[love2bmommy]

Like I said in my other thread, right now I'm having a 7-week miscarriage. As if it isn't hard enough dealing with that, my sister-in-law texted me this morning to announce that she's pregnant. I know that she doesn't know that we were pregnant or are having a loss, but still. I cannot even believe that I had to endure that announcement at the same time as I'm miscarrying or that I'll have to watch her be pregnant at the same time that I should have been. I just don't even know how I'm going to handle this.

Also, we took the kids out to eat because our power has been out due to a bad storm on Thursday. While we were out, I saw this hugely pregnant woman SMOKING A CIGARETTE. I just about lost it. I told DH, "Why does she get to be pregnant when that's what she's going to do? I've never even smoked a cigarette, but certainly wouldn't do it while I was pregnant, and I'm the one having a miscarriage?!" Life is just too cruel. I'm not a violent person, but I seriously wanted to punch that chick.

I just needed to vent. It feels like life is ganging up on me and sending me all kinds of things to just make this situation even more unbearable.