your appt. though, hopefully they can give you some answers and a game plan!!

[yesterdayicried]

I guess you can add me, too please.

Name: Katie/yesterdayicried
Cycle Info: 28-33 days long, O anywhere from CD14-CD21
TTC Info: Got pregnant very first try with DD who is still nursing at two (have had AF regularly since she was 3 months old). We are on 15 months trying to get pregnant with number two. Had blood work done that came back normal. Currently trying one round of 50mg Clomid (that I bought from Mexico, didn't get from a Dr.). After this cycle we might be TAB for a while, we're getting tired. Saved to pay for an appointment to see a RE (I don't have health insurance) and then my DD broke her leg and I started having major anxiety problems and spent all my RE money on other doctors for me and DD.

Thanks for adding me in!Rachael, glad your numbers are coming down.

[babylove921]

Welcome there Katie. I love being here, its so much more a family of sisters and we comfort one another and well, these ladies are more friends and family then my own family.
Hope you can get pregnant soon.

[MommaMcCord]

I'm here, too.

Please update:

CD 32 after miscarriage; 13 dpo.

[heluvsme]

Name:Kim (heluvsme)
Cycle Info: CD 4
TTC Info: 7 m/c's in the past 3 years
Fertility Procedure/Info: All bloodwork came back negative. We were going to get my progesterone levels checked on the 3rd cycle after my m/c, but I conceived and m/c'd again. We were TAB but decided to just put it back in God's hands and leave it there. I'm so done trying to fix it.

[Melmonkey]

Welcome Katie!

[averysmom]

Girls, I'm so sorry that I didn't pass the list on and/or get it up today. We have been so busy and I'm sooooo tired. Thank you Megan. I'm still really nervous, and probably will be till I have a sono. I'm praying for the best. Thank you ladies for all your support over these last several months. I will be popping in everyday to check on you ladies.

[birdseye]

Hi mamas. I just wanted to let you all know that this post is great!! It is posted on the thread about IF treatments being covered by insurance. The link only goes to the post, so the thread is not there in case you don't want to read the other posts. The very last part made me cry when I read it to DH...

http://www.diaperswappers.com/forum/showpost.php?p=7566373&postcount=73

[littlepanda]

Well, this is strange. AF was supposed to make an appearance this morning but she's still not here. :headscratch: Hope I don't have one of those odd 32-day cycles again (I had one about six months ago, BFN of course). If AF is going to come she'd better not waste any time. :yuck:

[Melmonkey]

Hey there my strong friends!

The IF thread has got me thinking, and maybe me being up at 5 am has me a bit wired......
Why would someone who has never experienced Infertility think that they know everything about it? Do these people know all about Juvenile Diabetes.....I know, it is throw out there, but sreiously, do they, have they any experience with JD? Maybe we need to stop covering the people who smoked all their lives and now have COPD or Lung Cancer, or maybe we need to stop covering the alcoholic who has liver disease or liver cancer....for you know what....they knew what they were doing to their bodies could harm them, they knew that someday they could be told they have cancer? Should be tell them.....well, you don't deserve to have your life because you mistreated yourself, this is God's way of punishing you?
I find it hard to beleive in this God that said people talk about, the one who is punishing all of us because we have infertility. The God that I know and love, that I pray to daily to take this hurt away and bless us with a precious miracle in my womb is not a God who punishes.........He is a God of Love and does not want a single one of his children to suffer, He does not want to hear our cries, see our tears, all He wants is to take away the hurt. I know that there is a time for everything and that our time is coming, our time to hold a precious child in our arms.
If God did not want our quests for children to be fulfilled, would He not have given the doctors wisdom to create fertility drugs, would He not have given them the knowledge to diagnose infertility?

[rachaeljohnson]

katie-sorry you are here...but hope your stay is short. I know you are frustrated...hang in there!!!

[CalebsMome]

Hey there my strong friends!

The IF thread has got me thinking, and maybe me being up at 5 am has me a bit wired......
Why would someone who has never experienced Infertility think that they know everything about it? Do these people know all about Juvenile Diabetes.....I know, it is throw out there, but sreiously, do they, have they any experience with JD? Maybe we need to stop covering the people who smoked all their lives and now have COPD or Lung Cancer, or maybe we need to stop covering the alcoholic who has liver disease or liver cancer....for you know what....they knew what they were doing to their bodies could harm them, they knew that someday they could be told they have cancer? Should be tell them.....well, you don't deserve to have your life because you mistreated yourself, this is God's way of punishing you?
I find it hard to beleive in this God that said people talk about, the one who is punishing all of us because we have infertility. The God that I know and love, that I pray to daily to take this hurt away and bless us with a precious miracle in my womb is not a God who punishes.........He is a God of Love and does not want a single one of his children to suffer, He does not want to hear our cries, see our tears, all He wants is to take away the hurt. I know that there is a time for everything and that our time is coming, our time to hold a precious child in our arms.
If God did not want our quests for children to be fulfilled, would He not have given the doctors wisdom to create fertility drugs, would He not have given them the knowledge to diagnose infertility?

Mel, I so totally agree. If they only knew the journey I have been through, many of us, with God and understanding his nature in the light of infertility.

[Melmonkey]

Girls,
Did you all see the thread in the TTC boards that a comment I made got called out on.....well, Crystalanski came to my rescue, she had my back.......JTC ladies are the bomb.....if you wanna know more, just pm me and I will tell you all about said post:giggle:

[bluechicken]

I guess you can add me, too please.

Name: Katie/yesterdayicried



Welcome Katie. Hope you enjoy your stay and it is a short one. (Not trying to push you out the door or anything. :goodvibes: )

Girls, I'm so sorry that I didn't pass the list on and/or get it up today. We have been so busy and I'm sooooo tired. Thank you Megan. I'm still really nervous, and probably will be till I have a sono. I'm praying for the best. Thank you ladies for all your support over these last several months. I will be popping in everyday to check on you ladies.

Hope everything continues to go well. :crossfingers:

Hi mamas. I just wanted to let you all know that this post is great!! It is posted on the thread about IF treatments being covered by insurance. The link only goes to the post, so the thread is not there in case you don't want to read the other posts. The very last part made me cry when I read it to DH...

http://www.diaperswappers.com/forum/showpost.php?p=7566373&postcount=73


Thanks for the compliment. It only took me the whole book to figure out what I was really trying to say. :giggle2: I've been reading some since yesterday, but can't read too much because I just get mad. You know, I feel bad for how I thought before we joined the 'infertile' group. How could I have been so ignorant? :banghead: Now I understand that I don't always understand what others are going through. So therefore I shouldn't be the one to make decisions for them.

I'm now in the TWW; today is 4dpo I believe. Thursday is the progesterone test. But first, we have a visit from the private foster care agency. She is stopping by tomorrow (tuesday) to have a quick visit with DH and I to give us an application, see the house, etc. Well, at least it is keeping me from thinking about being in the TWW. :thumbsup: It has also motivated me to pick up the remaining hot spots (flylady term) around the house, which has then improved my mood as I don't like clutter. The two (mood/clutter) are very related in my case. I keep looking around going, "This house is so not kid proof." :giggle2: Realized that again this morning when I had to clean out the cabinet under the sink, which meant removing all the cleaning bottles, due to the pipe seperating and my dish water spilling out. Oh the fun! :lostit: I've been meaning to wipe that cabinet down anyway; just didn't think today would be the day.

Hope you all have a great Monday.

[katedanzer]

Hey gals,
A ? for those not full ATTS addicts :giggle: I've been trying to seriously cut back on my TTC spending. So I bought one pack of FRER that I tested BFN's on all 9-10 dpo. I have always had really early BFP, so I figured I was out. I still doubt that I'm pregnant, but that teeny voice in the back of my head says maybe. 13 DPO and AF has not shown yet. I either start spotting on 12 or 13 dpo. All I have are cheapie OPK's, and I broke down and tested last night and this morning with those. They are getting darker, but not positive. Maybe I should go buy just one more test? I only want to buy one if I know it's going to be BFP :nervous:

[Melmonkey]

Hey gals,
A ? for those not full ATTS addicts :giggle: I've been trying to seriously cut back on my TTC spending. So I bought one pack of FRER that I tested BFN's on all 9-10 dpo. I have always had really early BFP, so I figured I was out. I still doubt that I'm pregnant, but that teeny voice in the back of my head says maybe. 13 DPO and AF has not shown yet. I either start spotting on 12 or 13 dpo. All I have are cheapie OPK's, and I broke down and tested last night and this morning with those. They are getting darker, but not positive. Maybe I should go buy just one more test? I only want to buy one if I know it's going to be BFP :nervous:

I am the anti-POAS gal....I do not pee on any sticks at all, for one, I get far too upset when I see the glaring...BFN. Two it is a waste of money to POAS that is negative.......So if you want to cut back on the spending, I say wait until the witch is really late and then try to POAS again.....and by late, I mean really late, like almost a week late

[bluechicken]

Hey gals,
A ? for those not full ATTS addicts :giggle: I've been trying to seriously cut back on my TTC spending. So I bought one pack of FRER that I tested BFN's on all 9-10 dpo. I have always had really early BFP, so I figured I was out. I still doubt that I'm pregnant, but that teeny voice in the back of my head says maybe. 13 DPO and AF has not shown yet. I either start spotting on 12 or 13 dpo. All I have are cheapie OPK's, and I broke down and tested last night and this morning with those. They are getting darker, but not positive. Maybe I should go buy just one more test? I only want to buy one if I know it's going to be BFP :nervous:

If you are really trying to cut back ... I wouldn't buy anymore until several days after AF is supposed to show. I actually don't buy any till that point. That way I don't spend lots and lots on them for nothing. Part of controling the spending is knowing you only have $X to spend, or Y tests to use. So therefore you must have the self discipline to use what you have wisely, even if that means not testing till later in your cycle or for several days. Otherwise what is the point in limiting your spending? I hope that didn't come across too harsh. :hide: One more thing, if you only want to buy one if you know it's going to be BFP, then you wouldn't really need to buy one because you would already know you were pregnant. Make sense?

