Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: Georgetown, TX
I've decided to get a new doc
Ok, maybe this should be more of a vent, but I'm just trying to work through things in my own brain! LOL! I'm copy/pasting from somewhere else I wrote this. I'm too nauseated at the moment to rewrite it! (that's gotta be a good sign)
Actually, I agree that they should have seen something on the u/s. at 5w1d I had blood work, and I was at 1145. then, 1 1/2 weeks later, that's when i got the emergency u/s. I was measured at being 5w3d on that ultrasounds, which means that my bloodwork was 1145 at 4w1d, instead of 5w1d (which is where it was supposed to be at 5w1d.... does that make sense?)...
Either way, between the 10 days from the blood work to the ultrasound, there should have been higher than 1500, therefore, showing a baby in the sac, along with a heartbeat, but all we got was a sac with a yolk sac, measuring 5w3d (when i should ahve been 6w3d)...
So, I have made my f/u u/s for Monday morning at 7:30am CST. I'm not sure I'm gonna go to it though, because if I can get another doctor to get me in sooner, then I'm going to go with the other doctor. I was considering changing doctors anyway, to someone closer, and then through all of this, I have decided that changing doctors is the best option for me. When I started seeing my doctor with Robynne, she was very compassionate, and I was in there every 2 weeks from the time I found out I was pg until I started going weekly! They all know me, and I was so excited to be going there...
However, when I went in for my first appt, I found out that the nurse that I knew well wasn't there anymore (she never came back from her maternity leave) and there was a new nurse. She seemed nice, but couldn't answer any of my questions. She even figured my EDD wrong by LMP! (5w1d). Then I went back a week 1/2 later and that's when I got to see my doc, had my pap, etc. She said that my uterus felt (after asking) like I was 5-6wks, instead of 6-7. I had to ask her though, she didn't just tell me the info (like she USED to when I was pg with Robynne). Well, then I waited for my rhogam shot, and the nurse (a different one) gave me my paperwork for the ER U/S and to check out at the front desk. So I check out, and the receptionist said "ok, thanks!" and I was like "don't I need to make an appointment" and she looked down and said "nope, no follow up appointment needed" WTF?? if we're loosing this baby, I AT LEAST deserve the common curtasy of having a SIT DOWN discussion with my DOCTOR to discuss what steps to take next. If it's not viable, I want a D&C, I want them to do any and all genetic testing they can do. I want them to test me, DH, the baby, WHATEVER! Also, when am I supposed to discuss my options, since if this is a loss, it's my 3rd?!? They never tested my progesterone (which I've been told can cause red spotting). They haven't done any OTHER testing AT ALL! They haven't wanted to do blood draws for HCG! I mean, how the hell hard is it to put in lab work for me to do blood work? I mean, if it SHOWS the HCG is going down, then guess what! That's MY ANSWER! no waiting forever and a day to figure it out, and I would rather know by lowering HCG than by seeing an empty sac on an u/s....kwim??
Also, I'm upset not only that she didn't want to see me back, BUT that she didnt' even call me to give me the u/s results. The Nurse did! I understand that nurses do a lot of the doctor's calls about lab results, etc, but seriously! She KNOWS how high risk I am, I had questions and the nurse couldn't anser them. I asked her what to look for (as far as a farthur along m/c goes, since my last one was at 5 weeks, and was just like a really heavy and painful period) and she was like "bleeding" and I was like "yea, i'm doing that!" I mean, I KNOW that they probably get spotting questions all the time, but COME ON! I'M HIGH RISK, I'M BLEEDING RED, AND I'M MEASURING A WEEK BEHIND! They're not doing anything to try to comfort me, trying to alleavate my fears, anything at all. Matter of fact, i kinda felt like she was annoyed (my doctor) because I was there for a pg, and wasn't as far as I should be. I mean, when it seemed like everything was ok (when she first walked in the room) everything was cool, but then when she did my exam, and found I was smaller, and bleeding, then i kinda got the impression that it was like "UGH, here we go again!" I LOVE my ob, but seriously, i feel really uncomfortable and stuff there now. If they can't take the time to discuss my options (if it's viable then blah blah blah, if it's not viable then blah blah blah). She could have at LEAST made a follow up appoinment. EVEN after my u/s showed a 5w3d "healthy pregnancy" (in the nurses words) then she STILL didn't make another appointment with me. so if it's not viable, am I gonna have to drag myself into her office and beg to be seen so that I can get a D&C? I don't want to m/c naturally, I want genetic testing, and I want to make sure they "have what they need" in order to do that. With Hope, they coudlnt' even really get a good keryotype because it was SO HARD getting anything to give off results. FINALLY they went back through the autopsy stuff and finally they were able to get an OK keryotype, but as far as any other genetic tests, they couldnt' get any of it done from her at all!
Add that to tthe fact that with all the stupid construction around the Austin area, it takes me FOREVER to get there now. There is a really cool doc office RIGHT next to our local hosptial here in the town I live in. I know exactly where it's at, and it doesnt' take long to get there at all! I am thinking of calling them tomorrow, explaining everything, and trying to get in by the end of the week. I had my u/s a week ago. They should be able to see some growth by now. Even if they don't see a baby or a heartbeat yet, they SHOULD see growth in the sac. If there is no growth in the sac, then we have my answer. If I can get blood work done Wed and then Fri, then we'll know if they're going up at all, if they're not going up, if they're going down, or if they're already abnormally low, or if they're in the right range for where I should be.
Anyway, that is what is going on with me right now. I feel nauseated, so that's a good sign. bleh! I go from having NO red spotting to LOTS of red spotting, back to none at all. I get crampy, then no cramps. I have been getting nauseated all day. I was up 400 tiems to pee last night, but I think I drank a gallon of water after 8pm (i CRAVE water at night, it seems...grrr). My boobs hurt worse today than they have on any other day! I think these are good signs, but I would REALLY like a confirmation of that, ya know? I'm tired of being like "well, IF there's a baby" or completely forgetting I'm pregnant all together. I KNOW tehre are no guarentees on if you see a hb at 6 weeks or so, but it would make me feel so much better right now to know if there's even a CHANGE or growth at all!
Anyway, if you made it this far, thanks for reading! I will keep you all up to date about what is going on, if I get into the new doc, etc!
HUGS! and thanks so much!
:Mommy to ^Hope Kristen^ s/b 07/04/02; London Victoria
06/13/03; m/c 08/24/04; Robynne Jolee
07/01/05; m/c 09/15/06
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