Re: Am I terrible because...
I'm in kind of the opposite position. I wish I could talk myself into the epi! It would be so nice in so many ways (I've had 1 epi birth and 4 med-free). But I just have this thing with needles, so I just can't will myself to get one without some stronger reason for needing one.
There is nothing wrong with getting an epi if it is what you want. You absolutely should go with what you are comfortable with.
One option you could consider would be reading up on non-medication coping techniques . When you go into labor, you can use those until you feel ready for the epi. Just an idea :-)
~Amy, Loving wife to E and Happy mama to
K 4/04, L 11/05, E 8/07, V 1/10, J 10/11, E 5/13, and Chapter 7 6/15