ETA: Mel must have posted as I was typing. I'm in the same boat she is. Don't like seeing BFN so I don't test.

[JaylasMommy]

:cry: I just sat and read the IF post that everyone has been talking about... :cry:
I can't even put my thoughts into words, that's how sick I am by it.:yuck:

[babylove921]

Yea Ashley it is pretty sick. I can't believe people are as insensitive as they are. I don't wish harm on anyone but I wish some of them knew what it was to go years without one baby.

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Hey there my strong friends!

The IF thread has got me thinking, and maybe me being up at 5 am has me a bit wired......
Why would someone who has never experienced Infertility think that they know everything about it? Do these people know all about Juvenile Diabetes.....I know, it is throw out there, but sreiously, do they, have they any experience with JD? Maybe we need to stop covering the people who smoked all their lives and now have COPD or Lung Cancer, or maybe we need to stop covering the alcoholic who has liver disease or liver cancer....for you know what....they knew what they were doing to their bodies could harm them, they knew that someday they could be told they have cancer? Should be tell them.....well, you don't deserve to have your life because you mistreated yourself, this is God's way of punishing you?
I find it hard to beleive in this God that said people talk about, the one who is punishing all of us because we have infertility. The God that I know and love, that I pray to daily to take this hurt away and bless us with a precious miracle in my womb is not a God who punishes.........He is a God of Love and does not want a single one of his children to suffer, He does not want to hear our cries, see our tears, all He wants is to take away the hurt. I know that there is a time for everything and that our time is coming, our time to hold a precious child in our arms.
If God did not want our quests for children to be fulfilled, would He not have given the doctors wisdom to create fertility drugs, would He not have given them the knowledge to diagnose infertility?

This is very true. Unfortunately, the poster who posted that we should adopt suffers from IF herself. I was surprised to read that. :blush:

I'm sorry someone called you out. It was uncalled for. None of us with these IF issues would wish it on anyone. Sure, sometimes we feel a little envious or like it's unfair, but we would never wish it on someone else. Rather, we wish we didn't have these issue either. :hugs:

Kate - I agree with the other girls. However, I have a very hard time not testing if AF is officially late. Because I know it will be negative and I can't afford to spend a lot, I always use Dollar Tree tests. That way, I've only wasted a dollar. I, personally, would rather have a negative test than the suspense because my hopes just go up and up. Not fun for me. :thumbsup:

AMF - My cycle is bugging me this month. First of all, I've been crampy for the last few days. It's around O time, but since I don't follow my cycle closely, I'm not totally sure. But, at the same time, I'm actually pretty sure I didn't O this month. :banghead: I'm on CD16 and CM is not what it should be. I have the really deep down feeling that I was pregnant last month even though I didn't get a positive test. I've tried to ignore it and realize that since I didn't get a positive, I wasn't, but I can't help it. I really had some very strong signs but I waited to test. When I did, AF was already 4 days late and it came the next day. Anyway, it's really bothering me. And now, that I think I didn't O this month, it's making me even more suspicious because I think it's common to not O the month after. I really hate that I can't just forget it. Why do I have to obsess? :banghead:

[Melmonkey]

Heather- I hate it when cycles go crazy........GAH!:yuck:

[babylove921]

Hey ladies i'm going for another job interview, in just a little bit, pray for me

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Hey ladies i'm going for another job interview, in just a little bit, pray for me

I just said a quick prayer. Good luck! :thumbsup:

[katedanzer]

I had to take dd into quick care anyhow, so I figured why not take a free test just since we were already at the clinic. Well, only thing that came back positive was dd's strept test :banghead:

ETA- And thanks for the advice ladies. I'm done buying HPT's, only buying a cheap-o pack if AF is at least a week late :o

[rachaeljohnson]

stephanie-yay for 4dpo. Good luck with the foster visit...how nerve racking.

Sarah-i only use expensive tests when i already know the answer...lol. I am sooo cheap with pregnancy tests. I used my first digi with this last one...and it was the happiest moment of my life...even if i only enjoyed the feeling for 2 months...sorry you got a bfn...big hugs.

AFM-feeling good and glad it's summer and the nice weather is distracting me!!! Off for a walk now!

Melissa-wow, that is dedication...i have to use a cheap test by 12dpo...but at least that is like .50...but yes, i hate the stark white of it all...:(

Heather-it is pretty common to not O after a m/c...i just got AF 3 days ago...and i def. didn't o before it. Hope that's not the case with you...big hugs.

Megan-good luck!!!

[McMamma38]

GL w/ the job interview Megan.:thumbsup:

Hi everyone~I wiped this am and saw ewcm.:lostit: Hope it's fertile ewcm and not from dh(we dtd yeterday afternoon,but I got up right away and showered,so I thought most of his stuff would be gone,esp since I didn't notice his "leftovers" last night at all)
Sorry for the tmi.

I feel realy achey in my left ovary still--so it's possible right?!:goodvibes: PLease dear Lord let it be my fertile phase,I dont care that it's been 30 days since my m/c and I haven't had a 1st AF yet.

Peeing on a opk this afternoon,missed my 11:00 am opk test time,so going for a 4:00pm or earlier test.

Finally read the thread you all are talking about~:cry: :banghead: Very sad and discourageing.Also quite maddening--but until a woman has walked in a woman's shoes and experiencing IF or losses,she'll never get it.
Compassion and civility go a long way.

[yesterdayicried]

Thanks for the great welcomes, everyone! I've been getting frustrated with the regular thread and seeing people come and go before even getting to know their screen names... I decided it was about time to move on up here, lol.

In other news, I'm on CD11, four days after Clomid and I have GOBS of EWCM?! :lostit: How nuts is that?! I hardly ever have any CM and almost always have to use Preseed or something of the like any time we dtd, maybe not tonight (which is a good thing because I'm almost out!). Even though I said this was my last cycle TTC for a while I just bought some super cheapy ($18 for 50) OPKs/HPTs from Ebay. I just need to pee on something... Also hoping maybe, just maybe it'll jinx me into pregnancy, lol.
Yay, Charlotte for EWCM!!

ETA: I'm trying to avoid this thread everyone is commenting on... I know it'll just tick me off and I'll probably say something regretable.

[McMamma38]

Katie~:lostit: Yay!!! Sorry I forgot to welcome you.:blush: Welcome girl!
Happy to have you on here w/ us.

What dose of Clomid did you do? Is it the 50mg? That's the dose my Ob said he'd call in for me if my next A1C test at the diabetes center is 6%(it's a blood test thast measure's one's average blood sugars for a 2-3 month period of time)
My Endocrinologist and my Ob consult each other re me all the time,since I'm diabetic and TTC w/ diabetes and once pg,it's a diabetic pregnancy from the begining.

In the meantime I moniter at home and am haveing awesome blood sugars since my m/c 1 month ago.So I'm confident to be TTC even now---feeling really achey now.It has to be my fertile phase.BBs are hurting to.
Hope dh is ready.:giggle:
I'm definitly bd once my opk go BFP and I like to bd the day before they go bfp(since they look soo close).So it's usually 3 days in a row that we bd if it all goes well and dh isn't sick or hurt from work(he works a very physical job in a warehouse/it gets tough in the summer w/ the heat here)
GL catching the egg.

[babylove921]

Interview went really, great, really want that job.

AFM and my journey to get knocked up..lol did my first dose of Soy last night, decided to go with 200mg..wow, no problems with it, and I'm taking EPO too.. hoping this month I catch this darn elusive egg.

[McMamma38]

I hope you do too Megan.
I'm glad you decided to bump up your Soy dose~It worked well for me in April.My Soy from Walgreens is in 55 mg capsules-so I ended up at 220mg when I took 4 capsules a day on cd#3-7.Are you doing 3-7?
Hope your dh is extra horny too!:thumbsup: :giggle:
I always get worried mine will be in a funk and be grumbling about dtd once my opks are bfp.:giggle: He's been known to do that.:banghead: Other times he'll surprise me by being soo ready.
He wants a baby too--but there are days when he's tired from work or just not in the mood.Unfortunatly bfp opks dont wait on his being in the right mood or just week ends!:giggle:

Anyway~GL!! Hope we all get knocked up soon.:thumbsup: With sticky ones at that.

[babylove921]

Oh My Goodness charlotte don't I know it. DH wants a baby, but he's tired working 12 hour shifts at the jail, and then comes home and I wanna jump him, poor thing.
My Soy is 50mg, so I'm taking 200mg on CD 2-6, hopefully this does it.
Hope your DH is extra horny too!

