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Old 11-20-2013, 09:36 AM   #25
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Originally Posted by Ber10512 View Post
I appreciate the honesty here, more than you all may ever know! I've been feeling some tiny bumps and flutters for the past couple of days, and it has definitely improved my mood some.

I think the hardest part for me has been "mourning" the loss of our non-parent selves. We had such a great time being married, just us - fun vacations and weekend getaways with just a carry-on full of clothes in tow, a great sex life, weekends at the bar drinking/dancing, I was happy with my body - and in the blink of an eye with some pee on a stick, that's all gone now. Haha. All good things must come to an end! But as much as I thought I was ready to give all that up, it was a lot harder than I imagined. I'm looking forward to the new experiences of parenthood, and trying not to idealize the past - because I know that had its low points too. But I am definitely ready to find fun again, this pregnancy has sucked all of the fun out of me.

Life isn't easy.
I went through a really really hard period of mourning our pre-baby relationship after DS was born. It was about sleepless night #5 and I just sat in bed sobbing because I felt like I would never be able to just plop into bed and spend an hour laughing with DH before we fell sleep.

Our lives aren't the same but they aren't worse. DS sleeps now and he doesn't scream all the time. Our lives have a new rhythm and we started spending that hour laughing together before sleep almost a year ago already.
Emma H&T Mama to Faolan 6/7/12 & Malachy 1/29/14
Mary born into heaven at 14 weeks
Cautiously expecting #4 10/6/16
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