5th loss...struggling

[tazzae]

Last week I lost my 6th baby--5th pregnancy, this one started with 2--at 23 weeks. To put it lightly, I am really struggling. I had a placental hemorrhage and a lot of blood loss resulting in severe anemia (required a blood transfusion). Not only do I feel like hiding in bed all day crying, but I'm very weak. After 6 weeks of bedrest trying to save the pregnancy, my 'to do' list is long and I don't have the strength to do any of it. It's driving my crazy. Exercise is usually my saving grace and there's no way I can do it right now. This is all a jumble/rant..that's how my mind is right now. I'm also coming to terms with this being our last try, no more babies for me. We've been trying for #2 for the last 5 1/2 years. Dh and I feel like the risk to my health/life is too great to try again. Thanks for listening. I am having a hard to reaching out IRL, so very much appreciate this community.

[wordmama]

Oh mama, I'm so very sorry. It's a double blow when you're dealing with the loss of your baby and the dream of expanding your family all at once. I went through it after my ectopic, but after a period of grieving and praying, we decided to keep trying. I wish there was more that I could give you than this

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[saongiri]

I can't even imagine what you are going through. Be kind to yourself and give yourself time.

[neuro_mom]

Saying a prayer for you tonight.

[keen1981]

Biggest hugs to you mama.

[keen1981]

Biggest hugs to you mama.

[amyltc]

I'm so sorry

[slimy72]

I am so sorry. I can't even begin to imagine the pain and emotion all at once. Please don't be afraid to reach out to those around you whether it be in person or on this board. We may not have been through the same things but if you ever need a listening ear (or computer screen) I'm here. Huge hugs!

[lilylouhoo]

Don't push yourself! I am sure you want to do so many things and are sick of resting already but don't push yourself and make it worse. I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I'm sorry you didn't get to meet all your babies. We lost one a couple of years ago but I can't imagine losing that many or knowing this is the end if trying. I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for your recovery, physical and emotional.

[mclaybrook]