06-30-2011, 08:22 PM
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: MB, Canada
Re: Happy 1st Birthday JuneBugs!!
The bleeding didn't really progress like I thought it would - really just red spotting through the late morning and early afternoon, stopped from about 3pm on, but just came again now, same red spotting. So while it's not the bleeding I expected (yet), I'm sure it is a loss. I just don't like that it's carrying on - just start and get it over with.
I'm having a stupid rough time of it. I would think the 4th time would be... I dunno, easier somehow? But for some reason I was convincing myself that surely it wouldn't happen again and everything would be fine. It's just crushing me.
It's always hard to make a choice in the midst of things... but I do remember the time TTC Levi, the 3 losses that came, and I don't know if I'm strong enough right now to go through that again. I am debating going to my Dr at the beginning of next week for bc pills. Even just taking them for 6 months would give me that time to gain strength and courage to face this again. Obviously I'll be thinking about it more over the weekend.
Momma to R (11)
, Z (9)
, I (8)
, L (4)
, P (1)
& Apr '15
remembering Elliana Lucy (2.7.12)