Re: wavering between did I cause this and I expected it...loss
If not being immediately jazzed about a pregnancy or nursing while pregnant could cause miscarriage, there would be a hell of a lot more of them. THIS IS NOT YOUR FAULT.
Massive hugs. We will grieve with you, even if your dh is being a doodie head.
Grateful mama to earth-baby DD2 (9/2011)
missing spirit-baby DD1 (9/2009, 3rd trimester) and the little ones who only stayed a few weeks
"Death can't stop True Love - it can only delay it for a while." - The Princess Bride