Imogen's_Mum
08-20-2009, 03:09 PM
Hi Ladies,
I would appreciate it so much if you could pray for me and my DH. We have hit a rough patch in the road and I really need your prayers.
DH has been mostly out of work since before DD was born (9 mos.+) He gets random hours/days here and there but mostly unemployment checks. He is a carpenter so this is kind of the way it goes... but it is hard on a family.
I am struggling because I really want to be home with DD and it literally breaks my heart to put in her in daycare and work 40 hours a week but it is a necessity, especially now that DH is not working full time. I have always wanted to be a SAHM but we decided when I was pregnant, before DH lost his job, that I would need to keep working for a little while. We had hoped however, that his job would keep going strong and I would be able to leave my full time job and work from home or work part time.
The fact that I am working and he is not is starting to make me very resentful and bitter towards him. I am angry that he is not trying to find a new job and only applying for "dream" jobs in the field he wants to be in (videography) instead of just finding another construction job to pay the bills. He is upset with me as well because he feels that we are getting by ok on his unemployment and I should just be content with that. But it is killing me inside to drop DD off at daycare every morning and go to a job that is very stressful, where I am swore at, screamed at, or have my life (verbally) threatened (...and I do not exaggerate) all day long, when he barely has to go to work at all.
All of this has lead to a point where we argue all the time and I can barely be in the same room as him without wanting to break down and cry. I am having a very hard time respecting him as the head of the family and deeply resent being forced into the position of the only full time worker. I don't know how to change this so I have to give it to God and ask him to change my heart. I want to be a loving, understanding and patient wife to him but I am failing miserably.
Please pray for me and for my family. Please pray that either DH gets a new job or that the job he has starts having work for him again. Please pray for me that God will give me strength and patience and help me to let go of my anger and resentment. Thank you!
I would appreciate it so much if you could pray for me and my DH. We have hit a rough patch in the road and I really need your prayers.
DH has been mostly out of work since before DD was born (9 mos.+) He gets random hours/days here and there but mostly unemployment checks. He is a carpenter so this is kind of the way it goes... but it is hard on a family.
I am struggling because I really want to be home with DD and it literally breaks my heart to put in her in daycare and work 40 hours a week but it is a necessity, especially now that DH is not working full time. I have always wanted to be a SAHM but we decided when I was pregnant, before DH lost his job, that I would need to keep working for a little while. We had hoped however, that his job would keep going strong and I would be able to leave my full time job and work from home or work part time.
The fact that I am working and he is not is starting to make me very resentful and bitter towards him. I am angry that he is not trying to find a new job and only applying for "dream" jobs in the field he wants to be in (videography) instead of just finding another construction job to pay the bills. He is upset with me as well because he feels that we are getting by ok on his unemployment and I should just be content with that. But it is killing me inside to drop DD off at daycare every morning and go to a job that is very stressful, where I am swore at, screamed at, or have my life (verbally) threatened (...and I do not exaggerate) all day long, when he barely has to go to work at all.
All of this has lead to a point where we argue all the time and I can barely be in the same room as him without wanting to break down and cry. I am having a very hard time respecting him as the head of the family and deeply resent being forced into the position of the only full time worker. I don't know how to change this so I have to give it to God and ask him to change my heart. I want to be a loving, understanding and patient wife to him but I am failing miserably.
Please pray for me and for my family. Please pray that either DH gets a new job or that the job he has starts having work for him again. Please pray for me that God will give me strength and patience and help me to let go of my anger and resentment. Thank you!
