prayers for me, please. (pg. loss mentioned) *UPDATE post 13*

[Puppydog]

I'm sorry.

2013 has sucked in so many ways.

[Chasing Zen]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Big Hugs and warm thoughts.

[FernHollow]

Thank you all so much. I had a very hard, but necessary conversation with my husband last night. I felt like I would crumble into a million pieces at one point hearing him say he still wanted to be "done", but we are now at a place of compromise and both feel very relieved. I don't know if we will have another child someday, but we've agreed not to shut the door yet. I explained that while I very much felt done before I got pregnant, that I loved this baby just like any of our other children, and that I cannot mourn that loss if I feel that there is never a chance to have that little spirit come back or to have another pregnancy. I just can't, it kills me.

I might come to in time decide that we are still done, or my husband might decide he feels called to have one more right along side of me. We have complete faith that when the right choice is there we will be 100% together on it. For now the door is being left open, even if we don't walk through it. We both feel a weight lifted off our shoulders and feel like we can focus on healing from this loss instead of worrying about the future. I still woke up sad all the way through my soul this morning, but there is at least a little glimmer of hope and a feeling of peace.

[famaza]

``We have complete faith that when the right choice is there we will be 100% together on it.``
I am glad the 2 of you could reach this stage!

[mlgurney]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know what your going through and feel for you.

[~*~Sunflower~*~]

(((HUGS))) I am sorry for your loss. I have been through it & it is hard. (((HUGS)))