[Melmonkey]

Megan- what kind of job was the interview for? I hope you get it:lostit:

[yesterdayicried]

Charlotte, I did do the 50mg but... lol, it was over a year expired. I will be buying more from medsmex.com soon. I think I might also try a blue dye SA test soon to at least know that my SO has a sperm count that's normal. I think he might have agglutination issues. I try to keep up on his vitamins but if I don't hand them to him on a daily basis he won't take them. I can barely take mine on a daily basis.
TMI: He has really thick semen but I was reading that as long as it "thins out" or gets runny within half an hour it's okay. His gets runny after about 10-15 minutes. I know all this because he dropped/dripped some on the hard wood floor a few nights ago and I screamed at him to not wipe it up and ran to turn the light on and study it, lol. He thinks I'm nuts.

[McMamma38]

:roflmbo: Thanks Megan,glad some one else understands and has a hard working dh that can drag their feet at times.
Mine gets his belly full and is asleep snoreing away on the couch by 7:30pm! If I dare turn the tv channel--he wakes up!:roflmbo:

So on week nights I have to get our bd iin(if I'm in a fertile phase), right when he gets home from work.
We have ds pop a dvd in (in his room so dd is happy) and we get busy!
I cannot get him to bd after supper--cause he's asleep.:giggle2: It makes TTC interesting.

That's why I'll be so thrilled to get pg and stay that way! Dh will be releaved as well,we'll get to relax.
Guess when you've been together as long as we have(20 yrs now) you settle.He used to be quite the horny guy--but after I had dd and he's 47 now,he's soo mellow.
It doesn't help that I still have a high drive and after 35 am just coming into my own.Not fair--he's mellowing out.Sigh.:giggle:

[McMamma38]

Charlotte, I did do the 50mg but... lol, it was over a year expired. I will be buying more from medsmex.com soon. I think I might also try a blue dye SA test soon to at least know that my SO has a sperm count that's normal. I think he might have agglutination issues. I try to keep up on his vitamins but if I don't hand them to him on a daily basis he won't take them. I can barely take mine on a daily basis.
TMI: He has really thick semen but I was reading that as long as it "thins out" or gets runny within half an hour it's okay. His gets runny after about 10-15 minutes. I know all this because he dropped/dripped some on the hard wood floor a few nights ago and I screamed at him to not wipe it up and ran to turn the light on and study it, lol. He thinks I'm nuts.

:roflmbo: :roflmbo: OMG I'm just pictureing it in my mind! I have no idea what's normal as far as a guy's stuff.:giggle:
Anyway--hope Clomid works it's magic for you.

[Melmonkey]

I need to just SCREAM!!!! I AM SO MAD!!!!!!!!:mad: :beafraid: :fryingpan: :fight: :bangdesk: :bite:

[McMamma38]

Todays opk~test line is thicker than it has been and pinked up nicely but bfn.I'm useing the Ic ones from early pregnancytest.com and only those until they go bfp,then I'll confirm w/ one of my pricey digi opks(Clearblue easy digital`the one that gives a :goodvibes: when bfp)

I'm not upset because if this is just the first day I am noticeing ewcm,I can get up to 5 days total of ewcm w/ day 3-4 of ewcm being my bfp opk day.USUALLY that is.
I'm hurting good--come on ovaries!:giggle:

Now that it's dried--this is the most promiseing opk I've had since I started peeing on them 20 days ago! I have more on order and being sent.Lol.

[babylove921]

Oh goodness whats wrong Mel???

[babylove921]

Mel- its a job with Sylvan learning center/and their testing center.. it is right down the road from our new house.. and it would give me more experience with office type work.. yea!!

[McMamma38]

I need to just SCREAM!!!! I AM SO MAD!!!!!!!!:mad: :beafraid: :fryingpan: :fight: :bangdesk: :bite:

What's happened Mel? Want to share?:hugs:

[Melmonkey]

The whole IF thread and being called out, then my IF friends being upset over the thread and being hurt by it.....then so much more, I am just so mad that I want to......well, I better not say what I want to do...........I may get into trouble........

[Melmonkey]

What's happened Mel? Want to share?:hugs:

pm me, I will share there

[Melmonkey]

Mel- its a job with Sylvan learning center/and their testing center.. it is right down the road from our new house.. and it would give me more experience with office type work.. yea!!

That would be awesome if you get that! I hope you get it! :lostit:

[babylove921]

Thanks Mel. Ya know it makes me mad too. I completely agree. Just try not to go over to that thread anymore, and know the people who care about you love you.

[Melmonkey]

you know, it is really not the IF thread, I said what I thought and felt in my heart what needed to be said.....I don't feel that my JTC girls should be thrown under the bus because someone took a comment/post I made then posted it into a thread on the general TTC boards........that is why I am so mad.......my JTC gals are not to be thrown under the bus because you were called out......I am gonna leave it at that.......GGGGRRRRRRR

[rachaeljohnson]

charlotte-yay for ewcm!!!! :)

Katie-best wishes with the clomid-it has always been a wonder drug for me...i O'd late on it both times though (day 21 and day 23) and concieved both times...so don't panic if you o late! :)

Megan-yay...when will you hear about the job?

Mel-big hugs...i haven't read any of it except what was cut and pasted and it makes me very angry...but i know better than go look or i will say something that will get me removed from ds...lol.

So maybe bc my dh is 25...but i have to beat him off with a stick...lol It's been a 3 month dry spell so i know he wants to ttc...ha ha. I am cleared to dtd as of wednesday...2 more days! On another note, i just made homemade tortillas for dinner....mmmmm...gotta go finish up!

[babylove921]

I'll hear about the job within the next few days.. Yay!
I am trying Soy this month, but I'll be trying clomid next month too.

[McMamma38]

Oh I almost miss how dh was at 27-28! He was always wanting me and we dtd every day,sometimes twice a day!:giggle:

I'm glad you'll be cleared to dtd Rach.:thumbsup: Hope it's "fun"

Mel~:bighug: What a day..love ya girl.Just try and let it roll off your back.It's not worth it in the end.
Everyone needs a ~:grouphug: Sorry I'm a peace maker and rarely get involved.:hugs:

TTC gets us all quite worked up and depending on what parts of our cycles were at~Watch out!
I'm not makeing light of the thread or anything--believe me it was upsetting and shocking.

[babylove921]

Ugh does anyone esle get tired of taking freakin pills. I take 4 Soys, 3/4 Evening Primrose Oils, Baby Aspirin, Origins for Woman 2 a day or Prenatals 1 a day.. uh my throat is tired!!!!

[Melmonkey]

Gotta love it when we go above and beyond the call of duty....all in the hopes of having a chance to have a baby........it is only a few more days Megan...a few more day at least for some of them:thumbsup:

[babylove921]

lol Yea, thats why I said I wish some days the woman who can conceive just by thinking about it should walk a day in our shoes, it freakin stinks. Even though this is just month #6 since I've been taking supplements like this, almost 2 years of trying to have my first baby is taking its toll of us.. I don't know how to do it Mel.. I don't think I could go that long shooting myself up with meds and taking pills.. but whoever it was that said one day I wanna look at my child and say I faught so hard to get you here, I really love you, then it'll all be worth it.

[Melmonkey]

That was Stephanie who said that powerful sentence......It is so very true, it was awesome and I will tell my children that when they are conceived, I may even write in on their nursery wall!

[babylove921]

Does anyone esle have a problem with feeling like less of a woman, or broken in someway. Im a failure, I can't get pregnant and when I do I cant keep it.. and then I feel like I can't complain because there are other woman who like you Mel have been trying a lot longer than me..
uh on to the glass of wine for tonight.

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Does anyone esle have a problem with feeling like less of a woman, or broken in someway. Im a failure, I can't get pregnant and when I do I cant keep it.. and then I feel like I can't complain because there are other woman who like you Mel have been trying a lot longer than me..
uh on to the glass of wine for tonight.

I sometimes feel a little like that. I feel like as a couple we don't work right. I often feel like I can't say how I feel because I've had successes. Obviously, since we have to do IVF, we are infertile, but I have 3 kids already and IVF overcomes our issues. I tried for 2 years before my first, but now, we just plan it and go in. Well, sort of...last time I had a miscarriage with the first frozen cycle and there are no guarantees I'll get pregnant with any of my frozen cycles. But, we don't temp or time BD'ing or anything. It's very different. Sometimes, I feel like I don't even belong here with you wonderful ladies. :cry: However, I really don't fit with the regular TTC mamas. So, here I am, hoping you all accept me even though I'm farther along in my infertility struggles than most of you.

I'm sorry that you are feeling that way. You are a wonderful woman, perfect just the way God made you. You can complain anytime you need to. :goodvibes:

[babylove921]

I know God made me just how I was suppose to be, and I can't help but think God gave me infertility issues because I can handle the pain and other woman can't.
But I can't help but be bitter towards everyone esle with kids. That Duggar woman who has 18 children, how is that fair to us who can't have one?? I just want one and I'll be thrilled over the moon happy..

