August 13th weekly chat

[bohemianxchaos]

Just got back from the MW. She's calling her OB friend to get me in for an u/s on monday. Baby has rolled into an even more awkward position and now she's feeling "unsure" enough to question cord wrappage or other issues.
And so of course I am an emotional MESS right now, because I feel like this would be such a letdown after all my hard work and determination. I so desperately do not want a c-section, and I'm a wreck worrying. I know that if the baby is too tangled I could hemmorhage and I *will* do what's best for baby. I'm just... let down.
And because it's an OB and I'm over my 40 weeks now, I know the second I walk in all I'm going to hear is induce, induce, induce.
I'm questioning everything now, did they miss something when I had the scan at 18 weeks? I made them check multiple angles for only one baby, and the measurements were great with no issues, but what if we missed something? Did I mess up not seeing an OB this time? What's going to happen now?
I feel like I've worked really hard for this homebirth and it's slipping away from me. I fought the tears at the MW's house and she hugged me and said, "Hopefully we won't make it til Monday, hopefully you'll go into labor this weekend and baby will spin right down!" but I can feel her unease. Baby's not even really engaged, or if it is the head is too far back for her to feel safe saying so.

I'm feeling really down and scared right now, ladies. DF keeps reminding me that we know nothing, and for all we know it's just an awkward position, or at worst a breech baby (which I am totally down for birthing). But you know how well a pregnant brain calms down....

[rosenfried2]

Originally Posted by bohemianxchaos Just got back from the MW. She's calling her OB friend to get me in for an u/s on monday. Baby has rolled into an even more awkward position and now she's feeling "unsure" enough to question cord wrappage or other issues. And so of course I am an emotional MESS right now, because I feel like this would be such a letdown after all my hard work and determination. I so desperately do not want a c-section, and I'm a wreck worrying. I know that if the baby is too tangled I could hemmorhage and I *will* do what's best for baby. I'm just... let down. And because it's an OB and I'm over my 40 weeks now, I know the second I walk in all I'm going to hear is induce, induce, induce. I'm questioning everything now, did they miss something when I had the scan at 18 weeks? I made them check multiple angles for only one baby, and the measurements were great with no issues, but what if we missed something? Did I mess up not seeing an OB this time? What's going to happen now? I feel like I've worked really hard for this homebirth and it's slipping away from me. I fought the tears at the MW's house and she hugged me and said, "Hopefully we won't make it til Monday, hopefully you'll go into labor this weekend and baby will spin right down!" but I can feel her unease. Baby's not even really engaged, or if it is the head is too far back for her to feel safe saying so. I'm feeling really down and scared right now, ladies. DF keeps reminding me that we know nothing, and for all we know it's just an awkward position, or at worst a breech baby (which I am totally down for birthing). But you know how well a pregnant brain calms down....

Ddc. Hugs mama! It sounds o scary. Will say a prayer for you and pray that baby is safe and your hb is a success!

[miraclebaby]

Originally Posted by bohemianxchaos Just got back from the MW. She's calling her OB friend to get me in for an u/s on monday. Baby has rolled into an even more awkward position and now she's feeling "unsure" enough to question cord wrappage or other issues. And so of course I am an emotional MESS right now, because I feel like this would be such a letdown after all my hard work and determination. I so desperately do not want a c-section, and I'm a wreck worrying. I know that if the baby is too tangled I could hemmorhage and I *will* do what's best for baby. I'm just... let down. And because it's an OB and I'm over my 40 weeks now, I know the second I walk in all I'm going to hear is induce, induce, induce. I'm questioning everything now, did they miss something when I had the scan at 18 weeks? I made them check multiple angles for only one baby, and the measurements were great with no issues, but what if we missed something? Did I mess up not seeing an OB this time? What's going to happen now? I feel like I've worked really hard for this homebirth and it's slipping away from me. I fought the tears at the MW's house and she hugged me and said, "Hopefully we won't make it til Monday, hopefully you'll go into labor this weekend and baby will spin right down!" but I can feel her unease. Baby's not even really engaged, or if it is the head is too far back for her to feel safe saying so. I'm feeling really down and scared right now, ladies. DF keeps reminding me that we know nothing, and for all we know it's just an awkward position, or at worst a breech baby (which I am totally down for birthing). But you know how well a pregnant brain calms down....

Ps, your dates are wrong, you're only 38 weeks and everything is fine. I said so. <3.

[bohemianxchaos]

Originally Posted by miraclebaby Ps, your dates are wrong, you're only 38 weeks and everything is fine. I said so. <3.

Dear BFF: stop crashing my DDC and reading my meltdowns
Although, I guess with nursing my dates could be off. We'll see.

[1healthylady]

Oh mama, that does sound scary. All you can do now though is trust that everything will be ok. Try to relax today and not focus on Monday's appointment. Hopefully you'll be pleasantly surprised by this OB.

We went out for my shrimp quesadillas last night. We'll see if it helps! I had cramping when we got home, but that's gone now. I feel bad because I wasn't really ready for this baby to come until Wednesday afternoon, but now I want it here NOW. It's not like I've been patiently waiting for weeks. For weeks I was just trying to keep the baby in. Now I don't want to wait all the way till labor day like I'd been thinking this whole pregnancy. I think the fact that I'm taking my leave early (even just 3 days) doesn't help. I feel like I should be doing something. I'm not good at just sitting around at home, which is why I had planned to work all the way till the baby comes. Now I have to find stuff to do to fill my days while Dh works. I should tackle some of my unfinished crafting projects. I got in a fight with a zipper yesterday though. I hate zippers. But I do need a small wet bag. I tried to be productive yesterday and bathed the dogs then cleaned the bathrooms, but then I felt like I undid everything the chiropractor fixed for me Friday.

It's good to hear from some of you ladies who already have your babes. I can't believe they're 3 and 4 weeks old already! Glad to hear things are going well.

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[1healthylady]

I lost my mucous plug today. Yay!! And still waiting.

Paula, how is everything going there?

[bohemianxchaos]

Ultrasound tomorrow morning. I feel gross achey and tired today. Earlt bedtime for me. Hope everyone else is surviving.

'Smartphone' approved

[chach4]

Originally Posted by 1healthylady I lost my mucous plug today. Yay!! And still waiting. Paula, how is everything going there?

Coming SOON! Exciting!.

[1healthylady]

Originally Posted by bohemianxchaos Ultrasound tomorrow morning. I feel gross achey and tired today. Earlt bedtime for me. Hope everyone else is surviving. 'Smartphone' approved

Thinking of you today! Hope all is well

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