Re: Am I Horrible?
No! Of course not Deciding how many children to have and when to have them is a most personal decision. You went through a lot and your concern is for her too. I had similar fears. How would I take care of LO1 if I was that sick again. Maybe you can sit down with your DH and just tell him you are not saying never just not right now. You are just not ready. Maybe you will change your mind and maybe you won't. That is your choice.
Just in case.