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kaylabelle05 11-14-2012 03:27 PM

Ramblings of a pregnant woman
 
So as we start into our 3rd trimester, I had some thoughts. I just feel like I am not ready.

I have slowly been getting things ready because I am afraid of what is going to happen as Squishy gets bigger. I know that once "he" gets big enough to be able to hit my kidney, things are going to be BAD. DD enjoyed using my kidney as a kicking bag once she settled into place. Made for fun times.

So I am almost done getting the necessary things. I already set up the changing table and prepped the diapers. I just ordered some more covers as I don't feel a dozen is enough (I will be in and out of the house a lot this time, and need them prepared). I have some pad covers in my cart on Amazon and that is all I have left. I didn't use a changing table (nor even buy one) with DS or DD because #1: no room and #2: I used my bed. But now I have room and I have a bed frame and cannot change Squishy on DH's side as my side will have the crib side-car'ed.

I also put together the crib. We have a MUCH taller bed this time and the crib on the top level is not tall enough. I thought about just having 2 mattresses but a friend suggested making the crib taller to be safer. But I don't know how to do that safely......... ETA: Learned that buying bed risers is a suggestion that a lot of parents do to raise up the crib.

After I put everything together and made it all nice and neat, I looked at it and I just cannot believe that I am going to have a baby for it. I wanted a baby for so long and now it is finally going to happen. Every day I feel Squishy kick (except when it is painful) is just wonderful. Even though I am having another kidney stone pregnancy, having had done this before plus having MUCH better doctor's and DH, I am relishing every moment.

When I thought I could not get pregnant with IVF, I thought my wish of having more kids was gone. I wavered on having a 3rd off and on because of my health, DS's issues from his brain damage, and DD's genetic connective tissue disorder. But I never once imagined that kidney stones were going to be an issue. Now that I have had a 2nd stone pregnancy, I do not want to have to put myself, my family, or another baby to the medicine that goes along with it. I could not imagine choosing another pregnancy knowing that stones will be there. So I am trying to get DH to get snipped as DH says I need to get a hysterectomy (I hope he is joking). I wanted at least 4 kids, possibly 5.

Every day I am in pain. Some days it is bearable and some days it isn't. I delay taking pain meds as long as possible because I hate taking them. I take them only when not taking them is worse than the side effects of the pain meds. I hate being woozy, I hate that I have to time things perfectly to make sure I don't get BAD heartburn, I hate not being able to parent correctly, I hate the side effects from the pain meds, and I hate that this is my only option. After what happened last week, I know I can't delay taking the pain meds because the pain may spike and then I get another L&D/ER visit.

Am I the only one having this hard of pregnancy? Am I the only one who wishes it was over 3 months ago?

Mummandherboys 11-15-2012 09:46 AM

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Oh Mama...I am so sorry it's been so rough for you :( I understand to a degree... but not to your extent...I hope that you will be able to keep yourself physically and emotionally well for the rest of the pregnancy. Just in the last week or so, I have turned a corner and am feeling really "off". I don't have enough energy...and since my varicose veins are worse yet this time around, I am thinking it's a big circulation issue :( I am really crabby and irritable and to make things worse, my third son has just been so awful lately...(terrible 3's!!) he refuses to use the potty often and I am so tired of cleaning up his messes...both potty messes and him getting into my makeup/jewelry...tissues down the bathroom sink at 4am, clogging the sink and flooding the bathroom and the carpet that is in there! :( :( Seriously I am just weary...but I know it's also just getting harder on my body now. I am trying to stay well physically and emotionally for this little one...but so wish my parents were close by and could help me at this stage! Thanks for letting me vent a bit too... for the most part I am hanging in there...but I am struggling more now than before for sure.

