Big big hugs mama. I also just went through this in September. Baby died at 6 weeks and didn't find out until almost 10 and baby miscarried at 10 1/2. It was torture waiting and feeling pregnant...very emotional. I have to say though that I am glad I waited and let it happen naturally. We were told we didn't have to wait to try and didn't but I didn't end up getting pregnant right away. I never lost the fear. I am 6w5d now and trying hard to stay positive, but its really hard not to think the worst. I have an us tomorrow and if I get good news, I hope I will relax a little more.
Danielle, happy wife and Mommy to B, A and newbie J!