Re: Am I terrible because...
I think you should do what you want. I chose a homebirth and had a great experience, I wasn't in excruciating pain. It was tough but not terrible and I really loved the experience. But I certainly don't blame anyone for choosing an epidural.
Personally they freak me out plus I have a fractured vertebra and I don't trust anyone to put a needle in my spine. So since I was terrified of an epidural it just made sense to do it at home.
E, wife to my rock, S 2009 Mama to DD 1/13