no advice but I'm having some of the same feelings of dread. feeding ds was a nightmare at first, bad latch and thrush. I was bleeding, I cried every time he needed to nurse. for a few Weeks I had to pump one side because my tissue was so sore. somehow we made it through that (with a good lactation consultant) but I really think it contributed to my post partum depression.
I'm just hoping it is a little easier next time around