Freaking out a little :(

[danimdel]

I just don't know what to think to think and just feeling down and lost right now. I had a 10 week miscarriage at the end of September that was just emotionally awful (duh) but I have been doing better. Af came 5 weeks later and DH and I decided not to prevent because even though I wasn't sure I was ready, it didn't make sense to us to prevent when a baby is what we really want. I hadn't thought too much about it but now I am on cd 23 and I feel like AF is about to start and I'm losing it . Before the mc AF I had 25 day cycles, but I'm not assuming it will be back to that yet. I will be so upset if AF shows and probably equally upset if I'm pregnant. I want a baby so badly but at the same time so afraid of being pregnant. This just sucks. It all just hit me this morning with this af feeling that there is no "right" answer

I'm not sure what I'm looking for...maybe just some virtual hugs or some btdt support? Anyone ever felt this? Thanks for reading.