Re: Am I terrible because...
Your baby, your body, your birth
How can you make yourself want a natural birth? You can read lots of affirming and happy natural birth stories. You can read all the side effects and risks of the drugs and interventions in medicalized birth. You can read stories of women who are affected by the possible permanent side effects of the drugs. You could do none of these things and still determine within yourself that you will do it anyway for whatever reasons you deem valid.
I, however, would probably start with reading the affirming natural childbirth stories.
Veann - Libertarian, atheist, bookworm, heavy metal Mommy to all boys: Lucius (2-13-09), Orion (4-22-11), and Castiel (3-4-13), wife to Matthew - Anti-circumcision, babywearing, somewhat AP, natural birthing/ homebirthing, don't care about being "green", doing things my own way...