kaylabelle05 11-15-2012 01:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Mummandherboys (Post 15935929)
Oh Mama...I am so sorry it's been so rough for you :( I understand to a degree... but not to your extent...I hope that you will be able to keep yourself physically and emotionally well for the rest of the pregnancy. Just in the last week or so, I have turned a corner and am feeling really "off". I don't have enough energy...and since my varicose veins are worse yet this time around, I am thinking it's a big circulation issue :( I am really crabby and irritable and to make things worse, my third son has just been so awful lately...(terrible 3's!!) he refuses to use the potty often and I am so tired of cleaning up his messes...both potty messes and him getting into my makeup/jewelry...tissues down the bathroom sink at 4am, clogging the sink and flooding the bathroom and the carpet that is in there! :( :( Seriously I am just weary...but I know it's also just getting harder on my body now. I am trying to stay well physically and emotionally for this little one...but so wish my parents were close by and could help me at this stage! Thanks for letting me vent a bit too... for the most part I am hanging in there...but I am struggling more now than before for sure.

Oh yuck! I can't imagine having to deal with a ramunctious toddler and be tired from pregnancy.

I am trying to stay well. I am eating well, drinking a LOT of water, going to bed early, taking naps when I have to, make the kids or DH do things for me and let everything wait if it is not important. Thank goodness next week the kids have off for Thanksgiving; I get to sleep!

mrsbesky 11-27-2012 09:36 AM

Re: Ramblings of a pregnant woman
 
Thanks for sharing your stories ladies. I have felt like life is against me this whole pregnancy. I made me feel slightly comforted that I'm not alone. I havn't had trouble with kidney stones, but I had a friend who did. I can't imagine adding that pain to pregnancy.
I feel like I've needed a place to just vent for months were someone would understand... so here goes.

I guess my problems started over a year ago when we were told dd#3's heart had stopped beating, and we had a miscarrage. When I went back for my followup appointment something was wrong with my overies, we were told that it would be unlikely that we could get pregnant again. A double whammie in the painful info department.

In July I got sooo sick that I couldn't manage to get out of bed. I ended up in the hospital for dehydration and was given meds to stop the vomiting. Their diagnosis... your pregnant. I was so excited and surprised and scared! I was so sick that I was sure that I would miscarry again. They sent me home with more meds and instructions to drink as much water as possable. Which I did, and finally at around 15 weeks the constant nausea started letting up. In the mean time I began visiting a ton of specialists, one for my out of wack thyroid, and for my vision that randomly kept disappearing. We finally were able to get those mostly under control. Then the real trouble began.

I began having extream pain in my abdomin. My first instinct was to assume that I was having a miscarrage so I made an apointment with my doctor. Praise the Lord the baby was fine, but I had finally streatched beyond what my body could handle (I started showing at 12 weeks) and I was only 20 weeks. I have an abdominal wall hernia, starting about a half inch below my belly button (which is completly insisde out) to about 4inches above it, and the tendons on the left side of my abdomin and baisicly swiss cheese. For the most part that means not much is holding the baby up. Walking is extreamly painful, and feels almost impossable at times. I have an appt. with a specialist to repaire it after the baby is born, and to make sure natural labor is even possable. I feel so useless, I can't do laundry, or clean the house, I can't take care of my children like I want to. Christmas is coming and if it wasn't for online shopping my kids wouldn't have anything. I have to depend on my husband for everything, and I feel horrable that I can't take care of those things for him so he doesn't have to worry about it.

The last straw came at my 28 week appt. yesterday. Not only is my blood pressure rising again (i had preeclamsia with dd1), but my normally low blood sugar is up. I failed the one hour gestational diabeties test. I have to take the test again tomorrow. It was a really what else could go wrong moment.

Have you ever watched "The Princess Bride" you know when they are in the fire swamp and Princess Buttercup says.. "I fear we will never survive" in that hopless tone? Thats how I feel. Hopless!

sorry for the long vent. I don't wish the pregnancy was over 3 months ago, but if we could skip to February, that would be perfect!

newtocloth2 11-28-2012 02:04 PM

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