[babylove921]

This is what I wrote on my Facebook and my friend Shealyn wrote this comment.. thought you ladies would find it funny



Megan Mclemore goes above and beyond the call of duty to get pregnant, supplements and vitamins, it seriously ridculous, but think when I finally have a baby I can tell him I faught so hard to get you here.. I'll have a bond other parents won't... (this comes from my throat talking, which is tired of taking vitamins..)(Folic Acid, reproductive health womans vitamins, and a few other, counted tonight, I take 9 supplements ugh...)
Megan Mclemore at 8:06pm June 15
ugh this sucks i feel so broken
Shealyn M. Wall at 9:15pm June 15
why doyou feel broken? you're not broken. you're just the way God inteded for you to be. Lovely in every way. ♥
Megan Mclemore at 9:53pm June 15
tell that to my uterus
Shealyn M. Wall at 10:09pm June 15
okay. put it up to the screen.. ready?
Megan's uterus: I know you're under a lot of stress right now, trying to make a lil bun for your oven.. but let me tell you this YOU GIVE HER A BABY RIGHT NOW, GODDAMNIT. DON'T MAKE ME COME IN THERE AND HANDLE THIS. *ahem* Like I was saying, you're perfect.. amazing.. jut do your job so she'll be happy.

How was that? Think it'll work? Sometimes people only have luck once they stop actively 'trying'. I hope I was able to scare some prego eggos in there for you. ♥ . But on a girl-to-girl level, I know how you're feeling.. and it sucks. But just know that the entire world would love to have a lil mini you running around. Megan Mclemore at 10:29pm June 15
I must be extremely emotional cause that broke me down into tears. Your awesome Shealyn I don't know how you said the right thing to me. Thanks

[Melmonkey]

Megan-That is awesome that you have a friend who you can vent to and get a laugh out of!

[babylove921]

It was what I needed.
So I went to your website and I love your stuff. Thinking of future cloths, can you back newborn cloths?

[babylove921]

i'd love to have a cute little coming home outfit from your stuff. is it possible?

[bluechicken]

Megan's uterus: I know you're under a lot of stress right now, trying to make a lil bun for your oven.. but let me tell you this YOU GIVE HER A BABY RIGHT NOW, GODDAMNIT. DON'T MAKE ME COME IN THERE AND HANDLE THIS. *ahem* Like I was saying, you're perfect.. amazing.. jut do your job so she'll be happy.

:roflmbo: Love it!! Thanks for the laugh.

[babylove921]

Yep Stephanie I've got some awesome friends.

[bluechicken]

Sometimes, I feel like I don't even belong here with you wonderful ladies. :cry:

Oh pish posh. Just put that out of your head, grab some chocolate and pull up a chair ... just make sure you bring us all some too or we may have to vote you out. :giggle:

[bluechicken]

I'll keep this one short as I forgot to multi-quote the last two I just posted. :giggle: Sorry.

I signed up for Fertility Friend today. Not sure why it has taken me this long to do that ... nor why it has taken me so long to read "Taking Charge of Your Fertility". I'm on page 219 and started yesterday, I believe. :thumbsup: Loving it. I knew most of it, but she goes into more detail and explainations. Also clarifies some things I had confused. Anyway, again, not sure why I didn't read this book back when I started TTC ... probably because I didn't know it existed. Another thing to add to the 'what to give to a friend at a bridal shower' list. :giggle2: Maybe put it with some pretty items. :goodvibes:

[Melmonkey]

It was what I needed.
So I went to your website and I love your stuff. Thinking of future cloths, can you back newborn cloths?

i'd love to have a cute little coming home outfit from your stuff. is it possible?
Are you talking about my stuff Megan? Or were you talking to someone else...because I want to see cute stuff too:giggle:
I sometimes feel a little like that. I feel like as a couple we don't work right. I often feel like I can't say how I feel because I've had successes. Obviously, since we have to do IVF, we are infertile, but I have 3 kids already and IVF overcomes our issues. I tried for 2 years before my first, but now, we just plan it and go in. Well, sort of...last time I had a miscarriage with the first frozen cycle and there are no guarantees I'll get pregnant with any of my frozen cycles. But, we don't temp or time BD'ing or anything. It's very different. Sometimes, I feel like I don't even belong here with you wonderful ladies. :cry: However, I really don't fit with the regular TTC mamas. So, here I am, hoping you all accept me even though I'm farther along in my infertility struggles than most of you.

I'm sorry that you are feeling that way. You are a wonderful woman, perfect just the way God made you. You can complain anytime you need to. :goodvibes:

Heather- YOU BELONG HERE! WE LOVE YOU! YOU ARE FORBIDDEN TO GO ANYWHERE ELSE BUT JTC GRADS......that being said.....

Ha ha....we are so important that we even have a Grad board! :roflmbo:

I actually am felling a little better not, I spun some yarns and it has relaxed me a tad....now I hope I get a good nights sleep......

[rachaeljohnson]

Megan-what an amazing friend!!!! :) And, yes, i feel like a druggie when ttc. ha ha. Fertility does make me feel like less of a woman, especially when his mom boasts getting pregnant without even trying...but i really know dh loves me for me and would be AOK if i never got pregnant...unfortunately i wouldn't...i saw the duggers on the today show yesterday and wanted to puke. lol. Man, i think i need a drink. I haven't had one in 4 years...but since i can't get pregnant until after July 17, i have a window to work with here! :) Wanna come over for wine ladies???

Heather-we love you here...i just love and appreciate all of you ladies!

Stephanie-isn't TCOYF amazing...i love FF friend too...but i use just the free one.

AFM-finally dtd (were supposed to wait until bleeding stopped or 4 weeks after d&c/tomorrow) last night as the bleeding seemed to stop...whoops...came back...poor dh...sorry, tmi...lol. We are not going to be very good at this preventing stuff...since we haven't in our 4 years of marriage ever had to bother...he is supposed to be "pulling out" or using condoms via my OBs instruction...whoops. Oye. I have my blood work at 8 am tomorrow and i am getting so anxous. I could see it being at 120 or at 20...i just have no idea (was 163 last wed.). Hope you all have a great day!!! Hoorah for more great weather up here in MI...hey, i can't say that most of the year!

[MommaMcCord]

Wow. :hugs: all around!

Megan~ Good luck w/ the job. That sounds like a really neat one! And :thumbsup: on what your friend said. That was awesome! :giggle:

Char~ :hugs:

Mel~ I *love* your grad comment. Too true! :roflmbo:

Steph~ :yay: for FF. It took me awhile to sign up for it too, but I really feel like I know my body SO much better ever since. I haven't read that book either. I can't bring myself to read infertility books just yet... it's like further admitting my "failure." I dunno. I admire your strength. :)

Rach~ WHOOPS!! :giggle: My DH would *not* be amused. Good luck w/ bloodwork today. Hope you win the bet. And :yay: for nice weather. It's already in triple digits here in TX. :yuck:

AFM~ Temp dropped below coverline, and feeling crampy. She's coming. But I'm ok with it, it's probably a good thing to get a normal AF in before a BFP. Maybe. I dunno. Whatever. Either way, she's coming. :blush:

[HeatherlovesCDs]

Megan - I'm really glad your friend was able to cheer up. Good friends like that are priceless. :mrgreen:

Stephanie - I've never read that book. Maybe I'll get it someday. I like to read and learn about things that affect us. I admit, I haven't done very much research in a long time since we do the IVF, but the desire to get pregnant on our own is very strong and getting stronger. :blush:

Mel - You are funny.

Rachael - Congrats on the BD'ing. I don't like going a while. I need me some good lov'n pretty frequently. :blush: My husband wouldn't be all that bothered by the restart, especially if it had been a while. :giggle2: Praying for a 20!

Tammi - Sorry AF is coming. That totally bites!

Thanks for your kind words, Ladies. It makes me feel like I belong here hanging out with you. :lostit:

[Melmonkey]

Rachael- COME ON 20!!!!!

I had a good nights sleep last night, and spun some yarns to calm me down from the hype of yesterday. Oye!!! What a day yesterday was...but today is a new day, and I gotta get to working out........I was sunburnt these last few days and took them off because I hurted........I am such a wuss......

[Aimers1]

Whoa. I wasn't on yesterday, but it looks like I missed a lot! :hugs: all around! I read that IF thread, and found it to be crap. I think that all of you ladies that posted there handled yourselves extremely well. I tried to do the same. 'nuf said.

I stayed home from work yesterday because the evil witch was being very unkind to me. I woke from a dream that I was having the worst cramps ever to find...that I had the worst cramps ever. You know it's bad when your subconscious mind tells you to do something about it! I had dh go get me some ibuprofen :blush: I didn't want to get out of bed. I'm , I guess, looking forward to my RE appt. next week. Dh is very nervous. He's been cracking not so nice jokes (I love you so much I'm going to s$^^%e in a cup for you) lately. Yesterday I was in no mood, so I said, do you want me to cancel the appointment and just leave this alone. He admitted that he was just nervous. I said, that's fine, but please express yourself in a way that doesn' make me feel bad. Then he felt bad. We're over it though. Just want to finally feel like we're getting somewhere.

[rachaeljohnson]

tammi-sorry about AF!

Heather-i wish i had your "need" for lovin'...ha ha. It takes me a long time to miss it...ha ha

Melissa-kudos to you for working out...i have been so lazy since my m/c...guess it's time to stop making excuses...and brownies. :) Yay for spinning yarn, i am so impressed!

Aimee-good luck at your RE appt. When is it? When my dh had to give a sample he accidently brought it to the blood draw station...and they looked at him with deer in headlights...ha ha. Sorry about the cramps...hope you feel better soon!!!

