Not coping well

[Koli Ava]

How do you deal with infertility?

I used to get excited with every new month thinking it could be the one I get pregnant. But as the months and years went by it became harder to feel optimistic. My first three babies were conceived "right away", so when it took me more than 4 years to get pregnant this last time I was surprised. That pregnancy ended in an early loss on June 1st.

I know I am blessed to have two children, but I want them to have more siblings. At the same time I'm tired of getting my hopes up each month. Everywhere I look I see pregnant women and babies and it is a painful reminder of my loss and not being able to have another. I'm almost to the point where I want to quit trying. I think I need to come to terms with the fact I can't have more children. But I don't know how to. I wish this didn't hurt so much.

[newmommy13]

I am so so sorry Trinity. My heart breaks for you and all who deal with infertility. I really hurt for dd not having any siblings so i can understand that part. since entering the world of foster care i get so angry at how many women can get pregnant so effortlessly, do everything WRONG to their bodies, and still end up with beautiful babies when other amazing women can't conceive. its senseless.

[Holly dolly]

(((hugs))) I completely understand your pain. Ds1 took 4 years of trying and praying and Ds2 took almost 2 years.

There's no easy answer to that constant question of "why not me?" I will be praying for you.

[lalakiwi7]

hugs momma.... it is such a hard journey and I feel like EVERYONE else in my real life seems to be pregnant except me. I will be praying for you as well. So sorry.

[mcmorley]

I'm so sorry. Dh and I had a similar conversation over the weekend. I told him I felt like I was losing hope even to ever have a baby. I hope things turn around for all of us soon!

[Koli Ava]

Thank you everyone.

I wish it was easier to have children when you want them.

I think I'm going to take a break from TTC groups and going over my chart so much and if it happens, it happens. I'm also going to try not to think about it so much and stay busy with other things. Our family went for a nice hike today and that helped clear my head a bit.

Keeping you ladies in my prayers, too.

Originally Posted by newmommy13 I am so so sorry Trinity. My heart breaks for you and all who deal with infertility. I really hurt for dd not having any siblings so i can understand that part. since entering the world of foster care i get so angry at how many women can get pregnant so effortlessly, do everything WRONG to their bodies, and still end up with beautiful babies when other amazing women can't conceive. its senseless.

Thanks sweetie.