Struggling As Wait For Miscarriage

[UneVieChic]

We found out Friday at about 8 1/2 weeks that the baby stopped developing at 5 1/2. So now we wait to miscarry. More pink and cramping today. I feel horrible wishing my body would just get it over with. But the being "pregnant" with a non-existent baby inside is making me feel at a loss as to how to explain to people what's going on.

I'm putting away the newborn stuff for now, the nursing pads, the newborn diapers, etc and just dealing with my 15 month old. How do I get over this fear that it will just happen again. We were told we could try after a full cycle, but right now with the waiting I just feel sort of hollow and hopeless. Haven't cried, using avoidance.

Just needed to vent.