ugh venting (( long sry ))

[xoxCoralxox]

So my mom and little brother live down in FL .
I only see them maybe once a year....well she came up here for a month..
mostly to see the kids and such.... her first week was ok ....... but shes
a 360 of how she raised me to how shes raising my lil brother....
he is a out of control little boy and needs a good smack on the butt
( and i dont like hitting , hardly do it myself ) he is nuts ...rude ....gross and just a demon child......

like he went into my back yard and took a crap on the grass.....why ? WHO KNOWS.... the toilet is like 30 ft from the back door....then of course DD1 unknowing steps in it and ruined her new like 15 min old shoes....

and no offence but i rather clean off dog crap or something off my daughters shoe but HUMAN poop its just....wrong.... and what did my mother do about it ??? NOTHING.... she just laughed.....its like WTF ?

i cant handle her , never was close with my mom i was pretty much on my own since i was 6 ( no joke )


anyways..... theres been $$ prob recently because DH hates his job and is taking time off mon and tue to get his math upgraded to get into school.... well because hes only working 3 days a week $$ is very low , and we cant do and do all this fun stuff with her and she blames me for all of it ( she HATES dh for who knows what reason , prob because shes a lonley stupid women and hates men cause noone wants her ) ugh anyways she took off for almost 2 weeks to visit my aunt .....then comes back takes DD1 out for the weekend ....but the min she shows up at my house shes got this discusted look on her face as if she hates life and crap.....


soo when she got back , the first thing she dose when i walk in the door is complain that my house is a mess , laundry isnt done , no clean towels , or blankets for the beds and no food in the house, ext ext ext ........

so i just lost it on her BAD....
- ive had a crazy 2 weeks between lossing my 15 weeks pregnancy then at the same time getting preggo and being 3 weeks ....having to take it easy
- money is tight ....dh and I have been at each other ....stress.....
- im super tired.....i get up at 5 am to get dh to work , kids to daycare , then drive down to the city for school....then home cook , try to clean , get kids and dh....
- do our bed time routine ...which is short cause kids are tired and have to wake up at 5 am so they get to bed early....
- im depressed when i dont get to spend time with them that much and i feel like im loosing them ....
- i dont keep the house full of food because there is no reason....we only eat dinner here , so i normally pick it up fresh from the store on my way home from school..
- i cant do laundry till late at night 7pm - 7am or else my hydro bill will sky rocket ( ontarios green energy saving plan thing ) or weekends ( when i normally do it all )


sigh.... then to have my mother come into my home and tell ME what todo and tell me in discusting and talk crap about DH in front of our kids ....i was appalled ....i told her to get the F out of my house..... so then of course she makes more stupid comments about " STOP GETTING PREGNANT " as if that has anything todo with money ( which it dosnt ) soo i just said fine be that way your out of our life ....nice knowing you.....she made more rude comments then blamed me for her having to leave....didnt even say bye to her " grand children " that she supposivly cares soo much for and its the reason she came up here.....ugh......

anyways....she left yesterday and im sooo bloody happy youve got no idea.... i just went on FB and im about to delete EVERYONE from my family because i hate them all..... and i know hearing that you might be thinking im over reacting .... but srsly if you new my family.....youd understand.....there all such backstabbers and talk soo much crap....my kids dont need to be involved.....and if they really think this baby is such a huge problem....well F them .... cause im also changing our # ....im done.....dropping off the face of the earth from EVERYONE in my family.....BLAH !!!!

[lecialefty]

It hurts when the people you need to be supportive the most aren't.

[lilbitcrunchy]

[xoxCoralxox]

Ugh ....sorry to vent to you girls.....

Im just so annoyed ....can't get it out of my head....

Anyways....I deleted about 30 family members and all family members friends.....
Ive tried my hole life to keep giving them chances , I'm just tired of it.
I don't need the crap or drama .... I don't need my kids growing up in a family were everyone talks behind everyone's back
Who makes up lies about someone else because there life is too boring.....which causes so much crap its stupid.
They don't deserve to know anything about us anymore....and they can all rot away in winder about this baby....that they all seem to think is a big mistake...... -grumble-

In the long run it's good for me to start this process now , because once we are done school we are looking into taking a job abroad ....
Or in another province at least....I'm slightly aiming for Auz. The starting pay there is anywhere from 100 - 150 a year....
Can you imagine 2 house hold incomes around that much ..... Sigh......


It's odd , you'd think I'd feel bad but I don't ....I'm THAT over it all....
I feel so much happier that I finally put my foot down.....the neg. Energy is finally out of my system ....

******Please excuse auto correct.....my iPad thinks it's smarter than me******

[CountryChicMama]

[mommie2avery]

Family can be the worst. I have aunts and uncles that my son knew for three years of his life but the last year I just said forget them. I am so tired for the two face-ness and just them not caring about other members of the family ( specifically their own mother). My son now doesn't even recognize their photos when he sees them. Is he hurting from it, nope.

[sheenashine]

I'm sorry mama. Family drama is a topic I am very familiar with... unfortunately. I pretty much cut my mom out of my life a little over a year ago. It's a long story, but the basic of it is she is an alcoholic. It just got to the point where having her in my life was bringing me nothing but heartache and anger, frankly, with 3 girls I have waaaaaay to much on my plate to put up with anything that doesn't positively affect our lives. It was a hard decision, and one I didn't take lightly or make when I was too emotionally charged to think rationally.
I hope your choice to cut out your mother will bring you peace.