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happysmileylady 08-23-2012 10:32 PM

I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
This is baby #4 for me. This is my 3rd pregnancy in 4 years. Like each of the others, this pregnancy is not complicated. I am pretty much as low risk as they come, I don't deal with tons of puking or even minor complications.

Which all serves to make me feel SO guilty when I whine and complain.

BUT, I am SO SO SO over this. My back hurts. All the time. There is no comfortable position. I do deal with a touch of sciatica, but nothing like I know it could be. But I am tired of my back hurting.

My hips hurt. They have for months now. It's as if the moment two lines showed up on the test, they started splitting.

I officially have surpassed my highest weight ever. And for me, the actual number on the scale makes no difference. It is NOT the weight itself, it's that I can FEEL all the heaviness. I feel the weight in my knees and in my legs and feet. And not just the heavy, the big too. The maternity clothes I have been wearing are getting too small. And what sucks the most about this is, I am still considered small. My total weight gain is low, I do not look as far along as I am, and from behind you can't even tell I am pregnant. I started this larger than I am used to, due to the other pregnancies so close together, and I am fine with that, but since I was so small before I got pregnant 4 years ago, EVERYONE insists on telling me how small I am. Reletively speaking, maybe. But right now at this moment, I am over 50lbs more than I weighed 5 yrs ago before I started popping out kids. Yes, even now lots of it is pregnancy weight, but it's SO uncomfortable and I don't look or feel like me.

I am SO freaking tired ALL the time. My house is a disaster because I don't have the energy to spend doing ALL the cleaning and I don't have the energy to continually nag DH to do it or help. He WILL do it if I ask, I just don't even have the energy to ask. I don't have the energy to be constantly picking up the blankets that DD2 pulls off the back of the couch to create forts with, or carrying the rocking horse back to its spot when they are done, because the two little ones can't get it back into it's "parking spot." And when he gets home, hes too freaking tired to be thoughtful enough to just see the mess that needs to be cleaned.

And even aside from the cleaning, I just want to lump around all day. There are 2 yrs between DD2 and DD3 and there will be 2 yrs between DD3 and this baby boy. I feel like just as I started to get FULLY recovered and able to settle in a routine and get things on track, I got pregnant again and it just threw everything off all over again.

Then, to top everything off...The entire world just irks me off. I am so b****y and nasty and irritable and annoyed with every single blade of grass and cloud in the sky. And I hate the the very little bit of energy that I do have is so often spent being p****d off.

Oh, and, the freaking contractions. I have been having contractions every day since before halfway through. That's common for my pregnancies and there's nothing to worry about...they aren't DOING anything, they aren't regular and they are very random. But they are VERY intense, they make me stop and breath through them. They hurt. They scare me for real labor..if these nothing contractions hurt so bad, how awful are real ones going to be? Espeically since I tend to have such long labors anyway.

And I am tired of peeing every 10 minutes too. How on earth can I stay hydrated if I am feeling like I am peeing it out as I am drinking it in?

I absolutely am excited to have another child. I would just really really like to skip this whole pregnancy and labor and delivery and even newborn stage. I am just so freaking over the whole thing.

palsmama 08-23-2012 10:39 PM

Re: I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
I swear I could have written this exact post!!! Lol. Except this is only my second baby. But everything else is me!! Lol. We can agonize together! Big hugs! Hang in there!

happysmileylady 08-23-2012 10:53 PM

Re: I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
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Originally Posted by palsmama (Post 15585476)
I swear I could have written this exact post!!! Lol. Except this is only my second baby. But everything else is me!! Lol. We can agonize together! Big hugs! Hang in there!

At least we aren't alone!:blush:

I just don't want to do it anymore. I wanna stop the ride and get off.

kymdenise 08-24-2012 06:42 AM

Re: I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
I get it too.. I have 6 and a half more weeks, and I'm over it. My hips and lower back are such a mess, that I really struggle to even roll over in bed. I'm small also, and am SICK of people telling me how easy it must be for me, that they were just huge and blah blah blah. Well, my insides are a mess, and this sweet baby is so strong that he/she makes my SKIN burn when he/she stretches..

boekesec 08-24-2012 09:15 AM

Re: I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
I could have written everything exactly like you did - especially the part about FEELING big, even though everyone tells me I'm small. It's so uncomfortable, and when my maternity clothes started getting too small I definitely had a crying breakdown :blush: I am so thankful for this baby and excited to have her, but pregnancy has been SO much harder this time around and I'm ready to be done too. Not something I would complain about publicly, but you ladies all understand and it feels good to commiserate!!

amb2j 08-24-2012 09:25 AM

Re: I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
You and I are on the SAME PAGE!!! And Im only 3 months along!! I dont have complicated pregnancies, just LOTS of braxton hicks (from 6 months) DAILY, long labors, and I am SO irritated at everything! (I felt myself getting FURIOUS last night b/c the bath mat was moist!! Its a bath mat! thats what is for lol!!) and tired all.the.time.

Im right there with you with skipping pregnancy/newborn stage and just handing me my potty trained 2 year old lol or 6 month old at the least!!!! Im SO happy you have a place to VENT and feel supported! Dont feel guilty about it! Just b/c your pregnancy may not be complicated, doesnt mean its not hard on you!!!

photocowgirl 08-24-2012 05:06 PM

Re: I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
Yup.

Took dd to a hairdresser today and she recognized me from church as the lady that looked so exhausted... I usually just do all the housework as the SAHM and don't bug dh but lately I've been really mean and just telling him to do stuff... even my poor girls know mommy's done - if she tells you to do something - you best do it...

alaskamum 08-24-2012 10:02 PM

Re: I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
I hear ya. Baby will be #3; my oldest will be 3 1/2 when the baby is born. I am so ready to be done being pregnant.

I'm pretty much annoyed at everyone and everything. The hormones have really gotten to me this time. Where would I even begin...

Well I'll just share that I'm super annoyed about this wedding I am going to on the Sunday of Labor Day weekend. I'll be 35 weeks. It's a vegan wedding, which I don't mind, but they are the type of vegans who won't come to my house b/c we eat meat and they can't stand to be around us. They're very holier than thou about the whole thing. But it's my brother, so I kind of have to go.

And my pelvis is killing me. And the baby thinks she is Chuck freaking Norris in there.

photocowgirl 08-25-2012 06:50 AM

Re: I know I have 2 more months yet, but I am DONE!
 
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Originally Posted by alaskamum (Post 15590211)
And the baby thinks she is Chuck freaking Norris in there.

Bwah:giggle: oh it makes me laugh

EuphoricDysphoria 08-25-2012 10:07 AM

I feel the same way! I'm high risk (placenta abrupt ion) and honestly I'm so over it. All the appointments, nurses calling and panic everytime I go to the bathroom. To top it off the back and hip pain and contractions.

I'm so done.


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