ok this is going to sound stupid but...
I've always admired the leaving it up to God thing and felt it was right but was never brave enough myself well after dd 2 I had ppd badly and dh was soooooo done and got the v :/ in my heart I keep thinking I STILL want to leave it up to God but we have this v thing so pregnancy is not likely is it wierd that Ive started to pray and say to God that if he wants I am willing? Like I said I know its not likely but I am willing. Does this count as at least being open yo life even though dh to drastic measures I hope the intent of my heart comes through and God knows I regret a decision made during the hardest portion of my life. Ugh I'm not sure what I mean by posting this it all looks so silly typed out!
to my hard working oil patch hunny hershal
mama to abigail 2-12-10
and big sis elizabeth 4-21-03