[keonli]

I really miss the feeling of spending and not worrying. We're still surrounded by people who can spend as they please and it makes us self-conscious when we have to decline on going out or small trips because we can't afford it. I mean, yes, we probably can if we spent the way they did and didn't worry about savings or paying bills on time, but that's not my style.

And I hate the fact that after all this time with budgeting, I cannot spend money on myself without feeling guilty and worrying about the "what ifs".