Re: lost my hbac.....:-(
Hang in there. Are you really out of options? I've found that if you're willing to look "underground" you can usually find someone willing to help you out. Just because your state may not allow them to be licensed, doesn't necessarily mean that they aren't well qualified and experienced.
I had a HBAC 2 1/2 years ago and am planning another HBAC this time around, and I've had to do a lot more searching this time since we will be moving to another state before this baby is born.
Even if you really can't find someone to take on a HBAC, you can still have a great hospital VBAC!