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Shaysbabygirls · 09-07-2006, 10:36 AM

Hi ladies...
First, I want to start by saying if you're going in on the shopping cart cover contest, I am still running it, but it may take me a bit to complete them...

I had my first doctor's appointment today. She said that my internal exam showed me being 5-6 weeks (i'm 6wks 3 days). She could see the red blood while doing my pap. She wasn't sure where it was coming from. (I didn't ask about my cervix being open or anything....)
So they gave me the rhogam shot, and scheduled me for an u/s today (which, usually, they schedule it for 2 weeks or more). She didn't even make a follow up appointment (or my next ob appointment).
I'm all over the place with this. This will be the 3rd loss, and honestly, I haven't really FELT pregnant the entire time. yea, my boobs hurt, but I haven't gotten that nauseated like I did with my other pregnancies, and overall, my gut just tells me that there's no baby

I don't want to do it naturally, if there isnt' a baby. I want a D&C and I want to get it over with. I don't want to wait around for it to happen. (I have 3 HARD tests next week

) I think that if we see a baby, and there's a heartbeat, that I'll pass out, because I'm SOOO convinced that there isn't a baby at all....

(even though, my blood tests and my home pg tests beg to differ)
I would much rather it happen now instead of in 6 weeks, or 10 weeks or 25 weeks. It's still hard though

I'm not sure what I'm asking for prayers for. I guess for a healthy baby, and for my sanity. I honestly don't think that there is a baby anymore

so, if you're waiting on shopping cart covers, I am working on them, but it may be a bit before they go out. Depending on what the u/s says today!

keegans_mommy · 09-07-2006, 10:40 AM

I will pray for peaceful feelings

tillers72 · 09-07-2006, 11:24 AM

I will pray for the 'best' outcome....whatever that may be...and that you can be at peace with it.

Blackbirdlane · 09-07-2006, 11:27 AM

I will be praying for you.

Blackbirdlane · 09-07-2006, 11:30 AM

Just thinking that if you have lost this baby and it is loss #3, I would insist on some bloodwork being done, genetic testing or something maybe. I had it done after my 2nd loss.

also, think about the D&C, it may cause scarring on the inside of your uterus and make it difficult for a future pregnancy to implant.

when is your U/S??

Shaysbabygirls · 09-07-2006, 11:35 AM

My u/s is at 3pm. The thing is, I'm not 100% sure that I want to be pg again if we loose this one. I am so high risk (blood pressure, pre term labor, etc) that if we loose this one, I'm just so afraid that I'll end up going through it again, and again.....
We've had genetic counseling (our first daughter was stillborn due to Turner's Syndrome) and they came up with nothing, but I definately want some sort of genetic testing this time. Which is why I think it would be much easier with a D&C. we knew we wanted 3, and I was excited to find out I was pg, even though I didn't "feel" it, because I knew that we would have our baby, and my tubes would be tied, and we'd be done. Now, I just feel like how much more can I take? It's a horrible feeling. now, if this baby is ok, then i'm gonna feel like the BIGGEST dork! LOL! but I don't think everything is fine. I can't tell if my nausea is because i'm pregnant or because i'm emotional right now. my boobs still hurt.....

I will keep you guys updated!
Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes!

Blackbirdlane · 09-07-2006, 11:44 AM

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Originally Posted by Shaysbabygirls

My u/s is at 3pm. The thing is, I'm not 100% sure that I want to be pg again if we loose this one. I am so high risk (blood pressure, pre term labor, etc) that if we loose this one, I'm just so afraid that I'll end up going through it again, and again.....
We've had genetic counseling (our first daughter was stillborn due to Turner's Syndrome) and they came up with nothing, but I definately want some sort of genetic testing this time. Which is why I think it would be much easier with a D&C. we knew we wanted 3, and I was excited to find out I was pg, even though I didn't "feel" it, because I knew that we would have our baby, and my tubes would be tied, and we'd be done. Now, I just feel like how much more can I take? It's a horrible feeling. now, if this baby is ok, then i'm gonna feel like the BIGGEST dork! LOL! but I don't think everything is fine. I can't tell if my nausea is because i'm pregnant or because i'm emotional right now. my boobs still hurt.....

I will keep you guys updated!
Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes!

oh hon, I truly know how you feel. Like your life is spinning in circles and you can't control it. I have high risk pregnancies too (blood clots, neural tube defects, early delivery), so I understand what you are going through. try not to think of the bad things before they have happened. It is normal to feel scared and paranoid after your losses.

