I'm sorry my 7 year old was recently diagnosed and has since started medication and it has been life changing, not only for him but our whole household.
I can totally relate to your feelings regarding your parenting. Hugs. I felt that way for many years. I hope you find something that works for your family.
Lindsay- wife to my Soldier & SAHM to Gavin 3/06 Liam 5/09 and Collin 8/12