Off to make lunch...starving....

[Melmonkey]

do you know what! I am officially in the one week wait!!! Next Tues I get blood work done:lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit:

[babylove921]

Yes Melissa I was talking to you. And I got more news too.. lol I posted a thing on my wall and facebook and apparently everyone think sI 'm crazy I guess thats because no one has had infertility issues or wanted so much to have a baby.. anyway, I have an appointment with my family dr for depression, I think its real and it affects me and my DH, sure its all about losing our baby, but I havent been the same since and I cant help but wanna help DH and everyone esle think I ;m not nuts

[Melmonkey]

Yes Melissa I was talking to you. And I got more news too.. lol I posted a thing on my wall and facebook and apparently everyone think sI 'm crazy I guess thats because no one has had infertility issues or wanted so much to have a baby.. anyway, I have an appointment with my family dr for depression, I think its real and it affects me and my DH, sure its all about losing our baby, but I havent been the same since and I cant help but wanna help DH and everyone esle think I ;m not nuts

I have face book too......you need to add me! :lostit: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=864450470&ref=profile#/profile.php?id=864450470&ref=profile

what exactly were you looking at in my store? Do you have an idea as to what you want? Pm me to let me know what you saw, and I will see what we can do!

[babylove921]

Ok this is totally off subject but.. I am trying to lose some weight this week.. so today for breakfast I had well a few bites of a WW muffin, wasnt really feeling it.. then I went back to bed cause well I was tired and for lunch right now I am eating a can of citrus fruit and tonight for dinner it looks like pork chops and rice pilaf and a veggy.. so I think today I did good, drank some grapefruit juice too, 100% with no added sugar.. go me go me go me

[rachaeljohnson]

megan-great job with healthy foods today, just make sure you eat enough.

melissa-yay for <1 week!!! Whoop whoop.

ugh, cramps...i NEVER get cramps...except the day i passed the baby (m/c)...and now this AF has had them off and on...hope it's just the first AF post m/c and not a new thing. I know fibroids can cause cramps so...hoping that is not the case.

[babylove921]

not to worry you Rachael but since my miscarriage and I was just a few days after you in age of the baby, I have had cramps really bad every month..

[McMamma38]

Yay for the 1 ww Mel!:lostit: Cannot wait until it ends in a beautiful BFP for you!:goodvibes:

Rach~I'm soo sure you're hcg will be 20 or less.Here's too hopeing.:thumbsup:
Bad cramping in the first AF post m/c is normal.I had that after my loss in Nov --for my Dec cycle.It was heavy as well.

Nervouse to see what my 1st Af is like this time...speaking of wich,please pray it comes on without haveing to get my Ob to call in Provera.

Alas I'm almost certain the ewcm I saw yesterday am was from dh.:blush: :banghead:
OPK light today,so unlike yesterdays.Bleh.
This is getting to be a real drag and depressing.

Hope everyone is doing ok.I'm off to lurk/maybe post some.Feeling blah.:cry:

[Aimers1]

Aimee-good luck at your RE appt. When is it? When my dh had to give a sample he accidently brought it to the blood draw station...and they looked at him with deer in headlights...ha ha. Sorry about the cramps...hope you feel better soon!!!

Off to make lunch...starving....

RE appointment is next Tuesday!

do you know what! I am officially in the one week wait!!! Next Tues I get blood work done:lostit: :lostit: :lostit: :lostit:

Whoo hoo!! I posted in your other thread in TTC, but we'll be at the dr together next week!

And facebook...totally evil. Megan knows about my farm addiction...

[rachaeljohnson]

wow aimee, that's soon!

:) Off to shower and start supernatural childbirth :)

[rachaeljohnson]

the book...lol

[rachaeljohnson]

okay so after 3 chapters, i think it's a great affirming book that God has a plan for us...but it almost makes me feel like if i'd had faith i wouldn't have problems ttc and wouldn't have had the m/c...not sure if i am feeling it. I will keep going though and pray and see what i think after a little more reading and reflecting and a little less hormones. :) Off to drink some OJ (seriously CRAVING OJ so i sent dh to the gas station) and watch hgtv with dh. Night ladies!

[Melmonkey]

RE appointment is next Tuesday!



Whoo hoo!! I posted in your other thread in TTC, but we'll be at the dr together next week!

And facebook...totally evil. Megan knows about my farm addiction...

Do you love facebook farmtown too?

[L&A'smommy]

I just got to pennsylvania today after 3 long days in the car. I am waiting to test. Af is due in 3 days. I have been having short cycles recently. I would love to test today but my tests are packed in the uhaul right now. Oh well I guess I'll know in a couple of days. My RE appt is coming up soon if I am not.

Welcome to the group Katie.

Well I am exhausted and will have to catch up with everyone tomorrow. :hugs:

[sbbeana]

I just got to pennsylvania today after 3 long days in the car. I am waiting to test. Af is due in 3 days. I have been having short cycles recently. I would love to test today but my tests are packed in the uhaul right now. Oh well I guess I'll know in a couple of days. My RE appt is coming up soon if I am not.

Welcome to the group Katie.

Well I am exhausted and will have to catch up with everyone tomorrow. :hugs:


Glad to see you made it safely to PA. I'm SO sad you had to move :cry:
Owen has been wondering where his friend is.

[littlepanda]

WOW! It looks like I missed a lot since I last posted here a few days ago. Hope everyone is doing well, and can't wait to see Mel's BFP! :D

I had kind of a bad day today. I woke up covered in hives (due to a food allergy) and had to go to the emergency room and wait for hours to be seen. Not too fun. And AF also finally arrived two days late, which I guess was to be expected since I took Clomid last cycle. Oh well. Onto cycle 13 now. :yuck:

[rachaeljohnson]

laylaemommy-glad you made it safe...you can swing on over to MI and bum a frer! :) Great time of year to be in PA. We moved from VA to MI and wow is MI nice in the summer! (as is PA). Now come january, we should all fly with you to texas. ha ha. Hope you get a bfp when you find those tests.

AFM-off for blood work...fingers crossed!

[Aimers1]

Do you love facebook farmtown too?

Um...yeah :blush: seriously addicted.

[HeatherlovesCDs]

okay so after 3 chapters, i think it's a great affirming book that God has a plan for us...but it almost makes me feel like if i'd had faith i wouldn't have problems ttc and wouldn't have had the m/c...not sure if i am feeling it. I will keep going though and pray and see what i think after a little more reading and reflecting and a little less hormones. :) Off to drink some OJ (seriously CRAVING OJ so i sent dh to the gas station) and watch hgtv with dh. Night ladies!

I don't know the book you are talking about, but I wanted to say, whether or not you get pregnant or have miscarriage has nothing to do with the amount of faith you have. Strong faith is certainly needed in the face of trials, but it has nothing to do with whether or not you go through them. Don't forget about Job. God allowed Satan to put him through all kinds of trials and struggles. It had absolutely nothing to do with Job and everything to do with God. In fact, God choose Job because of his strong faith. He knew Job could go through these trials and still trust God through it. It was a honor that God choose Job. Here a the verses where God talks about Job being blameless and still letting Satan do this evil in Job's life. I'm sure you know what happens in the rest of the book.

Job 1:6-12 (New International Version)

Job's First Test
6 One day the angels [a] came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan [b] also came with them. 7 The LORD said to Satan, "Where have you come from?"
Satan answered the LORD, "From roaming through the earth and going back and forth in it."

8 Then the LORD said to Satan, "Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil."

9 "Does Job fear God for nothing?" Satan replied. 10 "Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. 11 But stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face."

12 The LORD said to Satan, "Very well, then, everything he has is in your hands, but on the man himself do not lay a finger."
Then Satan went out from the presence of the LORD.

ETA - I'm praying for low HCG today!!

Also adding - Hey! This is my 1800th post. I like nice even, round numbers. :)

[babylove921]

And Heather I believe that is why God has chosen us to go through our trials of infertility because we are strong and will believe and trust in God through it all. You rock!!

[HeatherlovesCDs]

And Heather I believe that is why God has chosen us to go through our trials of infertility because we are strong and will believe and trust in God through it all. You rock!!

And what a testament to His power and goodness that through these trials you are still able to praise Him!! :lostit:

Thanks! :goodvibes:

[Melmonkey]

Heather- What a great time to post the story of Job! I love that God let him be tried and his faith in God never faultered!

Rachael- COME ON 20!!!! or something close to that!!!!

Aimee- You have got to add me as a friend on facebook! I adore farmtown....speaking of which, I need to go and check my crops..:giggle:

[babylove921]

Ugh.. the Soy has knocked me out, I have diarrhea adn my stomach really hurts, and yesterday for a split second I had a 100 fever, this morning my temp is normal but my stomach is still all wacky, I really think it was the soy..not sure if I'll keep taking it.

[Melmonkey]

I just got to pennsylvania today after 3 long days in the car. I am waiting to test. Af is due in 3 days. I have been having short cycles recently. I would love to test today but my tests are packed in the uhaul right now. Oh well I guess I'll know in a couple of days. My RE appt is coming up soon if I am not.

Welcome to the group Katie.

Well I am exhausted and will have to catch up with everyone tomorrow. :hugs:

If that is not reason to wait to test, I don't know what is.......:giggle:



LittlePanda-Thanks for the well wishes waiting on my BFP...I hope that I am getting close to the end of my bumpy road!

