Re: I feel like a failure this time
I can't imagine what it is like having 4 kids at home and then having twins, and working full time. I do know what you mean about the c-section, I was so angry about that with my dd, I knew my body could deliver a baby and hadn't even thought that a c-section was a possiblitly to me. It took time to get over the idea that I didnt get to have my daughter the way I wanted to, and what really helped me was time. As she got bigger and other things became more important to me than how she got here.
I hope that going back to work and counsiling help. Sending lots of hugs your way!