11-09-2012, 08:38 AM
Join Date: Sep 2007
Location: MB, Canada
Re: Pregnancy After Loss (November)
Sarah - I kwym about not fully trusting that.
Originally Posted by yellowitchgrl
Hey, still chugging along here. Everything still seems to be okay, although I can't ever seem to fully trust that. Still I'm preparing and all that.
Still thinking about all of you and praying for you!
I'm glad you're preparing and that things are going well for you!
Yup, Levi is nearly 2.5... and rotten as all get-out! And, yes, he was my wee Nudge!
Originally Posted by PaisleyDeann
Of course I remember you!!!!!!! So you must have an almost 2.5 year old, I remember you called that little baby nudge right?!?! I do remember last year you were a junebug and I was in the July group and I ended up reading about your loss with Elli :'( I am so sorry
I am so thankful to see you back here! So when are you due?
Thank you. Losing Elli was the hardest thing I've ever lived through. This pregnancy, honestly, is a close second so far. It's been really tough, and is definitely our last pregnancy no matter the outcome.
I'm due April 14th with this Babe. So far things seem... okay... I guess. I haven't been to my Dr for any appts yet. I have a ton of anxiety about going back to his office - the last time I was in there was when we got and read over the initial u/s report for Elliana. But I plan to go sometime next week after I get all this bday stuff out of the way.
I likely will get referred for the 20wk u/s then, and have anxiety about that too - I just need to see a healthy, moving baby on that screen.
The big thing with Elliana was lack of movement - I knew what I was feeling (just little bumps here and there, never kicks or wiggles) wasn't normal, wasn't what I'd felt with any of my other babies. And I had a strange feeling the whole pregnancy that something wasn't right.
So this time, movement has been a HUGE thing for me. I have felt Babe move and it is definitely different than with Elli... yet it doesn't feel the same as with the others either - although I keep telling myself that it likely is, I'm just remembering things differently this time.
This morning I was poking and rubbing Babe, trying to get him to move - he doesn't "wake up" when I do in the mornings, like the other babies always did. So I was bugging him and getting no response, as usual. Finally I gave up - then felt 4 or 5 kinda... rippling bumps - a bump started and then moved across my belly - and then one big shove on one side.
I'm still that things are okay in there. I don't have much hope... but I'm and , if that makes any sense.
Momma to R (11)
, Z (9)
, I (8)
, L (4)
, P (1)
& Apr '15
remembering Elliana Lucy (2.7.12)