Re: Am I terrible because...
Why not just keep an open mind?
If the pain gets too great, just ask for the epidural! Let your midwives or nurses know your "plan". I just gave birth at the end Dec, and had planned on all natural birth but wasn't hell bent on it. Good thing too... My water broke, then was in labor for 36+ hours and wasn't dilating like I should. At first, I stuck it out, then opted for Fentanyl ( which barely did anything), then wound up with oxytocin and an epidural. Thank god for the epidural. The epidural allowed me to rest pain-free so I could actually push effectively later... no side effects from the epidural and I was able to stand relatively soon after... wish I had the epidural after 10 hrs of labor!!