Frustration with my MW
I wanted to move this topic to a new thread so I didn't hijack the 1st appt thread. Hope you don't mind.
I think I agree with Janelle in her comment in the 1st appt thread.. I think I was just finding an excuse to channel my frustration with her that is NON MW related and more friend related. Let me explain. She is a sweet lady and she is a midwife to alot of CDing mom in town. Well, not alot. There are like 10 of us in my town. They get together every week at a park and have been doing this for years. Anyways, she has been friends with these ladies for a long time. I have only been in the picture for a few months. I knew about the group long ago but never came. So when I go to the play date at the park and the kids play and the moms get to talk. Her and a few of the girls have their "inside jokes" and they talk alot about things that happened years ago. It kinda makes me feel left out. It is all great to have those stories and reminisce but when there are others in the group who have no idea what you are talking about and you talk about these inside jokes, etc the WHOLE playdate. Well, how fun is that for us? Not fun at all.
Mainly, it is three of them that just chat and chat and chat the whole time. One lady has a husband that is pro-circ and pro-vaccine. She is anti both of them. So she talks a lot about her husband and what he says when they argue about this topic, etc. I don't know her husband or their situation so I feel so out of place and not really qualified to give my opinion.
One story that they ALWAYS laugh at is something about a lady and her husband went skinny dipping when they all went camping years ago and the other campers saw them naked. While the story is super funny. I wasn't there. It is not as funny to me as it is to them. Tell the story once but do we have to talk about it all the TIME!
Again, this is something that sounds soo silly and immature for me to be so upset about. But it really bothers me. I want to feel apart of the group and I don't. This has put a large barrier between us and it has caused me to not be able to have the relationship that I wish I did with her. If she is going to be my MW, I want to really get to know her! She seems to be able to connect with other ladies in the group, but I feel like she talks down to me every time she talks to me. Like, I am super unknowledgeable and dumb.
Is any of this even making sense? Is this a real concern or am I being just a super over dramatic pregnant lady? I think I am just rambling. DH is gone tonight at a rodeo and I am bored! :P
Nikki* wifey to Randy
and SAHM to Kiera 10/29/10
, missing my angel baby 06/11, and cautiously expecting another sweet baby June '12.