[mamaerinx3]

I thought this would be a good place to vent and find some support so here is my story.
I am the proud mother of three awesome kiddos...unfortunately the timing wasn't always so awesome so when baby #3 came and my doc kept offering it (he started the day I came in prego with #2...should've run!) I bit. I'm sure it was mostly my hormones and my panic talking but I went ahead and had my tubes tied when #3 was born even though I was a little hesitant. She is 4 now. I have been waiting for this "baby fever" to pass and I am still heartbroken. Whenever anyone gets pregnant or has a baby I feel terrible...sad, jealous, angry...mostly at myself for creating this situation. I feel aweful and guilty that these are my feelings. I know how very blessed I am with the children I have, I have a sister-in-law and brother-in-law who have been waiting for a baby for nearly five years and I feel so selfish.
Has anyone else ever gone through this? I'd love some words of wisdom...or any support
Thanks mamas!