Re: Am I terrible because...
Thanks for the replies. I did want natural at first but now that we know the baby has a cleft palate and all, I just want to focus on the baby and breastfeeding. I don't really care so much now about a natural birth. Also I don't know if I can handle the pain, I couldn't the first time though my labour started off at 5 mins apart and was doing nothing. I was going to give birth with a midwife at the local hospital but I've heard horror stories about their anesthesiologist and so now I'm thinking of going back to the hospital an hour away where I had my daughter. It'll also depend of course on what resourses are available where for our baby. I had a great experience with my epi and was able to go to the bathroom on my own soon after. I just want that again.