I'll be thinking of you at 3 pm!!

mom_of_3g_1b · 09-07-2006, 11:50 AM

(((HUGS))). I'll keep you in my prayers. I hope you get some answers today. Good luck!

**Julesmom23girls** · 09-07-2006, 12:10 PM

I know this probably won't make you feel any better, but you have to remember that every pregancy is different. I am on #3 and all 3 have been completely different. I had really sore boobs w/ the first, that was what made me suspecious, but no sore boobs w/ either of the others. I had mild morning sickness w/ the first, almost none w/ the 2nd and terrible MS w/ the 3rd, actually lost 10 lbs this time. So just because you don't have MS don't think something is wrong. And I had some red spotting w/ 2&3 but not w #1.

I have never been through a M/C and I can not imagine what that is like but I just wanted to give you a little hope. I hope you get good news today. Try to think positive for the baby.

Shaysbabygirls · 09-07-2006, 12:27 PM

Thanks ladies!
I'm about to leave the house. I have to go to my husband's work and switch off cars so that he can leave work to come home to sit with our kids (the place has a VERY strict no children under 6 rule). So I have to go to the u/s by myself.

But I have to drive north about 15 miles, and then from there to my doc office it's like 25 miles, so by I should be there by about 2;30, and then hopefully they can get me back earlier and get it over with!

I'll update when I get home

Thanks for the thoughts and well wishes...

OH, and i bought a breastpump, and it arrived today. My friends are convinced that it's a sign.....

09-07-2006, 10:40 AM	#2
keegans_mommy I had the CD wagon impounded! Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: In the arms of Jesus Posts: 6,696 Ratings: 204 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: Need some prayers and good thoughts I will pray for peaceful feelings __________________ Brenda & Brian-Parents to: Tiffany 15, Claire 12, Keegan 8, Nathan 6, Teague 2, Charlotte 12 months SAHM, HSing, cloth diapering, non-vaxing, babywearing, LDS, aspiring midwife and natural birthing mama

09-07-2006, 11:27 AM	#4
Blackbirdlane Registered Users Join Date: Apr 2006 Posts: 1,524 Ratings: 30 Feedback: 100%	Re: Need some prayers and good thoughts I will be praying for you.

09-07-2006, 11:30 AM	#5
Blackbirdlane Registered Users Join Date: Apr 2006 Posts: 1,524 Ratings: 30 Feedback: 100%	Re: Need some prayers and good thoughts Just thinking that if you have lost this baby and it is loss #3, I would insist on some bloodwork being done, genetic testing or something maybe. I had it done after my 2nd loss. also, think about the D&C, it may cause scarring on the inside of your uterus and make it difficult for a future pregnancy to implant. when is your U/S??

09-07-2006, 11:35 AM	#6
Shaysbabygirls Registered Users Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Georgetown, TX Posts: 2,128 Ratings: 110 Feedback: 100% My Mood:	Re: Need some prayers and good thoughts My u/s is at 3pm. The thing is, I'm not 100% sure that I want to be pg again if we loose this one. I am so high risk (blood pressure, pre term labor, etc) that if we loose this one, I'm just so afraid that I'll end up going through it again, and again..... We've had genetic counseling (our first daughter was stillborn due to Turner's Syndrome) and they came up with nothing, but I definately want some sort of genetic testing this time. Which is why I think it would be much easier with a D&C. we knew we wanted 3, and I was excited to find out I was pg, even though I didn't "feel" it, because I knew that we would have our baby, and my tubes would be tied, and we'd be done. Now, I just feel like how much more can I take? It's a horrible feeling. now, if this baby is ok, then i'm gonna feel like the BIGGEST dork! LOL! but I don't think everything is fine. I can't tell if my nausea is because i'm pregnant or because i'm emotional right now. my boobs still hurt..... I will keep you guys updated! Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes! __________________ Shay :Mommy to ^Hope Kristen^ s/b 07/04/02; London Victoria 06/13/03; m/c 08/24/04; Robynne Jolee 07/01/05; m/c 09/15/06 You know you want one of my homemade reversible shopping cart covers... it's ok, don't fight it!

09-07-2006, 11:50 AM	#8
mom_of_3g_1b Registered Users Join Date: Apr 2006 Posts: 1,381 Ratings: 25 Feedback: 100%	Re: Need some prayers and good thoughts (((HUGS))). I'll keep you in my prayers. I hope you get some answers today. Good luck! __________________ Melinda ~Mama Extraordinaire to~ Kye (5), Abigail, Kyrra and Gwendylan (2) and Ainsley (19/12/2007)