[MommaMcCord]

The evil witch is in full force. :( But I love Farmtown, too!! :thumbsup:

[Melmonkey]

The evil witch is in full force. :( But I love Farmtown, too!! :thumbsup:

BLAH to the hateful witch:yuck:

[babylove921]

im going to the dr at 220 tonday which I am glad about because I'm having some awful tummy problems, feel like i've lost two pounds in a few mintues..lol

[Melmonkey]

im going to the dr at 220 tonday which I am glad about because I'm having some awful tummy problems, feel like i've lost two pounds in a few mintues..lol

OH my Megan.......that is not good at all, do you think it is the Soy?

[rachaeljohnson]

Heather-thanks for the reminder...how uplifting that was...:) You rock!

Megan-sorry you are sick!!! Yucko...i would quit the soy.

Melissa-i can't believe your long crazy journey may be over soon. :)

Tammi-blah to the evil witch...yucko.

AFM-my numbers were 72 this morning...blah. I was really hoping for lower. I have 2 more blood draws before our family vacation and i really hope it's negative by then...:( A little bummed but trying to be thankful it went down.

[heluvsme]

Mel and Tammi, I just sent you friend requests on FB. I am a FarmTown addict. :blush: Yesterday I spent SO much time fixing my farm...oh my goodness :blush: Horrible! But it's very therapeutic...

[heluvsme]

Rachael, don't stress out~they'll come down!!! :hugs:

[babylove921]

Kim add me too, my name is Megan McLemore...

[babylove921]

I hope it isnt the Soy, but you know what its stopped so far this afternoon so I think I'll continue with the Soy, I've got 2 more days left I think its worth it.

[heluvsme]

Just wanted to say that God has grown my faith in a huge way through this journey...He has given me the grace to keep trusting Him even when I don't understand why....

Megan, there are 2 pages of gals with your name...how about an e-mail addy?

[Aimers1]

Aimee- You have got to add me as a friend on facebook! I adore farmtown....speaking of which, I need to go and check my crops..:giggle:

Just added you...Kim, if you need another farmtown friend, Aimee Stevens in Chicago, or just look for me in Megan or Melissa's friends :giggle:

[heluvsme]

Aimee, I finally found an Aimee Stevens from Chicago...but I didn't see Megan in your friends...I hope it's you lol

[babylove921]

We found each other... yeah!!!

[JaylasMommy]

:giggle: I'm on Kim's facebook.

I am not addicted to Farm Town, I couldn't get into it. :headscratch: But, for the longest time, I was addicted to Sorority Life on Myspace... :blush:

I have been bummed... I want to knit longies/shorties so bad. But, Dd is almost potty learned, and I just don't see the point of it. :cry: Nevertheless, I've still been practicing and stuff, and I might be starting knitting for others this fall! :woot2: I'm SO EXCITED!!!!

[heluvsme]

Ash, I visited your farm and i can tell you're not into it. I've sent you a million trees and animals lol I will stop now. :giggle:

I am relearning to crochet. It has been about 25 years! Then I want to learn to knit.

[Aimers1]

You found the right me Kim! I'll neighbor you and send you a giftie when I get home!

[heluvsme]

Oh, goody! lol I send gifts like a maniac, ask Ashley :giggle:

[rachaeljohnson]

you crafty ladies...i am so jealous...:)

AFM-my ob is supposed to call me today...hopefully she can put my mind at ease...i so thought my numbers would be way lower...gah! Oh well...at least they are down and not up and i don't need chemo! :) Off to walk with dh and make dinner...hashbrowns and eggs...mmmm.

[JaylasMommy]

Yea, Kim. I just couldn't find the love in FarmTown. :headscratch: Maybe you can teach me.

I crochet too, but to me, knitting is faster and easier. It takes me almost a week just to make a waistband for crochet longies... :blush: Yea, that's how slow I am at crocheting... :roflmbo: Knitting, it takes an hour and a half to do a waistband. I HATE ribbing, but eh, it is only 10-15 rows...... Lol.

[babylove921]

so back from my drs app, Ihave IBS cant you believe that.. when i was pregnant I also had irriatable uterus too.. I am so irriatable..

[Melmonkey]

so back from my drs app, Ihave IBS cant you believe that.. when i was pregnant I also had irriatable uterus too.. I am so irriatable..

GAH!!!! YOU made me LOL:roflmbo:

I am sorry to hear about the IBS though:hugs:

[Aimers1]

Oh, goody! lol I send gifts like a maniac, ask Ashley :giggle:

Sweet! I like gifts :)

[JaylasMommy]

:giggle: I posted a fun thread on the TTC board. :giggle:

[rachaeljohnson]

megan-so sorry about the ibs...what a lot of information to process. You did make me laugh my butt off though...:)

[babylove921]

haha my mom said its from being married to Mr irritable... I guess I have to take pills and watch what I eat and learn how to deal with stress better.

[JaylasMommy]

Haha, Megan your sense of humor cracks me up. :roflmbo:

[babylove921]

I'm glad no one esle laughs at me, or even with me.. poor little me... Yea me and DH dtd..it was awesome.. yea

[Melmonkey]

Ashley- you need to go and check out my post to your fun thread:roflmbo:

Megan- Way to go on the dh Bow-Chica-Wow-Wow...:giggle:


I just took my BW-6 day Bromocriptine....tomorrow will be 5 days to go...then DH leaves for a Oil and Gas conference in Pittsburgh the day after bloodwork, so I told him....you sure you wanna come back, your lovely wife will be a bear on Clomid when you come back.....

[McMamma38]

Gl Mel!

Well I'm FINALLY noticeing fertile ewcm late tonight.:lostit: It's not from dh because we havent dtd since Sunday afternoon.
Feeling pinchy in my left ovary as well.This afternoons opk was bfn--so I'm still peeing on them hopeing to catch a surge soon.

So looks like we'll be busy here.:lostit: I'm waiting on an almost bfp opk to start our bd and will continue bd through a bfp opk back to bfn.That's the plan anyway.:giggle:
I'm so happy to see this fertile cm--it's been a LONG wait.

[katedanzer]

Whoohoo for fertile cm Charlotte. Hope you and DH have a great weekend! ;)

[JaylasMommy]

Ok, random question. For you ladies with PCOS, when you ovulate how long does the ovulation pain usually stick around? I've had it for a week now, and I am just :headscratch: ........ I'd like to get back to DTD, kthxbai. :roflmbo:

Mel- I was totally giggling at your post. It's a fun thread. I realize how much my "wish list" is going to cost me... :thud: I better start saving NOW. :roflmbo:
Good luck next week! And, I'm hoping for good news from you! And, everyone else too. :giggle: :goodvibes:

[rachaeljohnson]

Melissa-soooo close. Clomid never made me a bear. :)

Charlotte-yay!!! I know what you are doing this weekend...:) Catch that eggie!!

Ashley-i never really get o pain...but have had slight cramping for several days around that time. Usually goes away once the egg pops out.

AFM-my OB didn't call...i am soooo frustrated, i really wanted to ask questions...why can't they call when they say they will? Oye!!!

[Melmonkey]

Ok, random question. For you ladies with PCOS, when you ovulate how long does the ovulation pain usually stick around? I've had it for a week now, and I am just :headscratch: ........ I'd like to get back to DTD, kthxbai. :roflmbo:

Mel- I was totally giggling at your post. It's a fun thread. I realize how much my "wish list" is going to cost me... :thud: I better start saving NOW. :roflmbo:
Good luck next week! And, I'm hoping for good news from you! And, everyone else too. :giggle: :goodvibes:

Ashley- My wish list is gonna cost me a fortune, but I have Credit Cards......:roflmbo: Dh has a great job and my parents will be getting their first grandchildren....so not a worry here....:roflmbo: my wish list will happen, you can count on it...:giggle2:

[babylove921]

I'm right there with you Melissa I even wanna buy stuff now but I can't because then I don't think I'll ever need to use them.. Its so sad.

[JaylasMommy]

I doubt I get everything I want from my wish list. I don't have any baby gear picked out.... It's all going to be newer stuff when we get to buy it. :giggle: I have an idea of the stuff I want though.

[Melmonkey]

I'm right there with you Melissa I even wanna buy stuff now but I can't because then I don't think I'll ever need to use them.. Its so sad.

you will get to use them Megan, you will.......don't think anything other than that!

[rachaeljohnson]

i bought some stuff with my last pregnancy and had to pack them away...i don't think i will do anymore buying until i make it to a second trimester...

Megan-don't think that...you will use them!!! But i am with you in the sense that i don't want to look at them now. Big hugs!!

AFM-internet was down all day...grrr...and still no call from my OB!!!

[babylove921]

yea I think I'm right there with you although I didnt buy anything but a cute little onesie that says, worth the wait.. I think I'm gonna save it though..

[babylove921]

ok so I am CD7 and I am so um.."juicy" holy crap!!

[Melmonkey]

ok so I am CD7 and I am so um.."juicy" holy crap!!

:roflmbo:
That is all I will say to that

[McMamma38]

:roflmbo: It's the Soy Megan--normal side effect about now(on your cd),you'll be noticeing tons of watery wet cm before the slippery ewcm comes!:thumbsup:
GL this cycle.

