Are you sure it is ppd?? I thought it for myself too but in the end it was D-MER. Can you check their website and see if you feel as described? Knowing what it is made me feel better. I know my SIL stopped bf'ing due to ppd and still cannot forgive herself for it. Her doctor just put her on meds without therapy and she was miserable for a long time.
I'm sorry mamma. I can imagine that whatever you're going thru is hard. *hugs*
Never mind the typos. My "smart" phone is a high school drop out..