Re: Mourning a different type of loss...
I'm so, so sorry for all you've been through - I agree with others that what you're feeling is perfectly natural given what you've endured. Wish I could offer any kind of advice - but hugs and prayers are yours.
Grateful mama to earth-baby DD2 (9/2011)
missing spirit-baby DD1 (9/2009, 3rd trimester) and the little ones who only stayed a few weeks
*hoping she returns when we start TTC in late January of '15!*
"Death can't stop True Love - it can only delay it for a while." - The Princess Bride