TTC After Loss Thread

[abhernandez]

Originally Posted by lilbitcrunchy Alice!! I've been thinking about you so much, glad to see you back around, although I'm so sorry you're on this side of TTC again

Check my siggie And how are you doing!!!???

Originally Posted by Harmony96 I had joined a February and a March FB group when I was due March 6th, but then when we lost him in December, I couldn't handle all the email notifications anymore so I turned them off. I knew the people still cared about me though so I didn't leave the groups entirely, and I wanted to eventually be able to be happy with them, when I could.

Originally Posted by brookglen If I may unload for a minute. Tomorrow I will be 5 weeks, 6 if we are going by my LMP. at any rate, it will be the exact day in which I lost my last pregnancy and I am in a really dark place. I am just dreading the rest of this week and seriously hoping I make it through unscathed.

I know the feeling. All the loss milestones are so so so hard. You'll make it. You will. Just keep yourself distracted. And try to get some good thoughts going to send to that baby bean that needs all the love it can get.

[lilbitcrunchy]

Originally Posted by abhernandez Check my siggie And how are you doing!!!??? I know the feeling. All the loss milestones are so so so hard. You'll make it. You will. Just keep yourself distracted. And try to get some good thoughts going to send to that baby bean that needs all the love it can get.

Holy crap was that there before?!?! When are you due? I'm selfishly hoping February

[lilbitcrunchy]

And yes I jumped on a cotton babies sale and ordered a slew of newborn diapers. They're still pristine in the box sigh. brookglen I don't think I'll really feel any better until I have a u/s around 7 weeks.

[itsajoi]

Originally Posted by brookglen If I may unload for a minute. Tomorrow I will be 5 weeks, 6 if we are going by my LMP. at any rate, it will be the exact day in which I lost my last pregnancy and I am in a really dark place. I am just dreading the rest of this week and seriously hoping I make it through unscathed. I'm trying really hard to enjoy this whole thing, and every little wave of nausea makes me feel better (go figure), but it's also been really hard to connect. I won't dare speculate boy or girl, and we have barely discussed names. I want to Order new clothes and prenatal vitamins, but the last time I did that the UPS guy showed up ON. THE. DAY. of my miscarriage with a huge box from Gap maternity and my prenatals. It was way ironic and not at all pleasant. Anyway, this is where I am right now, just kind of waiting and hoping.

to you mama. I know virtual hugs don't really help much, but I mean it.

Isn't is amazing the sucky timing of those things, sometimes. It makes you want to look up at the sky and say, "really?! Today?! Are you kidding me?!"

[twinpossible]

Does it mean anything if you get a test line that is lighter then the control in an ovulation test?

[Craftin'Diva]

Originally Posted by twinpossible Does it mean anything if you get a test line that is lighter then the control in an ovulation test?

Not really... just means it's not positive yet. Lots of people have LH in their system at any random time during their cycle. I always have at least some type of line and sometimes, it goes *almost* positive right before AF.

[happymama1]

Brookglenn--praying for you!

I've been busy thinking about other things besides TTC, since we are actualy TTA this month and next since my brother is getting married in 9 months....several states away.

I started running again, we GOT A DOG!!!! YIKES! He is a small, very sweet, 1 year old mutt. Kids are in heaven....I'm a little overwhelmed, but I think things will settle down once we get used to our new routine.

ladies and to everyone who needs one!!

[brookglen]

Thanks guys! I got distracted today and feel a little better, Love this thread though! There isn't a soul in real life that I could say these things to that would fully understand.

[twinpossible]

Craftin'Diva: SO odd because in the past I have had the control line but no line on the test and this time the test line was almost as dark as the control but not really. Oh well, back to using my cervix and CM for finding the O. I just thought it might help since this is the first cycle after the m/c.

happymama1: We are getting a puppy too! I picked him out 2 weeks ago but he cannot leave his mama for another 2 weeks which gives us time to get the house and back yard together. If anything it will get me back to my walks / runs at least once a day, this mama has been lazy since my m/c and bed rest from surgery.

[RunawayBunny]

Originally Posted by itsajoi Just went and stalked my due date forum. Dumb woman...

Not dumb at all. I know after the fact you obviously doubted if you should have, but facing something like that can be healing, too. I still get anxious just seeing the due date club section on here. Sometimes i wish i had th guts to just go in and check on them. I have it built up so high as this big giant scary thing and i think of them often.

Trinity - your box sounds beautiful - a great way to remember your baby.

Sandy - thinking about you. I have heard that its really hard (emotionally) to meet that milestone.

Anya - i am sorry about the opk trouble. So do you think you O'd and missed it then? I feel like using opks is an art form... one I never thought i would be so good at...

Kristen - How exciting! A dog! I love dogs. They can bring such joy to a family. We bought ten chickens shortly after my MC. They arent as cuddly as our pups, but they are sure a welcome distraction.