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Old 12-08-2011, 04:15 PM   #1
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Unhappy How do you keep going? Update post 12

I know I haven't posted much. I've just been doing this for so long I try to ignore it or I go insane.

Yesterday I had my quant beta done at 13 dpi and it was a bfn
So I'm waiting for AF to begin to start the whole process over again...

I have been TTCing off and on for 5 years. I am SO sick and tired of this not working. I feel like I'm never going to get there.

I don't have the ability to conceive at home so each cycle is costing between $500 and $800 depending on the tests and medications. Where theres a will there's a way, but every extra dime is going towards trying to get pregnant and each time it's a BFN. I want another child and I know we'll never get there if I stop, but GEEZ! WHY!? What else am I suppose to do?

I have been on Clomid with each cycle. I used to get multiple follicles and my lining was okay. Now I'm getting one follicle each time and my lining is suffering. I don't even think the HCG trigger worked this time because my skin bubbled up where I injected it and I never got a pos OPK.

This is SUCH a roller coaster! Part of me thinks this is crazy to keep flushing all this money down the drain, but if I stop my son will never have a sibling and I will never have another baby.

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Old 12-08-2011, 04:22 PM   #2
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I'm so sorry you are having to go through this
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Old 12-08-2011, 05:01 PM   #3
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I'm so sorry, mama. It's not at all fair.
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mama. I know how you feel. It's so unfair.
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Old 12-08-2011, 06:22 PM   #7
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Re: How do you keep going?

how many cycles of clomid have you done? Have you talked to your doctor about a different method? There are lots more options out there than just clomid. Your body may need something different after doing the same thing over and over again.
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If you haven't already, check out the Struggles and Support forum. There you'll find other mamas who know the heartbreaking journey your on and who may have advice on how to increase your odds. Good luck and hugs mama.

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for you mama, that totally sucks...Keep up hope there is ALWAYS HOPE!
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