I'm still waiting in limbo land.Sigh.Opks still bfn.:headscratch: Thought I was gearing up to o.Bleh.:banghead:
Felt sharp stabby pains in my womb today,cannot find anymore of what I thought was fertile ewcm.It was only that one night--2 days ago...Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Sorry for the rant/vent.Frustrated here.

[yesterdayicried]

So sorry, Charlotte. I know how frustrating it can be to feel like you're heading to O and then just have to wait more. :hugs: Mama.

[babylove921]

yea I remember the first month I took Soy look in my chart, I started getting very wet and continued almost until I started the next month.. I hope this is a good sign.!!

[rachaeljohnson]

"juicy" ha ha ha...lmao...we sound like ripe fruit here ladies!

AFM-i just read about a lady who got pregnant before her hcg went to zero with a molar pregnancy...she made it to 20 weeks then found out the cancer had come back and spread to her lungs and her and the baby both died...:( Yikes...guess i will be using 2 condoms...lol...dangit hcg...drop darnit! ha ha

[McMamma38]

Thanks Katie.

Do you all think I just need to wait this out and await my first AF post m/c?(m/c was on May 15th).

Or do I just start Soy up again tonight? Even though it's not cd#3-7? I just want SOMETHING to happen..:banghead: :cry: Stupid body.I think it officially hates me or is broken for good.

[McMamma38]

"juicy" ha ha ha...lmao...we sound like ripe fruit here ladies!

AFM-i just read about a lady who got pregnant before her hcg went to zero with a molar pregnancy...she made it to 20 weeks then found out the cancer had come back and spread to her lungs and her and the baby both died...:( Yikes...guess i will be using 2 condoms...lol...dangit hcg...drop darnit! ha ha

Yikes!! Stop reading stories on the internet Rach.You'll just be more alarmed and upset.

Pray the hcg drops real fast.At least we can wait together...I feel like rotten fruit today!:banghead: :giggle2:
To add insult to injury,my opk just dried and is sooo freaking faint in the test line now.
Need to stop peeing on them...

[McMamma38]

Asked to have my name removed from the ATTS list~never thought that I'd leave that way.Always thought I'd be graduateing w/ a sticky bean--:cry:

I'm just too sad to stay and cannot do it anymore.I dont think there's any original members anymore and if there are they dont post anymore.
This is NOT who I am,I usually offer cheers and support to everyone--but after almost 2 yrs of being on the general TTC threads and variose clubs(Clomid club ,the old 'cycle buddy" threads and ATTS),I'm done.

I cannot just hang out and pretend I'm fine,that it will happen if I have enough faith or a baby will stick...It's hard watching BFP after BFP and TTC buddies and friends graduate and/or have their babies.

Dh told me I need a huge break from daily TTC threads and he's right.

I'll be here when I can to cheer you all on.I wished everyone of you all the very best ~~:babydust: :babydust: I mean it too! You all are dear to me.

Understand I'm happy for any BFP's my dear friends may have!:thumbsup: I just need a huge break.
My body and spirit feel broken now.:cry: Please understand if I dont come on to post a lot or if it's quiet from me for the next few months or however long it takes me to heal and find peace.
Please put me under Takeing a BreakI know we dont have that category on here--but I dont want permanently removed either.

Dh has just found out his hrs are being cut(like he will take 1 day off a week unpaid),that hurts since we are paycheck to paycheck already.His co.is trying to avoid more layoffs--for now this is voluntary.
At least dh told me he still wants to TTC.That is if and when my body co operates post loss.

GL girls~you are all in my thoughts and prayers.:thumbsup: I'm going to TRY real hard to lurk and post in other DS forums/threads besides TTC ones.
I'll be around and will try to keep up.

I want to cheer everyone on and will when I can.

[JaylasMommy]

:hugs: Char- I totally understand. I was hoping we would all have graduated from ATTS.
I try not to frequent TTC boards, or anything having to do with pregnancy. BUT, it's hard not to check up on you ladies every day. :giggle:

I doubt we'll be TTC anytime soon, which hurts. But, the reality of our decision is for the best. I was a monster while TTC. I got to where I couldn't be happy for anyone who got a BFP that wasn't me, unless they were TTC longer than I was. :blush: I was selfish, rude and inconsiderate of those who did. And, not to mention the fights and negative feelings I felt towards myself, and my fiance. I'd like to say that tomorrow we'll be back on the TTC wagon, but we won't be. And, we're still talking about what to do as far as not TTC. I know this doesn't really belong on this board, but... it's hard to just turn away from it. Hard to stop feeling like a piece of me is not whole. I am ready to leave everything into God's hands. And just skip the birth control methods. I mean, what is meant to be will happen, right?

Sorry for the novel. I love talking to you ladies, and praying for your BFPs! I hope you don't mind still talking to me. :giggle2: I love talking to you all!

[Melmonkey]

Oh Char :hugs: Sometimes taking a break is the best thing for your spirit......come back when you feel like, and I promise, when I get my BFP....if you are not lurking that day, you will be getting a PM my dearest friend.
I am sorry to hear about your DH getting cut back one day a week, that stinks, but look on the bright side, he will be home to spend an extra day with you and the kiddos and you can plan budget friendly stuff on those days, like going to the park for a picnic and stuff like that.....because, you are still needing to have lunch after all, why not have it at the park! There is always a bright side to everything and know that we love you and that we know that you will be back!:hugs:

[Melmonkey]

:hugs: Char- I totally understand. I was hoping we would all have graduated from ATTS.
I try not to frequent TTC boards, or anything having to do with pregnancy. BUT, it's hard not to check up on you ladies every day. :giggle:

I doubt we'll be TTC anytime soon, which hurts. But, the reality of our decision is for the best. I was a monster while TTC. I got to where I couldn't be happy for anyone who got a BFP that wasn't me, unless they were TTC longer than I was. :blush: I was selfish, rude and inconsiderate of those who did. And, not to mention the fights and negative feelings I felt towards myself, and my fiance. I'd like to say that tomorrow we'll be back on the TTC wagon, but we won't be. And, we're still talking about what to do as far as not TTC. I know this doesn't really belong on this board, but... it's hard to just turn away from it. Hard to stop feeling like a piece of me is not whole. I am ready to leave everything into God's hands. And just skip the birth control methods. I mean, what is meant to be will happen, right?

Sorry for the novel. I love talking to you ladies, and praying for your BFPs! I hope you don't mind still talking to me. :giggle2: I love talking to you all!

Oh, Ashley, we will always want to talk to you, and if TTC is still oh hold for a little while, so be it, you are still here cheering us on and being here to cheer up who ever needs it. I hate the whole TTC crap, this break has been amazing for me, I suggest when you do get to the point when your whole life revolves around TTC, that you take a short break and not worry about anything but daily life.........It is something that I have come to appreciate......

[rachaeljohnson]

charlotte-big hugs momma! I felt the same way about the atts thread...i was gone for like 8 weeks and everyone was gone...it's nuts. I really think you really should take a break and regroup and find some peace however you need how...but then you need to get back here...cause i love having you here...you totally brighten my days. I wish you nothing but the best...i will be thinking about you and praying for you!

Ashley-my dh suggested taking a break from trying for 6 months-1 year and just seeing if it would happen on its own...but once you are educated...you notice ewcm and want to dtd and you know when af is late and want to test...it's so hard not to focus on it...so sorry momma!

AFM-we had wicked storms and my basement flooded...again! GRRR. It's not finished and everything is in rubbermainds...but still... My dad is coming on Sunday to visit!! And, tomorrow we are having a garage sale! Busy week for us...which will hopefully keep my mind off my hcg levels. :)

[bluechicken]

**Some kids alluded to, just in case it has been one of those days.**

Asked to have my name removed from the ATTS list~never thought that I'd leave that way.Always thought I'd be graduateing w/ a sticky bean--:cry:

I'm just too sad to stay and cannot do it anymore. ...I cannot just hang out and pretend I'm fine,that it will happen if I have enough faith or a baby will stick...

Understand I'm happy for any BFP's my dear friends may have!:thumbsup: I just need a huge break.
My body and spirit feel broken now.:cry: Please understand if I dont come on to post a lot or if it's quiet from me for the next few months or however long it takes me to heal and find peace.

Dh has just found out his hrs are being cut(like he will take 1 day off a week unpaid),that hurts since we are paycheck to paycheck already.His co.is trying to avoid more layoffs--for now this is voluntary.
At least dh told me he still wants to TTC.That is if and when my body co operates post loss.

I used to feel like if I had only wished harder or been more positive about getting a BFP then it would happen ... but it hasn't. :hugs: One of the things I like about this group is that we are happy when someone gets a BFP, but no one gets offended if it takes us time to say so. We all understand. :goodvibes: It sounds like you need some time, so go and enjoy it. Forget about all this 'stuff' :yuck: and have some fun.

Sorry to hear about your DH's hours. Hope the company begins to turn back around.

Yikes!! Stop reading stories on the internet Rach.You'll just be more alarmed and upset.


I agree.

I'm right there with you Melissa I even wanna buy stuff now but I can't because then I don't think I'll ever need to use them.. Its so sad.

I'm in the same frame of thinking ... though I gave in a bit and bought some kids clothes yesterday for the first time. There was a lady having a bag sale at her garage sale. Fill the bag for $2. I told myself it was for foster kids if we get accepted ... but I knew I was only telling myself the part truth. I did very well about not buying all baby things; got one outfit/shirt/pants of several sizes. Though I did pick up a few extras to fill the bag. Came away with 28 items, including some jean pants. Everytime I would look at an article of clothing I tried to picture my cousins in it when they were young enough to wear it. Made me feel old, but kept my mind off of the "why can't I have one to wear this?" mind game.

I also picked up some diapers on a sale a while back to "use for baby showers" :roflmbo: um yeah, I have given some as gifts, but I got too many to give away at the one I've been to. :giggle2:

[bluechicken]

Yesterday and today, maybe even Wednesday, I've been having ... well, they aren't cramps because they aren't that sharp but tightness or soreness would be a good description. I feel almost as if I should be starting AF soon :headscratch: , but I know it is a week+ away. I'm in the 2WW that is longer than two weeks. I O'd around cd18, and AF shouldn't come still the mid to late 30's, say cd35. That means 16 days at least. Maybe even 18 days. I'm a bit worried that AF will show really really early. I had a progesterone test yesterday but haven't heard back from the nurse, and won't be able to call till Monday. I hate being paranoid. :giggle2:

[bluechicken]

Where is everyone today? Is there a JTC BBQ today that I didn't know about? :waiting:

:goodvibes: Actually, with this weather, I would hope for it to be a pool party.

[babylove921]

I know Stephanie.. well pray for me roday Ive been very sick almost went to the hospital, diarrhea that just won't stop tmi.. stomach spasms that make me wanna cry, but I think I am back to normal now

[JaylasMommy]

I am confused by my cycle this month. I *thought* I was 6DPO, but I have EWCM today again?!? :cry: I hope I am not going back to irregular.... I've also been kinda crampy, but no O pains. They are all gone? :headscratch:
Not to mention, I told off the banker today... :blush: I've had bad mood swings ALL day. :giggle:

[rachaeljohnson]

we had our garage sale today...made $100. :)

DH and i dtd this morning and i had to remind him to evacuate before landing...lol...and, i am having major ewcm even though what i was calling AF just ended 4-5 days ago...(not a real period just bleeding from my progesterone crashing back down to normal)...hopefully i will O soon and then for our vacation we can dtd without worrying about using anything/doing anything. Off to eat pizza!!! :)

[babylove921]

Oh Pizza I want pizza all I can eat is toast, jello, applesauce, pudding, maybe chicken, no more coffee, no more mexican spicy food, no more sushi.. I dont like it

[heluvsme]

CHAR huge hugs for you...I know ATTS isn't the same anymore...and I understand I have felt lots of times I just want to stay away from anything TTC but I can't help myself lol I love you girl and take as long as you need. You know we'll be here for you whenever you are ready! :hugs:

Megan, are you sure it isn't a tummy bug cuz I've had diarrhea and pain for about 3 weeks now myself and my whole family has had it. It's like the tummy bug that won't die lol

Rachael, cool on the garage sale money! Hope you have a great vacation.


Steph, hoping those are implantation cramps! I've had them...keep us posted!

AFM, I think my body is kind of getting normal and I don't know why because I've had all these m/c's. But I am cd 10 and having O cramping (like gearing up) and I was actually in the mood this morning which never happens. So looks like I'll be o'ing early (well, early for me but normal for most lol) again. It is so nice to just rest in God and not worry about whether I am fertile or not. Whew.

[heluvsme]

Ashley, I'm praying for you :hugs:

[bluechicken]

Oh Pizza I want pizza ....

:giggle2: That made me chuckle. I hope you start to feel better really soon. It is never fun to be sick.:yuck:

[bluechicken]

Steph, hoping those are implantation cramps! I've had them...keep us posted!

Me too and don't worry, I will. :thumbsup: We have such a busy week coming up, with me/us being gone from Tuesday night through next Monday night. AF is supposed to show sometime the day I am to get back home. Tomorrow is 12dpo. I know, I know ... I said I don't poas until after AF is supposed to come ... but I'm so tempted to this month, even on a $ store one as I'm too cheap to buy a more expensive one. :giggle: Then again, I don't want to see another neg, so I think I'll just wait ... oh what a loooooong week this is going to be.

[Aimers1]

Asked to have my name removed from the ATTS list~never thought that I'd leave that way.Always thought I'd be graduateing w/ a sticky bean--:cry:

I'm just too sad to stay and cannot do it anymore.I dont think there's any original members anymore and if there are they dont post anymore.
This is NOT who I am,I usually offer cheers and support to everyone--but after almost 2 yrs of being on the general TTC threads and variose clubs(Clomid club ,the old 'cycle buddy" threads and ATTS),I'm done.

I cannot just hang out and pretend I'm fine,that it will happen if I have enough faith or a baby will stick...It's hard watching BFP after BFP and TTC buddies and friends graduate and/or have their babies.

Dh told me I need a huge break from daily TTC threads and he's right.

I'll be here when I can to cheer you all on.I wished everyone of you all the very best ~~:babydust: :babydust: I mean it too! You all are dear to me.

Understand I'm happy for any BFP's my dear friends may have!:thumbsup: I just need a huge break.
My body and spirit feel broken now.:cry: Please understand if I dont come on to post a lot or if it's quiet from me for the next few months or however long it takes me to heal and find peace.
Please put me under Takeing a BreakI know we dont have that category on here--but I dont want permanently removed either.

Dh has just found out his hrs are being cut(like he will take 1 day off a week unpaid),that hurts since we are paycheck to paycheck already.His co.is trying to avoid more layoffs--for now this is voluntary.
At least dh told me he still wants to TTC.That is if and when my body co operates post loss.

GL girls~you are all in my thoughts and prayers.:thumbsup: I'm going to TRY real hard to lurk and post in other DS forums/threads besides TTC ones.
I'll be around and will try to keep up.

I want to cheer everyone on and will when I can.

:hugs: Char. I've been there forever too...if not from the very beginning, pretty close. I will probably be leaving soon myself. I agree that it's so hard to keep positive in there anymore. I'm happy for everyone, but it does hurt seeing bfp's after a month or two and having to keep hanging around yourself. I don't know if there's anyone left with you gone...I'm probably gonna' be lonely...

[littlepanda]

Asked to have my name removed from the ATTS list~never thought that I'd leave that way.Always thought I'd be graduateing w/ a sticky bean--:cry:

I'm just too sad to stay and cannot do it anymore.I dont think there's any original members anymore and if there are they dont post anymore.
This is NOT who I am,I usually offer cheers and support to everyone--but after almost 2 yrs of being on the general TTC threads and variose clubs(Clomid club ,the old 'cycle buddy" threads and ATTS),I'm done.

I cannot just hang out and pretend I'm fine,that it will happen if I have enough faith or a baby will stick...It's hard watching BFP after BFP and TTC buddies and friends graduate and/or have their babies.

Dh told me I need a huge break from daily TTC threads and he's right.

I'll be here when I can to cheer you all on.I wished everyone of you all the very best ~~:babydust: :babydust: I mean it too! You all are dear to me.

Understand I'm happy for any BFP's my dear friends may have!:thumbsup: I just need a huge break.
My body and spirit feel broken now.:cry: Please understand if I dont come on to post a lot or if it's quiet from me for the next few months or however long it takes me to heal and find peace.
Please put me under Takeing a BreakI know we dont have that category on here--but I dont want permanently removed either.

Dh has just found out his hrs are being cut(like he will take 1 day off a week unpaid),that hurts since we are paycheck to paycheck already.His co.is trying to avoid more layoffs--for now this is voluntary.
At least dh told me he still wants to TTC.That is if and when my body co operates post loss.

GL girls~you are all in my thoughts and prayers.:thumbsup: I'm going to TRY real hard to lurk and post in other DS forums/threads besides TTC ones.
I'll be around and will try to keep up.

I want to cheer everyone on and will when I can.

Take as long of a break as you need. We will be waiting here for you when you come back. :hugs:

[littlepanda]

bluechicken: Noooooo! Don't POAS! Resist the temptation, at least for a little while longer :giggle: Maybe you can POApopsicleS?

mrsdrums1: Are you feeling better now? Hope you got to eat some pizza. :mrgreen:

heluvsme: That's good news about your body normalizing. Once again, I am envious about your zen TTC attitude. :)

rachaeljohnson: Your numbers dropped really fast! I bet you'll be at zero very soon, so don't read those internet stories and get scared. And yay for approaching O time. Have fun DTD. :giggle2:

[littlepanda]

As for myself, I'm on CD4. The clomid made AF 2 days late. >___< I'm wondering if I should start temping? But then that's just one more thing to obsess about while TTC. DH will be leaving for a 2 month business trip in early September, so our first IUI won't be until November. I am so irritated because his (mandatory) trip couldn't be at a worse time. Waiting 2 months longer to begin the IUI process is agony. :( I don't think I'll be having a baby in 2010 after all.

[rachaeljohnson]

thanks littlepanda! I can't get pregnant this month...as the molar tissue can grow into cancer if i get pregnant before my hcg is 0...not that we won't be dtd just for fun...but no trying this month! :)

Clomid may have delayed your O a bit, but it also raises progesterone and makes your lp longer/stronger...i think that is why it helps me so much. :) Sorry about his trip...i can totally relate, my dh travels soooooo much for work and i hate missing a chance to ttc...can he give a "sample" before he leaves that will be ready for you? Not sure if that's possible!